Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Take Care!
Get well, girl!
Loves!
Flowers in my favorite colour!
(:
You are that special among all others.
:D
♥ much loves, 10:09 PM
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Whee!
Haha, didn't know what to put for the title.Anyway, stayed in school to study, haha.
Quite productive.
(:
Then the atmosphere in canteen not very condusive so I went to study at the bench beside the field.
I like to watch the trees there.
Haha!
My computer cannot sense my handphone.
I actually wanted to upload pictures.
):
Oh!I knew why my eye twitch, I was hit by a volleyball ad a basketball during recess.
Haha, nonsense!
Sometimes, I feel that I am being too critical on others.
I don't know what to do at all.
The line of kind and mean is quite unclear at times.
What other perceive may not always be true, this I have learnt.
Not to be affected by hearsay, this I have learnt.
Not to be too affected by emotions, I'm sorry to say, I have not learnt or master it.
Sometimes, I feel that I'm living my life wrongly.
Yet, on the other hand, who is there to judge?
Perhaps that's the reason why I am so interested in studying psychology?
To understand mankind better and to solve all the mysteries of the emotions.
Nobody has the right to judge, but ironically, that's what everyone does.
I don't know what I'm thiking about also.
Haha!
Just random thoughts.
Acceptance will always be appreciated in the world, but will you do it?
No, will I do it?
I will strive to become a more initiative person.
:)
Everything starts from me and myself.
♥ much loves, 7:33 PM
Sunday, April 27, 2008
(:
Yay! I completed my Social Studies essays.:D
Currently in the studious mood.
8D
I'm wearing my spectacles now by the way, hence that smilie.
8D would be more appropriate.
Heh!
Back to work.
:)
I think the feeling is true.
:]
-25o4o8
♥ much loves, 9:47 PM
:D
Haha, it's been a long time since i went into X's blog since I wasn't interested but YianLu ask me if I was the subject being mention.Well, I guess so.
Haha.
Yea, YianLu is damn cute as she thinks that X referring to Xself since X appears to have done all the act X has mentioned in her blog.
Anyway, if X really is mentioning me in X's blog, X's being darn crazy since X is so much more a hypocrite than me as I always show who I like and who I don't.
Enough about her, X's just a pathetic being living in the world of hers.
Moreover it's good that X hates me since I don't like X either.
We're on mutual grounds.
By and by, when I was showering today I though of YianLu and Patrina.
Isn't it ironic that despite everything that had happen, we still ended up being the best of friends, just like Secondary 1?
Though ironic, I am grateful.
Thank you for being the ones who don't judge me but just plainly accept who I am.
I guess we still stuck by yet all of us had matured as now, I realised, we just accept rather than judged.
:D
I love you guys!
♥ much loves, 12:34 AM
Saturday, April 26, 2008
D:
Looking at the photos take on the day of band competition, my tears threaten to fall again.Things are so different now.
I shall go for a run.
:/
Love shines through all
♥ much loves, 8:48 PM
Friday, April 25, 2008
Goodbye.
Today marks the end of a 8months and 5days journey.:)
Goodbye.
Perhaps there's another journey waiting for me to embark on round the corner.
Psst, my tutor at A Square is a genius.
He got 9A1s for O Levels.
Haha!
♥ much loves, 10:50 PM
Thursday, April 24, 2008
The No. 10 Game.
Heh, as the title suggests,there's ame caled the No. 10 Game.Haha.
Anyone who had watched WhyWhyLove may have an idea.
Well, basically, during higher mother tongue period, as me and WeiLun were too bored I asked him to play this game.
Since our classroom is at MP1, with its glass windows, we can easily see what is going on outside.
So, the rules of this game is to count up to the tenth male/female we saw.
Obviously he's looking for his No.10 girl while I looked out for my No.10 guy.
So ridiculous!
Lol, and this made me realise that boys are very scarce in the school as I waited and waited finally gt 10 boys walked past.
Both our girls and guys are very disappointing despite us playing a lot of times.
Haha!
