Wednesday, July 30, 2008
What type of person am I.
I wanted to say this since quite long ago.I am an open book.
If you bother to read, or just glance, you'll find out a lot about me.
Without much difficulties.
I just tend to tell one, if you ever take the time to talk to me, everything that going on in my world at that particular point in time.
But, yea, my deepest fears are still kept within.
(Talking to Keith reminded me of this)
♥ much loves, 9:17 PM
Pouring out, emptying.
I'm still happy and high.Ha.
Visible and very evident, I guess.
Ha.
K, yesterday stayed back in school with ZhengWei and Amos to study.
Volleyball-ed after that.
Very tired.
:/
Kept ranning after the ball.
Grah, what's worse is I developed musclesaches.
Ugh.
So weak.
Yeapps, but still, very happy though tired.
Next, today I had the last PE lesson I had in my secondary school life.
D:
And!
We didn't even get to play something we like.
ROAR.
Ha, it's okay, we'll still play volleyball next time together.
Joyce and I made a pact to play in PE attire 'cause she mentioned we won't play together in that outfit ever again.
Ha, so, I told her we still will.
EMATHS lesson.
Ha, I witched places with Jamie to allow WeiLun and her to practice their song together.
So, I went to sit with Joyce, ChzeKian, Mel, WeiLi and Edrei.
L O L.
ChzeKian and Mel were very bored and asked me to tie two ponytails at the sides of my head after realising that my hair is indeed quite long.
Ha, feeling as bored as them I agreed, and made them very high and happy.
Hmm, actually I caused most of the class to roll wth laughter as I was sitting in the middle of the class.
:/
Embarassing moments in life.
Ha, but know what?
As I grew older, I don't mind making a fool out of myself to being laughter and joy into others' life.
Ha.
Weird, but yea, I like to see others smiling.
Another weird fact about me, is that I can't stand myself being sad.
So, I won't allow myself to feel sad for very long.
Ha.
Optimism hur.
;D
Okay, so Mel and Chze raised their expectations and asked me to tie my hair that way to YMP.
Crazy.
Sorry, ain't that noble.
Ha.
Well, actually I agreed on a condition: MONEY.
Ha, but they refused.
D:
Okay, YMP.
Singing session.
:D
Ha, the class went crazy.
Really, guess my craziness is infectious.
L O L.
Everyone was so high.
Memories that I'll bring along with me when I graduate.
:D
Ha, but the guys were so dirty minded.
Gahhhh.
:/
(I always thought only Joyce was pervertic, turns out...)
OHOH.
I found myself a new boyfriend today.
PRESENTING....(No, no drumroll required, he not that great.)
LOH WEI LI.
Ha.
I don't know since when my taste got so bad.
But, aiiii, maybe I suddenly like nerds.
I wouldn't know.
L O L
Ya, I actually like him as my boyfriend 'cause he's in possession of a volleyball.
Ha.
That's the only attraction
Let's see, okay, WeiLi and I are both "CHAO LAO".
Guess, that all the similarities end.
L O L.
I'm definitely cuter.
L O L!
That's not something to be pround of when it's WeiLi you're being compared to with the odds being like...Hai,let's be nicer to him by not saying it out.
You and I both know it deep in our hearts.
L O L.
You do have a heart. No?
K, my Physics got f9 again.
No surprise.
Ha.
D:
Zzz.
Mr Chin's spectacles will practically dropped when he see my Prelims result.
(大跌眼镜)
L O L.
Tuition just ended.
Today's session is fine.
Ha, I'm quite pleased with his present attitude towards study now.
Anyway, I will really miss alot of T1-ians!
D:
Haiyerrrrr.
Sometimes, I don't understand everything at all.
I feel so foolish by being nice to others, when they don't take it seriously.
Ha.
And, I'm only nice to my friends.
So, if you hate me, it's okay, 'cause that means I don;t like you too/ don't regard you as my friend.
If you're my friends, I can assure you, you'll never hate me.
(Maybe find me disgusting, but not to that extent.)
SO, if you think you hate me, go on, hate me!
Ha.
I'm really crazy.
Ranting 'cause I forgot about something important that I want to blog.
D:
Oh ya, my phone is finally being delivered tomorrow.
After such a long wait, finally...
Aii, kk, let's talk about other things.
I always wondered why I'm so petty towards some stuff.
Yet, it's the principles at times hur!
I also view things very differently from others.
Ha.
Eccentricity.
Okayyyy, I'm tired~
I want to...(Starts snoring)
The immense and overwhelming feeling.
