What's up?
It's been so very long since I've last posted.
Yet, I am not the least bit guilt-stricken.
Because I had been busy.
"LIAR...EXCUSES!"
Haha!
Okay, truth to be told, the lazy-bum-iness is back.
Have been slacking and playing.
To this, I am so absolutely remorseful.
Yesterday ran for 3Km, so diligent!
Later going running again.
:)
But, sad to admit, life is indeed getting boring.
The colours are fading, slowly into black and white.
(Just like the timed practice worksheets I do.)
Currently I just want to immerse in the self-denial world that I've created over the last few days, yet, the cruel reality always sinks in without so much of a hesitation.
Anyway, school's been more mild already.
Yet, the perseverance is wearing out.
It'll come back, I believe, with a greater impact.
Timed practices are irritating, and to my utter despair and exasperation, these routine will continue till Term 3.
:/
4T1 has been playing the 'Angel and Mortal' game, and i some sort of know who my angel is.
This teeny weeny gut instinct.
:]
Band is...
...
...good.
But JiaLe in band is no good at all.
One moment good, the next moment hell.
Dilemmas and dilemmas.
When will all these nonsense end?
APRIL-JUNE 2008!
Well, at the very least I have a definite answer.
Which is such a great thing.
I really pray that all these will end with just a blink of eyes.
I am really very tired.
I just can't work up a positive attitude to carry on with things.
This is very bad.
I want to be passionate and enthusiastic, for that's my happiest moments in life.
Yet, I just can't muster them up for band.
There's was a time, not long ago, when i am really very happy in band.
The passion and enthusiasm I had was really bliss.
All the laborious and time-consuming odd-jobs somehow didn't matter.
Yet, discouragements after discouragements set in.
Pulled me out of that bliss and pushed me into some darkness.
I wished for the past days.
I wished I had been more determined to be enthusiastic and not be affected by all those sickening comments and disrespect.
Yet, I am not made of stone, and I can't deny the feelings or inferiority imposed on me.
After all that had been done and said, I lost that spark that pushed me on.
It still saddens me, but it can't be retrieved.
Once lost, never to be found again.
Condemn me for being so unfaithful to band for all you want, I no longer want to care.
I regret, but I don't want to do anything to salvage the situation.
I've tried before.
Really tried very hard.
I apologise profusely.
It's time to let go of all the uncertainties.
I lost my passion, with my optimism shattered.
That's a fact that I must faced.
:(Labels: Band, Random, School
♥ much loves, 7:56 PM
Monday, January 7, 2008
Happy Birthday! ZHENGWEI!
A day late, yet there's always the saying that goes " Better late than never", ain't there?
I apologise in being late but I am so absolutely certain that my wishes for ZhengWei are so absolutely sincere.
All because it's the weekend and I didn't keep track of the days.
Gosh! This sound so like a lame and unusable excuse.
So sorry, my dearest ZhengWei.
But, still, a very happy birthday to you!
A cherished friend you are to all of us.
Your antics and humourous acts are indeed little treasures we find in our life.
Thank you so much for brightening up my days with all your spastic actions :]
Anyway, was trying very hard to read the chinese book for the postponed test tomorrow.
I really found it hard to concentrate, what with the fact that i slept at 3am this morning and woke up at 6am.
My routine now is:
-School.
-Lunch.
-Try my best to work and fail.
-Nap.
-Work till 2/3 am.
-Sleep.
A very bad timing and routine.
I will try to change it over the weekend.
Tomorrow there's band from 3-6.
I am so torn apart.
I missed band practices, the sweat and blood.
Yet, at the same time I dread it too.
I shall go to be with a cheerful mood and make the best out of something bad;
as in bad in a sense.
:DLabels: Band, Birthday
♥ much loves, 10:25 PM
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Guilty-as-CHARGED
I have been slacking for more than one day; not touching any of my work.
Guilty, guilty and so guilty.
T.T
I shall go to work after posting.
IMMEDIATELY.
Aim for the weekend:
-Finished all my work by Sunday; regardless if it is to be need next Monday or Friday.
-Do housework.
-Tidy up my room.
Yeapps; keep the goal in mind.
:)
Anyway, my mommy told me than MC KING died yesterday at the age of 4o.
I was yet again reminded at the fragility of life and unpredictables in life.