Anyway, stayed in school today, planning to study, yet I ended up playing volleyball.
Haha, again.
Oh, very sorry to YianLu and Patrina as they actually wanted to accompany me to study end up I go and play.
:/
Very very sorry but currently got a minor addiction with volleyball.
Lol.
:D
STUDY!
STUDY!
STUDY!
>.<"
Actually I was thinking, I do things my way and you do things your way, wouldn't that be enough?
I am feeling very fine and not very irritated anymore.
Haha!~
I'm confused.
♥ much loves, 10:58 PM
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Hopelessly Cheerful
I very happy nowadays, I don't know why.It's okay, my prinicple in life: "One does not need a reason to be happy, only one to be sad."
Oh, I did 8 entries of English Writing all in one day.
Well, this shouldn't be an accomplishment since I should have handed them in ages ago, but I still feel satisfied after completing it.
Anyway, Mrs Hoe seems to be on the pale side recently, let's hope she'll be alright.
Today I decided to not go along with WeiLi to study but stay in school.
Well, halfway after completing my EW I wanted to go home yet after walking out of the school gate I though of the band room key.
So back I went to get the keys from Mrs Long.
Then it started to rain.
Luckily I went back to get since it's a habit to walk home when I'm alone.
So, if I hadn't went back I'll have caught the rain.
Phew!
Heh!
Don't feel like blogging about school, so boring.
Anyway, yesterday I had this random thought.
I was looking into the mirror and saw that my dark circles were indeed dark.
Haha!
I thought my eyes look sort of zombie like.
So I was thinking, why aren't there fat zombies in dramas?
Then, it dawned on me that perhaps there are zombies that are fat, it's just that maybe they can't hop around like the others?
Heh!
I forgot to change my MSN's personal message and it went: I don't know what to do.
It's true that yesterday wasn't as beautiful as today.
Haha, anyway, Patrina came to ask me if I am fine since I appeared to be troubled.
Thank you so much, I'm so very touched.
:D
I'm even more happier now.
It's time to set my priorities and get cracking!
I have to mend my ways.
Are you the one?
♥ much loves, 7:33 PM
Monday, April 21, 2008
I'm back!
Heh, my computer went bonkers hence I was not able to come online or blog.It just kept restarting.
Finally, we got it fixed.
:D
Well, let's see, we had a debrief on last tuesday, 15/04.
It can't be said as a debrief as only band videos were played.
Quite time consuming as I though it would only be for a small duration.
Anyway, I know that the rumours were indeed, rumours.
If i find out who's the idiot who spread the rumour, I'll kill him or her.
Haha, get my hopes as high as the sky, only to result in disappointment again.
That day was also my official last day in band.
I will miss band.
Truly.
I have learnt a lot in band, be it pleasant or not.
1. To play a cornet; trumpet and flugalhorn fundamentally.
2. To sightread faster.
3. To march.
4. To endure.
5. To appreciate teamwork.
6. To realise the ugly faces of humanity.
7. To feel inferior.
8. To shoulder responsibilty.
9. To work with stress.
I love the band, with all my heart and soul.
I feel...empty leaving it.
Nowadays, I feel so bored without band.
Yet, it's a relief at the same time cause I don't enojy going to band due to several factors too.
I really enjoyed my lower secondary band life, and the time I spent at Logistic.
No matter how dirty and sweaty I feel doing Logistics, I always feel satisfied after a long day.
My purpose was just to serve band, not get any points for LEAPS or whatsoever.
Yet, the past year at band as the Head of Logistics wasn't as enjoyable as the previous year doing the exact same things.
I will fight for the rights of the next head, believe me, I will.
Respect is one thing, unappreciated is another.
One doesn't feel appreciated by just another saying " I appreciate this alot.".
Actions speak louder than word, always.
I might join band in my jc life, as I do not want to cut off my choices too rashly.
Yet, it also depends on who are joining band too.
I will take up a sports cca.
Haha!
Anyway, in summary, I will miss band.
A lot.
Yea, and the last thing I will do for band, before I graduate, is too train the next Head of Logistics.