<3
♥ much loves, 7:49 PM
Monday, July 28, 2008
<3
I'm sinking deeper.Good or bad?
Time will tell.
Slow and easy.
L O L.
RELAX TOH JIA LE !
Ha.
♥ much loves, 8:20 PM
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Changes
I'm turning into a stress bomb.L O L.
Ha, but I'm relaxing while stressing.
Ironic but true.
Time is seeping away.
WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No, it doesn't wait for me.
D:
L O L
:O
That is so not a new discovery.
Well, maybe I can compete for the Nobel prize?
Doubtful.
♥ much loves, 8:13 PM
Side-tracking.
Hah, am suppose to be studying now!Nevermind, I come here to rant a wee bit and back I'll go.
Focus, my dearrrrrrr.
Run.
I will.
Steps after steps after steps;
Panting I might be;
But am enduring, am perservering.
Till I,
Reach the furthest I can go.
Climb.
I will.
Storeys after storeys;
Tired I might feel;
But am mounting, am going on.
Till I,
Reach the highest I can go.
All of these, I will do.
Full heartedly and not with regret.
For I, will run and climb,
Till fatigue pulls me down.
The seconds of satisfaction and honour lasts, while sweat and tears of hardwork are nothing.
They will just evaporate, sooner or later.
And I, will make it.
For I am TohJiaLe.
:D
Tralalalala.
Shall go and visit my Biology textbook.
It seems lonely.
I will not lose my focus.
I can see the finishing line.
Am reaching, am reaching, I am telling myself.
I will reached it.
Fast and quick, with efficiency and results.
Results may not be everything.
Process is more important.
Agreeable.
Yet, trust me, I'll get both the process and results.
Watch, and be awed.
♥ much loves, 5:17 PM
It's happiness.
Yes, it's happiness and exhileration I am feeling right now.Jealous?
What can you do about it.
Nothing.
Neh neh ni poo poo! ~
♥ much loves, 1:45 PM
Heh. Mission Accomplish.
Yay-ness.I'm glad everyone is studying now.
Weet-o-weets!
(:
Productive Saturday despite having Pilates.
Attempted to do geometrical proving giving up after half an hour.
Oooopppps.
L O L.
And, just nice next 2 weeks we don't have Pilates 'cause 1. The teacher is busy; and 2. It's Natonal Day!
Cool!
Just nice for Prelims.
Hah!
:D
If you find yourself not studying, please slap yourself.
Wake up.
:D
I read this today, found it quite meaningful.
True love is accepting who he was, who he is and who he will be.
<3
All the best to you.
Go and chase your dreams.
:D
♥ much loves, 9:29 AM
Friday, July 25, 2008
Oh My Goodness!
OMG!Well, a nonsensical morning I had, a peaceful afternoon with Lu and now, an exciting night.
L O L!!
My life never ever fails to be boring after all!
Ha.
I went running as I said earlier.
Then I decided to take the stairs back home.
Well, when I just starting climbing it, I smell smoke ya know?
Then I was a wee bit irritated 'cause I don't like to smell smoke.
Ha.
Well, Then I realise it's 1. hallucination, or 2. people smoking on the first storey as the smell faded off after a while.
Okay, then up and up I go.
Till I reach 12-going-13 storey.
"Hey there's chilli plants here! Cool!"
Then I went on to 13-going-14 storey.
"Hey there chilli plants here too! There's a ripe chilli!"
"Hmm, what if the nieghbours start to steal each others' chilli, will they start a conflict over this?"
(Sorry for all the crap thoughts, but they indeed went through my mind.)
Then!
Climax!
I reach 17-going-18 floor.
I saw a girl, in her 20s, a Malay.
Then I though she's smoking yea, but I still forced out a smile 'cause afterall, she's still my neighbour.
Yet, she didn't smile back at me!
(Well, actually I gave her a very very patronising smile.)
And...
I realise she's covering herself up with her clothes.
:/
Then I saw a guy going upstairs and I realise I interrupted them having sex.
Like, oh my goodness!
You tell me!
What's the probability of catching your neighbours having sex?!
:/
Fortunately, I did not catch them in the MIDDLE of having sex and see some thing I do not want and am not suppose to see.
Phew.
Guess they heard someone coming up.
Really relieved.
Well, still very very very very awkward.
And I still climbed half a flight, pass by the girl, and exited by the door.
>.<
Gosh!
Then I took the lift 2 storeys up to my house.
I hope I don't see her in the near future.