I am more so determined to treasure my loved one around me; to accompany them whenever they need; to put aside my selfish need to cater to that of theirs.
This should be the way I live.
Yet, sometimes I forget all these simple principles and rules that I should abide in life.
In the last year, more often than not, I had neglected my loved ones and carried on living my way; being the self-centered part of me.
More often than not, I always wanted them to do things for me and to feel appreciated by them; yet not doing what they wanted me to do and always forgetting to appreciate them.
A smile; a wave; a hug; and even just a note, all these never fails to brightens up another's day.
Small actions they may be, they sure do evoke the warm and tingly feelings that come by so rarely in this cold and selfish society.
Small actions they may be, all the more we should do them since they really cause us nothing.
Not a cent at all.
I shall be one who cares and spreads the message of love.
:D
Oh ya, pictures of FLY that day we went to Pastamania!
x)Labels: :D, Random
♥ much loves, 9:07 PM
Friday, January 4, 2008
Happy Birthday! WEILUN!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST LOW WEI LUN !
:D
I turned 15, and in less than 2 weeks, he turned 16.
How ironic can that be:
A guy who is nearly one year older sits beside me in class everyday.
Yet, the thing is, he is so not mature.
:\
But he's always there for me when ever I need someone.
THANK YOU!
Anyway, after listening to Mrs. P.Joseph.
I find that I am really very inspired to do what she had said as they really do make a lot of sense.
I am currently very determined to work hard.
Yet, I really fear that I cannot preserver, just like last year.
All the teachers are all saying the homework load are going to pile and pile until you will really get very busy.
Common test and another.
Then the preliminaries and then, O's.
This year is so going to fly past, like " Fhiiiiiiew", and it's gone.
Sheesh, this is so scary.
There's still band till April or May.
This is freaking me out.
Real badly.
I am set on my goals.
I must be.
I have to.
This is my academic life, and I will live it to the maximum just like I live my playing life.
Yes, I'll do just that.
---'O' levels.Labels: Birthday, School
♥ much loves, 12:04 AM
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
First Day of School
Frankly speaking, there wasn't any major changes at all.
As expected, my classroom is on the 4th floor and down the corridor, at the very end, in the biggest classroom.
:)
Great! No more stifling and cramped classroom.
Mr Ng is again, for the second year, our form teacher and that is so not a surprise.
There aren't much changes except for English, Literature, Biology and Civic and Morals Education.
Everything is nice and well; just that i haven't finish my homework.
>.<
Went to lunched with FLY at Pastamania! today and it burned a hole in my already-miserable pocket.
We self-entertained with cameras, mirrors, reflection & angles.
:D
Walked TingYan home after that and it had been so long since I went home with her.
I missed XinFang and TingYan.
:\
"I will worked hard in school!" JiaLe said.
Oh, how full of determination is she, we will watch as we go along.
:(
Self directed scene.
Okay, back to work!
---FLY; the number is 12.Labels: :D, School
♥ much loves, 11:13 PM
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
Happy New Year!
1st January 2008!
A brand new year; one I'll treasure very much and live this year to its maximum.
This is always the time for...
NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!
1. Personal Character Improvement:
i) I will be Neat & Tidy; towards my room, school and band.
ii) I will be Dilligent; at my homework and housework.
2. Personal Time Management:
I will put aside more time to help and care for my loved ones; my Family & Friends.
3. Personal Academic Improvement:
Get good results!
Lastly, I MUST KEEP TO ALL OF THE ABOVE.
^^
Well, yesterday went to play badminton with WeiLi, Keith, NguanHan, WeeKiat, JunGuan, ChzeKian, Edrei and JiaMing for about 3-4 hours.
Had a lot of fun and I've not sweat so much since band.
:]
To my despair, I got several muscle aches...so lousy!
Yet, all i want to comment is,
WHO WILL SPEND LAST DAY OF 2oo7 PLAYING BADMINTON?!
Early in the morning today I went to help my father to deliver fish.
As it is a new year, there are super-a-lot-of orders, and I almost died.
It was so-so-so-very tiring.
Anyway, to be expected, I didn't finish my homework.
LOL!
Yeapps, and school is re-opening like...TOMORROW?
Wish me luck.
;\
---Goodbye 2oo7 and Hello 2oo8; Here I Come.Labels: Random
♥ much loves, 9:02 PM