:D
I love this committe, regardless of everything.
It accounts largely for the growth in me.
Thank you.
Nolstagia overwhelms me.
I can't remember what I wanted t post on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday.
D:
I shall try and recall while going to the toilet to undergo the process of excretion.
:D
Well, let's just fast forward to Friday.
Haha!
English oral was great.
We were scheduled to assemble at 4.1o so we went to play basketball then netball.
I stopped at 2 plus and resumed at3, thnking that I would have suffcient time to cool down.
Unexpectedly we were called upon at 3.45.
So I was quite sweaty as I perspire easily.
:/
Not a great start, I guess.
Heh, oral is my forte since I love talking a lot.
Lol.
Yeapps, I got Mr Osgodby, and the whole session was rather enjoyable as I was laughing while talking to him.
I got 35/4o, I think, cause I sneaked a look at my marks.
Apparently, he was quite free and easy with the mark, allowing me to glance at them.
Haha!~
Yeapps, then I went with dined with Patrina at MacDonalds.
It's been so long since I last sat down and talked to her.
I miss her a great deal.
:D
We went back to attend the A Square session, which is a remedial to weaker students.
It's really very effective and I think I will stand to gain a lot in the long run.
:)
On Saturday, I was set to do my homework.
Yet, as expected, I failed.
Until about 6, WeeKiat asked me to join him and Defa to study so I went.
On Sunday, WeeKiat, Defa, Amos and I agreed to study together.
Yet, WeeKiat and Amos did not turn up due to respective reasons.
Can you imagine how awkawrd it is to study with Defa alone?!
I bet you can't, but let me tell you, the atmosphere is just very wrong.
Haha!
It's very productive studying with him though, since we rarely talked.
So it's still very beneficial.
Yet, I couldn't stand it so I asked Eugene to join us.
Lol.
Today, I stayed back to study with TingYan, as agreed upon earlier.
Yet, I just wasn't in the mood to study perhaps due to the fact that I studied very hard on Sunday.
Lol.
So I succumb to the temptation of playing Volleyball.
Off we went to play.
Haha!
Then we were asked nicely to join some people to play but being shy and too amatuer I rejected.
Haha!
Don't embarrass oneself.
:D
I'm in love with volleyball.
Haha!
Then I went for a run just now, to clear my head so I can work mmore effectively and efficiently later.
I can't stand not excercising recently.
I enjoy perspiring and running about.
So, since I had not been running or attending band practice for a week or so, I finally cannot stand it and went for a quick run.
Haha!
I am feeling so much better.
I feel as though I am just rambling on and on.
Shall stop.
Heh!
I love happiness.
I feel happy feeling happy.
:D
I'm glad I'm happy recently.
This feeling is love. <3
The beautiful mood.
Anyway, I'm going out to study on Saturday and Sunday.
Who wants to come?
♥ much loves, 9:01 PM
Sunday, April 13, 2008
It's OVER.
Yeapps, with all the hard work we put in, we clinched a Silver.Though it may not be the medal we wanted, yet we had all done our best.
Cheers.
:D
Though I do certainly feel as though we had let the school down.
The word "Silver" kind of ended everything.
What a terrifying word that none of us had even contemplated about before.
To Mr Gooi, I feel really upset.
He did have high expectations of us, yet we only manage a silver.
Afterwards while I was crying, he even walked over twice to tell me to not cry.
He's really a very good instructor, one who emphasises on our character and not the winning.
Lose with dignity, win with pride.
We did lose with dignity, despite a certain band which came over to mock at us.
I am really proud of the band for maintaining their composures.
I am really very grateful to the school for supporting us so much.
It's really a very heart-warming gesture.
When I marched over to the school, and being the first in line, I just couldn't handle the feeling that I have let them down.
I wanted to play for them but sometimes I just choked.
Thank you very much.
2010, BPMB will be back. with an even greater impact.
We shall never be beaten.
I'm very certain.
Though the path towards band competition 2oo8 started out as rocky this year, I will never regret participating.