The atmosphere will be very weird.
Ha.
But, really.
You know.
I hearsay hotels nowadays very cheap yea?
Need to budget till go to stairwell...
I always plan my running time very accurately so I won't meet weird people at staircase, guess not too reliable hur.
If I go afterschool, or near evening, I'll meet a lot of secondary school students in my neighbourhood and trust me, I don't have enjoyable experiences with some of them.
Well, maybe you're like the previous friend of mine I stated who do not trust me.
Ha.
Anyway yes, I just thought 10 plus at a staircase is quite okay.
Apparently am proved wrong.
:/
And!
I think I am very weird as I always act very calmly in weird ocassion.
1. The lift incident in Sec 1.
2. The Sweden robbery incident.
And now!
The staircase incident.
L O L.
Well, in case you do not know about the first 2 incident.
In the first, was kind of harassed and so I just pressed 14 and exited the lift.
Then, in the second one, I promptly grabbed my sister's handbag back from the robber.
:/
Ha.
I always act before I think.
Crazy.
And my heartbeat only starts to race after the whole incident ends.
L O L.
Okay, enough of this crap incident.
I want to say running is useful!
Ha, 'cause I didn't lose my temper with my mother.
L O L.
I even told her to go to sleep and I'll fold the clothes which she aparently doesn't appreciates and feels that it's purely my job.
Sometimes, it's not that I am being mean or bad.
Yet, when we do the housework, she act as though that's what we are suppose to do, not even with a word of thanks.
And when we did it for a very long period, and stop, she will start to grumble.
:/
And, what's worse is she'll keep expecting us to do more and more.
Ughm perhaps all this is from my point of view.
:/
Must be nicer to mummy!
♥ much loves, 11:09 PM
Nonsensical morning.
I'm sorry, I do not need friends who do not respect nor trust what I say.As a girl, I know when my rights are being robbed from me.
I know when I am being insulted.
I know when I am harassed.
I do not need you to judge whether is it a joke.
I determine it for myself.
You, make me speechless.
Real speechless.
Ha, don't always act as though you ae so mature.
'cause you principles in life will never be those I can agree to.
That incident afffected me a lot and if you can't see that that's not a joke, apparently, you are blind.
I may not be pretty.
I may not be beautiful.
But, I hope you remember something.
I'm a human too, like you.
You attitude slapped me in my face.
And, I do not deny.
I'm irritated by you.
I'm very tired today even though I slept for like 10 hours?
Harrumph.
L O L.
Shall go running.
I'm irritated by the person stated above and my mother.
Yes, I know I said I will be nice to family.
Well, I going to run to clear my my mind so as to not irritate her anymore.
She keep grumbling that we do not help with housework.
Aiya, darn irritated.
Then she started slamming pots and pans.
:/
Well I just sat there and not say anything.
I fear I will start retorting back.
:X
Ha, tomorrow shall be a better day.
Starting off with Pilates and XinFang!
L O L.
I am lazy today.
Never mind, as I said, tomorrow will be a better day.
(I wish to help you.
The undeniable feeling.)
♥ much loves, 9:05 PM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
I'm very happy recently.
You know, I'm just very happy recently.No conflicts, no unahppiness, no anger.
Thank you everyone for taking a step back and always always accepting what I do.
I thank you the most, Lu.
Thanks for agreeing to step back.
Thanks for curbing your character, your insecurities to just let me do my things.
Thanks for all you have done.
I'm not blind, I do see, I do feel.
I thank you so.
Thank you for not making me feel anymore troubled when I was.
Thank you for taking a step back to let me have the air to breathe.
It's just so wonderful to have you.
Ha, one down point of being happy is that I'll be constantly crazy.
Geography lesson (Timed practice):
Me: Eh, I very tired leeehh.
Me: Stop, stop, stop writing.
*Act as though I having difficulty to stop myself from writing*
WeiLun: *Stares at me*
Me: Eh, haha, sorry ah, today abit high.
WeiLun: Abit? Is a lot ba.
Recess:
Me: *Uttering some crap and as usual, talking non-stop*
YianLu: *Stares at me*
WeiLun: *Eating*
LinXin: *Eating*
Me: *Began laughing over something which I found funny*
YianLu: *Stares at me*
WeiLun: *Continues to eat*
LinXin: *Stares at me and give me a " Are you crazy?" look*
See?!
Thay are all immune to me except LinXin.
):
Me: Why you all like that de?
YianLu: Immune to you being crazy le.