I am who I am now mostly because of band.
I have certainly grown and I'm grateful for being able to be a band member.
Happy birthday, dearest XinFang.
Rock on.
I love you.
:D
May our friendship last.
Had an emotional breakdown this afternoon.
Thanks to those who cared.
I'm alright now.
Just that I was too busy with logistics and due to certain people and certain conflicts I just couldn't take it.
Sorry for being that weak yet sometimes, my emotions do get the better of me.
:/
I have to keep my emotions in check.
Next up, studies.
Hurdles after hurdles, I shall overcome.
I will and I must.
I will post more tomorrow, I guess.
Too tired now.
Shagged.
♥ much loves, 12:23 AM
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Tired
As stated above, I'm tired.Not only physically, but also mentally.
Tired of being disapproving towards you or even feel angry.
Nothing will change.
It doesn't matter.
Everything will end soon.
Soon, you irresponsibility and forgetfulness won't even affect me.
So, I shan't care too much.
I really mean what I say.
I am not being sarcastic or trying to hurt anyone.
I just simply don't have the energy to be angry since I see no use in it.
We were once good friends, it is this fact that matters.
Though things are not in my favour, but really, it doesn't matter that much after all.
After thinking so much, I am really very tired.
:/
I am really trying my best to not be so stubborn and narrow-minded.
I don't wish to be grumpy.
I want to be happy.
I am TOHJIALE.
Hehe, random.
But it's true, I am really TOHJIALE.
One and only.
Everyone is unique in their every own way.
Don't discriminate and don't bully.
Each one has their own parents and each has their own feelings.
Oh, and Mrs Joseph talked to us about abortion today.
The most cruel way to end a life, in my opinion.
The foetus is really very unfortunate.
It is the consequence of one's merry-making and yet it shall be killed in the own hands of its "parents" without doing anything that deserves it.
I don't understand the world sometimes.
Some people abort their foetus without a second thoughts while perhaps beside them, there's a lady weeping over her miscarriage.
The world is really quite unfair at times.
Yet, as one who have no power, what can you do about it?
One can only accept life as it is.
So let's all try to make the best out of life and spend every waking moment as happy as you can.
:D
♥ much loves, 8:48 PM
Monday, April 7, 2008
Long~
Once again, this will be a long post.Haha!
You can always press the red cross on the top right hand corner ;)
Early in the morning, there's morning sectionals, or should it be band practice.
Heh!
In turn I became 3s: sweaty; smelly and sticky.
Eeww, I can feel all of you guys grimacing.
Yeapps, but this 3s resulted in a BIGGER S: SATISFACTION.
:D
Well, obviously it was irritating how we always never get informed.
Yet thinking about it, I just feel that there's no point in getting angry.
No matter what, she's still my friend and I would like to believe she really forgot.
Though irresponsible, yet the journey is ending.
So, let the happiness linger and get rid of all the irritation and disapprovals.
Anyway, I felt really guilty for putting Jamie in a spot.
Whenever this happen, I believe she's the one who felt torn apart, who felt very depressed.
I'm sorry I did not spare a thought for you.
Things aside, I stayed back in school to do homework.
Actually it was to accompany Amos to do his work, but he got distracted.
Never mind, next time I will ensure he get his work done.
:D
He's just too restless for his own good.
Hah!
Oh, cheer up!
:]
Yeapps, but it's good, since I cannot seem to complete any assignments when I'm home.
There's just too much temptation, and I will always try my best to resist, yet always never fail to succumb to them eventually.
After band competition, I will try and stay back in school and be a hardworking girl.
I have neglected my work too much.
:(
My daddy work hard to support me financially.
He gave me the opportunity to study.
Not everyone gets this privilege.
I wake up everyday, not having the need to worry and fear for the family's income.
My mama wakes up everyday at 5.45 to make breakfast for us so we will arrive in school with our tummies filled.
There is always never the need to worry whether I would starve or not.
I am very fortunate.
I have to cherish and treasure them.
They are not unreasonable in making demands in my studies.
It is my fault that I did not live up to their expectation.
So, I must and I will work hard.
For their sake and for my very own good.
That's what they want for me in the end.
Not for them, but for myself.
Parental love, it's so noble and selfless.
Anyway, for band, I've just got this notion.
There's no use in worrying incessantly, I just have to ensure I try my best and put up the best show I can.
Regardless of the results, at least we have one another and all the lessons learnt.
Obviously a medal that would do the school proud would be appreciated, yet if that doesn't happen, we would have known we have tried our best.
BPMB: the place where character is build.
I may not be a great person right now, but I sure have matured and become a better person due to the lessons learnt from band.
Thank you.
Oh ya, tomorrow is class photo-taking.
Argh, I don't want.
I always turn out ugly.
Haha!
Maybe I am ugly.
Heh!
Never mind, being comfortable with who you are, how you look is the way in life.
Contentment; the sacred level in life.
:D
I wish for it.
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♥ much loves, 7:16 PM
Sunday, April 6, 2008
The LAST Saturday Practice.
Yesterday was the Band's last Saturday Practice.Despite everything Sir had said or praised, I really do feel that we could all have done better.
Yet, regardless of everything, I am really very proud of all my juniors.
Somehow, they have all matured and became more responsible.
Yeapps, anyway, I am still worried.
Things aside, it's quite funny how 5o days ago, i cannot wait to get out of band.
Yet now all I feel is nostalgia.
Everything's going to be so different.
Let's all complete the last lap of the band competition journey with pride and glory.
We can all do it.
Labels: Band
♥ much loves, 1:51 PM
Thursday, April 3, 2008
D:
I'm feeling very terrible right now.Help.
Labels: D:
♥ much loves, 9:56 PM
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
The Brigter Days. :D
*GRINS WIDELY*No, it's not because of April's Fool Day, though I tricked and was tricked.
Haha!
EH, I'M SO FEELING SO HAPPY.
I feel that I'm really living my life happily.
Despite setbacks and everything, I feel that this few days I'm really very happy.
Though I may be busy and stressed, but who else isn't?
Finding happiness in whatever you do is the key to life.
Happiness is just a great feeling.
Lightness; I feel that I can fly away with it.
Except, I don't have wings and I'm too heavy.
TAHAHAH!
Okay, OESHD has struck again.
HEH!
:D
I'm really super glad things very and super fine with me and Joyce now.
:D
YAY!
Things would have worked sooner, if only I have not been so stubborn.
Hah, but isn't that me--that pigheaded idiot.
Whenever a conflict occurs, both parties are at fault.
Regardless of that, I still have to say, all humans err.
As the saying goes" To err is human, to forgive divine".
Taking things in one's stride should become a practice.
Looking back and holding on to hatred and one's own wrath, is not only uglying the world, but uglying one's own soul.
I LOVE BEING HAPPY.
<333
Anyway, while I was walking home today, I had some random thoughts about my friends.
I thought of certain people(two in specific) and nostalgia set in.
The first is one who left without a word or any explanation.
I can say with certainty that you owe us one.
What's the meaning of not answering our calls, not replying our messages, and blocking us on msn?
Ridiculous, I would say.
Yet, it's your decision and if all of us cannot change it, what can I say further.
Goodbye, my friend, thank you.
:D
Now, the other friend is just a representative of everyone.
I fear that my friends come and go, always.
Only some stay on, and I'm grateful towards them.
Maybe it's my problem and my way of handling my friends?
Sometimes I yearn for a small circle of very close-knitted friends.
Regardless of everything, I came to a conclusion similar to a Chinese idiom, that it's always better to have it before than never before.
Yeapps, to all these friends whereby we were close on a very short period, still a thank you.
Cause among those period, they were always the one who spurred me on in life.
:D
Recently I think a lot and post a lot.
WEIRD~
I think a caught some "Blogging Fever".
Heh!
I can be a doctor~
I diagnosed myself with a new illness everyday!
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♥ much loves, 9:48 PM