WeiLun: *Agrees*
LinXin: *Still thinking that I'm crazy*
YianLu: Maybe you emo we will think it's weird.
Me: *Starts emo-ing*
(Tick tock tick tock.)
--Nobody talks for very long.
Me: *Couldn't stand it anymore*
Me: Eh! I emo very long le leh. Your don't want to hew me!
LinXin: No wonder so quiet.
The other two still can't be bothered with me, and I went back to emo-ing, bursting out with laughters after 10 second.
Well, I was trying to find a reason for me to be emo.
Than I saw LinXin eating and I'm not.
So I got this idea that I'm depressed 'cause I have nothing to eat and it just seemed very funny so I burst out laughing.
By myself.
With the other 3 staring at me.
Today, I went by happily and crazily.
Ha.
PE was great.
Captain's ball boys versus girls.
I don't like NguanHan and JiaMing.
Why do they have to be tall?
To be a freak...perhaps.
Ha.
L O L.
Keith is scary.
He always stand so close when I'm on the chair that I'm scared I'll fall.
Heh! ~
But, it's fun!
(:
So Keith, don't so upset that you guys are outnumbered k.
It's just 15 girls versus 6 boys.
(Bullshit, I feel ashamed saying this.)
Okay, tuition with HongKiat went fine.
Phew.
He's better in maths already.
Hope he'll do well.
*Pray*
Okay, reflection and some thoughts.
It's okay to be "ah bengs and ah lians".
It's okay to fight.
It's okay to drink and curse.
It's okay to act cool and be vain.
It's even okay to smoke. (I hate smokers.)
These acts are all alright, as they don't hurt anyone...Well, maybe yourself.
But, it's so not okay to take revenge and harm people.
It totally changed my impression of a certain group of people.
Once, I only though they were fun-loving and out-going.
Once.
Now, I am disgusted by their behavior.
Like, "Hur?! You mean you do this type of things when you're in a similar predicament too?"
It's so gross.
What a bunch of losers.
Don't say, "Who ask him to do unjust things to my friend."
Are you a man?
Doing such low-down acts to get others into school troubles.
Losers.
Plain losers.
Actually, I'm also not too disgusted 'cause they're no one to me but just schoolmates.
It's just that such acts shouldn't be condone.
Okay, let me tell you guys something.
When we're young, my brother and I are very spiteful.
My neighbours always always smoke but we always tolerate.
Then come one day when we got very fed up 'cause whichever room we goes into there the cigarette smell, and guess what we did.
We exclaimed, "It's very smelly!" loudly.
What good does it do you may ask.
Yet, miraculously, the smoking stop.
L O L.
That was years ago.
Now, as matured being we just have to tolerate.
Haha, maybe 'cause there's no smokers in my house hence I'm so against the act of smoking.
As I grow up, I realise it's actually okay.
Like, if you're my friend, it's okay.
Yet, if you're my good friend, it's not okay 'cause I will worry for your health.
They say boys pick up smoking the fastest when in army.
So boys, listen up!
Don't smoke k.
It's no good at all.
Drinking at the very least still have benefits.
But, strictly no smoking.
Ha.
(:
Ha, another thing to share.
(Sorry, when I'm happy, I'm high. When I'm high I like to talk. When I talk I like to share ridiculous stuffs.)
I am a very careless being.
I remembered in Sec 1 or 2, I lose things on a regular basis.
I lost my wallets 4/5 times in a year.
Ha, but I always find them back except a few occasions.
I even lost my handphone once in Lot1 MacDonalds.
Yet, I found it back too.
Ha.
So, the ez-link card I have is the third one I have.
As in for tertiary one.
A pity is that I lost my primary school ez-link with my wallet.
My hamburger face with that innocent eyes with very very short hair.
(Feel like beating it when I see it.)
Okok, I share another thing which made my childhood very sad.
L O L.
I had eczema, which is severe heat rash.
(Surprisingly, I grew out of it, but adopted 2 new allergy recently)
Yeapps, so mommy dearest wouldn't allow me to keep my hair long.
The horrible thing is she really like my hair short.
As in, s-h-o-r-t.
Hahaha.
That made me look like a boy.
Ha.
And, I always got recognised as a boy.
D:
A very very distinct incident is at the kopitiam near our school.
Not the opposite one, but rather the one near to the LRT station.
Anyway, I went to the toilet with my second sister so when I step in the cleaner actually ask me, "Xiao didi, why you in girls toilet."
I was speechless as I was about Primary 1?
Ha.
Then my sister laughed all the way, from the kopitiam and on the way to daddy's car and finally on the way home.
I promptly burst into tears.
Ha, I embarassed.
K, anyway, that tells you why I want to keep my hair very very long.
I have phobia of short hair.
L O L.
But that horrible period ended in P2 or 3 when I still kept short hair, but more girl-like.
Ha.
Okay.
In this post I shared a lot of thing.
Including 2 criteria to be my beau (pronounced as boh),
1. No smoking
2. Must help me take care of my things 'cause I'm too careless.
L O L.
Randomness ended.
:D
Cheerios.
Everyday is bright and gay.
Am loving it.
Am loving you.
Am loving readers.
♥ much loves, 7:56 PM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Will you join me for the run?
Hey people.Was inspired by WeiLi's post.
I want to say:
I'm starting my run for O level.
Will you, my friend, join me too?
All my readers:
Let us all run together.
Let us all make it.
Let us all go up the stage, smiling.
Let us not shed the tears of sadness on the day in 2009.
Let us all push each other on.
Just because I think and know we can make it.
Let's all propel each other on when one is feeling lazy.
Let's all wake each other up from complacency.
Let's all clear each others' doubt.
Let us all work hard together because that's what friend are for.
I may not post that regularly already.
But!
Whenever you need help, I'll be here.
Please.
Work.
Now.
I don't want anyone of you to live with regrets.
I.
Don't want to let my parents down.
Most importantly, I'm studying for myself.
And as weird as it sounds, I'm enjoying studying.
Find joy in everything you do.
Come what may, I'll be able to handle.
Lots of love,
dearest JiaLe is signing off.
PS: No matter how the world is changing to, I choose to belive true friendships survive all.
Happy 16th birthday, Vera.
Ha, friends for 10 going on 11 years.
Though we didn't go out recently, but, you've sure imprinted yourself in my life.
You, join the run too.
Maybe we'll end up in the same jc.
L O L.
I miss you.
(:
♥ much loves, 7:09 PM
Self-love.
I just finish my lunch!I made my own sandwich intending to eat in school during recess/ lunch.
Then, here I am eating it at home.
Aii, the lack of school atmosphere.
HA.
The art of saving money! ;D
There's durian again.
:/
Yes, picked again.
Yummylicious!
Self-love is important.
I wonder if ever will there be a day whereby I love a guy till I lose myself.
I hope not.
I think that someone who is worthy for you to lose yourself will not allow you to lose yourself.
Those who normally causes you to lose yourself just aren't the one.
Have some pride, my girl.
Cherish your ownself.
Love yourself before expecting others to love you.
♥ much loves, 3:22 PM
Monday, July 21, 2008
A Happy Monday.
I'm over-overjoyed today.Yes, I am that exhilerated.
Ha.
Okay, let's see.
Went to school today, motivating people around me to study hard, mainly WeiLun and WeeKiat.
NguanHan was motivated, I hope, by me on MSN yesterday.
Ha, and you know something?
Despite Keith being sceptical about what I say, WeiLun and WeeKiat accepted my advices.
I am very glad.
Really.
Ha, sometimes, (yes, sometimes), I don't understand why people have to be so selfish.
Imagine this.
You got your ideal results, yet you see all your friends in tears.
Will this make you happy?
Well, if you are, I am sorry, but I despise you.
You, don't know what are friends for.
They fight a l o n g side with you.
Not behind or in front.
No one gets left behind; all charging together as one.
What is the point of being so selfish?
I feel so sad, look at all these pathetic beings.
Losing their way just because they are so desperate for something.
Ugh.
It kind of disgust me.
That's why Edrei never fails to impress me.
He's really the one I feel that is not selfish.
ALWAYS.
Despite being the first in standard, he is always willing to help.
ANYTIME.
That's so rare.
From where I stand...(I can see you, HAHAHAHA), ok, I can only see people who are so selfish.
D:
It kinds of saddens me too.
When we grow up, the working seociety will definitely be worse.
I've seen friends, or rather one sweet girl, who was so sincere.
She was so real in her treatment with everyone.
Yet, as time goes by, she changed.
Gone were the sweet and naive smile.
Gone were the angel I knew.
Though to others, she might have become more beautiful.
Yet, to me, she became uglier.
She once befriended all without a reason.
Now, I fear she chooses and selects her friends.
:/
Anyway, back to topic.
I just felt the urgency to study and I am spreading it to people I care and am concerned about.
So, if you, gets asked by me whether you are studying or not, you know that I care about you.
Ha.
:D
L O L.
OH YES.
Amos stepped on a nail today.
I at first heard that it was a snail hence I can't be bothered.
Then I realised it was a nail.
OH MY GOODNESS.
Like.
"Sky hit, thunder strike" (Direct translation from chinese)
Yea, luckily I think he for his Tetanus shot already.
The nail was very huge and rusty.
:/
Hope he is well.
Ha.
And yes, he has started studying too.
Good job!
:D
P/S: YuMing got the phone I wanted.
D:
Should be getting this week.
:D
So, come on Friday and check out my phone.
HOHO.
(Later my phone gets stolen...)
Nah, will take care of my phone.
Who dare to steal my phone..I will make him/her rot in hell.
HAHAHA.
Can you feel my happiness?
I hope all of you can.
Spread the cheerful spirit!
If you smile, the world is rid of one sad soul!
SO, smile!
I like the kitty A LOT
Hmm, you brighten my day too.
Thank you.
Tralalal.
Glad to know you're studying too.
I hope you are.
♥ much loves, 8:21 PM
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Lunched with family
Ha, so cool!Just after my post yesterday, everyone is at home today!
So...out we went to have lunch.
We went to Boon Lay Raja Restaurant I think, the one near JE Library.
Ha, I don't know whether my Dad has struck gold or not, we keep on going to restaurants to eat!
Last time the question is, "Jurong Kopitiam or Bukit Timah Food Centre?"
Now, it is, "What do your want to eat?"
Apparently today's answer is, "Mummy wants to eat DIMSUM!"
So yeapps, off we went to have dimsum.
Let me recall what we had.
1. Har Gao (Prawn)
2. Egg tarts
3. Fu Pi Juan
4. Carrot cake
5. Prawn + Mango Stick (Oh yea, I see mango! BUT! The mango is not nice D:)
6. Prawn Zhu Chang Fen
7. Char Shao Zhu Chang Fen
8. Ming Xia Jiao (Yes, prawns again...)
9. Dad had some porridge
10. Dad and brother had Char Siew Bun ( NOT CHA SOBA!)
11. Siew Mai which I didn't eat
TADA.
My lunch.
Hah, fulllllll!
Luckily my allergy ( I alomost typed addiction) of prawns didn't act up!
Ha, but it's mild anyway.
I still love prawns a lot!
So not deterred by my allergy.
Ha.
Realisation of the day:
Chinese dimsum is all about P.R.A.W.N.S!
Let me share a secret with all of you.
Heck all those insincere new year resolutions.
I suddenly have this urge to be:
1. One who manages her time wisely
2. One who do not let her parents' expectation down
3. One who treasures her friends well
4. One who be nicer to her parents and family
5. One who tries to accepts everything her friends decides and supports them
6. One who's understanding
7. One who's not a hindrance to anyone
In general, a better person.
Life is all about self-improving and changes you deem right.
For now, personality, parent and friends are my centre of gravity.
You cannot be my CG. HEH.
NO TIME FOR YOU!
And I am very determined.
Hah.
(:
♥ much loves, 2:36 PM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
*Trembling*
ALOHA people.Pilates is tough this week.
Hah, XinFang and I were struggling!
L O L.
Both of us trembled through the lesson, walked out of the room feeling so weak.
H A H.
Hmm, today is a relaxing day.
Yea, yea.
:D
Home alone.
No.
My mommy just came back.
Hah.
I already feel like sleeping when it's only 5 pm.
Gosh.
:/
Cherish my family!
My relationship with them are some what strained and distant these recent years.
So, I must work towards maintaining a good relationship with them.
Though myabe we won't be very very close, due to the somewhat not very big yet quite big age gap, but let us be at least a little close.
Ha.
Sometimes, we grow up losing our way.
Don't wait until it's too late before you show your love and concern for them
Anything can happen anytime and on anyone.
There's no gurantee that they will always be there for you.
Life is fragile.
Treasure.
♥ much loves, 5:03 PM
Friday, July 18, 2008
COME, determination, come!
MA LEH MA LEH HOM.DETERMINATION.
COME COME COME.
L O L.
Self-motivation yea?
Let this continue on and on.
I will succeed in achieving what I want.
So will you, if you t r y.
I believe in you.
Please believe in yourself.
I fear you will be rejected.
I'll pray for you.
If you want it, go get it.
♥ much loves, 7:10 PM
Called in sick.
Studied in school with ZhengWei yesterday.Quite productive actually, but we tend to talk.
Ha.
Nevermind, discipline.
(:
Ha, we actually planned to walked to Plaza 'cause Mr Yeo apparently had a craving for Subway.
Yet, last minute this Mr Yeo felt very lazy and off we went to take 190.
Very very long time since I went home with him and studied with him
HOHO.
K, random.
He's very hardworking.
So will I, so will I.
Ugh, didn't go to school today.
Not because I skipped it though.
Surprising, no?
It's ttotm!
Woke up feeling very terrible.
Stomachache, cramp, indigestion, I don't know.
Can't seem to point my finger to it.
Yesterday me father brought back lots of durian.
He didn't buy it.
There were many durian trees near his fish farms so don't know who picked them up and gave it to him.
HA, so random right?
Anyway, yea, so ate durian.
L O L.
Eons since I ate it.
I suddenly miss mangosteens too.
My mummy don't like me to eat 'cause I will get my shirt stained with purple juices.
Hah.
Hmm, my brother apparently didn't go to school too 'cause he was so very very tired.
L O L.
K, I'll blog next time yea.
Content running dry.
*Pour water, pour water!*
Regarding my previous post, I have not much comments le hur.
Maybe I misunderstood, maybe I did not.
He/She can just do what he/she wants with his/her life.
Not that I don't care, but it doesn't change anything.
AT ALL.
I will accept.
'cause that's what friends are for.
I will be present, here or there.
No matter where you begin, where you finishes, and no matter when.
<3
♥ much loves, 1:54 PM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Ouch.
Your words hurt.I doubt you know.
I try so hard, yet, that sentence totally slams home.
What do you define for one to become?
I guess it's finally enough to knock some sense into me.
If you really don't value me so much, why should I put you on my priority list hur?
We have the skills of infering, or perhaps you forgot I study SS too?
I doubt you learn.
Cherish?
Ha, you give me a feeling that you always d o n ' t.
♥ much loves, 3:31 PM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
HAH
K, feeling lame.Succumb to certain person's request.
Song is changed.
Ha, funny?
Reminiscing my childhood hur.
L O L.
Comments!
♥ much loves, 10:15 PM
Sixth sense.
Yes, sixth sense, gnawing/ nagging feeling, whatever you wishes to call it.I uses it in my life, and I have to say I rely on it a lot.
Ha.
K, today was dismissed at 1230.
Cool!
Went to play vball with t1 + Wei'en.
Waited for Pat to finish her MT LC, it's hard hur!
There's inferential and 'vocabulary' question.
O.o
Went to Plaza with her and ate at Subway. (Yea, again.)
Went to check out the Singtel promotion board, yes, am that deperate to get my phone.
Ha, anyway agreed with Pa that he'll pay 200 and I'll pay 100.
Sad.
Shall try to cheat my way through when buying the phone!
H E H.
I still need you.
Yes, you, the one who NEVER fail be there every morning.
Though we have become more distant due to everything, which I'm really guilty of, I still can't find any solution.
I am very sorry.
I don't know whether any words I speak make a difference but I hope it'll display my exasperation in the situation.
I can't push everything away, but I will try my best.
You are needed.
Even if the whole world deems you as useless, there's still me.
Maybe we won't stick together for every minute, every second.
Most important is the crucial point of time.
When I need you, you were there.
Really.
The most troubled period you were there.
So, I want to be there too.
Sorry for all the choices I make that put you in a very difficult position with all the unfairness pointing in your direction.
Sorry.
Call it sixth sense, but I thank it for making me know that something is wrong since morning.
Thank you for always being there.
I will try my best.
I give you my word.
Promises are never meant to be broken.
I gave you my word, but I'm trying my best to fulfil what I say.
Don't give up too soon.
Please look behind again.
You will see me running to catch up.
You will see me running into your view.
Please bear with the nonsensical me for this time.
I know it's difficult for you.
♥ much loves, 9:12 PM
Monday, July 14, 2008
:D
Volleyball-ed with t1 and Kenneth.Really, time is short and we're all splitting.
Hah, a lil' don't wish to let go of this class.
Great, beautiful day; beautiful mood;
H A H.
All perked up after all that sweating.
Ha, I like the refreshed feeling.
:D
I've decided to not be so narrow-minded.
Even if 'm stuck and hanging mid-air, I will make the best of everything.
Though at times, I feel that your will slip beyong my grasp, but I shall have faith.
I hope.
I trust.
♥ much loves, 5:48 PM
Random.
L O L.Okay, don't feel like sleeping so here I am.
I just want to shout and scream to tell the whole world that everything is so bright and gay for me.
Ha.
:D
Tralalalal.
As the saying goes "When the boat arrives at the bridge, it'll strighten."
Ha, true enough.
Yippee yaya yippee yippee ya.
Yippee yaya yippee yippee ya.
Yippee yaya yippee yi-papaya
yippee yippee yaya
yipee yippee ya.
HAHAHA.
Okay, lame.
Hey hey, it's been ages since I've eaten papaya!
(Anyway, I think the seeds are disgusting, black little dots lining the interior of papaya. Yikes!)
Okay, so I'm very overjoyed now.
Ha.
K, just now was talking to enthusiastically on msn to WeiLi that I forgot my mother asked me to help her hang up the laundry.
Then after I hung up the call with XinFang, I heard the jingle of the key and rished out of my room.
"Ask you to hang up laundry never hang....blah and blah"
Ugh, ha.
L O L.
I very shocked at the moment 'cause I totally forgot.
>.<
HAHAHAHA.
K.
Real random.
I haven't vacuum my room.
Haven't mop my room.
Haven't change my bedsheet.
Haven't re-organise my wardrobe.
~!@#$%^&*()
Lazy.
Grrrrrrrrrrrr.
HAHAHAHAHA.
Looking forward to tomorrow's CME, no?
Ha, haven't seen Mdm Marlina since don't know when.
LOL.
I'm a lil' tired, okay, make that very tired.
YET, there's still so many things undone.
Darn sheesh.
Okay, shall share with your a spoilt brat's story.
He comes once a week to my house for tuition.
He's lucky to have a darn brilliant tutor but his attitude darn bad!
Last Saturday, he actually brought nothing but a maths file to tuition.
Nothing at all for a 2 and half hour session.
Great job.
I was super angry.
As in, I always angry with him and I think I'm kind of fierce but he always couldn't care less.
Feel like slapping him on the head at times.
(No, I didn't do it. I'm demure and gentle. L O L!)
Ok, so I've not been complaining to his mom and I think he just take everything for granted.
His attitude was deterioting when it was super bad to start with.
So, I sent him home early and called his mom.
Then, as it was payday (YES!), his mom say she'll bring him and money to my house later on.
Wah, she darn fierce, she brought along a cane to give me, telling me to cane and scold her son anytime.
>.<"
Eh, nice.
Ha.
Anyway, background information.
This little boy is a darn darn darn spoilt brat.
His daddy dotes on him and he grow up to be a spoilt brat.
Just a Primary 6 boy and he don't do his homework at all.
He has since started to fail Maths and English since Primary 4.
He always procastinate me by smiling when he lazes and don't do his work.
I gave him a test, of questions I went through with him and he got 30/100.
For a maths paper, reaching qns 47, 48, 49, 50, he will just skip without even attempting.
Okay, apart from Maths, he also does not have a good character.
He stays up till midnight and play gameboy or handphone secretly in the dark in his bedroom.
Never mind that, he still downloads games and uses GPRS with his phone, resulting in the phone bill coming in at 150-200.
Not once, but twice.
Again, it's okay, but he shun responsibilty and pushes all the blame to his little brother,
~!@#$%^&*().
Okay, I shall be meaner to him.
I think I'm quite nice to him, I always give him chocolates to eat.
Shall stop doing that.
Angry.
OH ya, somemore if he want to be rebel it's ok.
Yet, once his mom raised her voice he burst into tears.
Ha, I sound very mean right.
Yet, when he cry I'm the only one who consoled him.
Ha.
I'm scared of his PSLE.
Shucks.
:/
Ha, really, I don;t know what to do with him.
Thank goodness I'm just his tutor and not his mother else I disown him.
Ha.
K, end of ranting.
LALALA.
Can't wait till school and go crazy.
Hahahahahahahaha.
♥ much loves, 1:03 AM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
AM A TYPO QUEEN.
Ha, WeiLi keep saying I have a lot of typos.Well, I admit.
Yet, ain't that good.
At least I'm a queen.
Hohohoho!
Hmm, I realise everyone is having problems in their life.
Nevermind hur, cheer up!
The sun is still shining for all of us.
HOHOHO.
Keep your smiles on!
I will greet everyone a bright and chirpy "good moring" tomorrow.
Ha.
(:
(Provided I know you and that I don't think that you don't like me.)
Hah.
OKAY.
Dinner:
1. Some veggies.
2. youtiao with some fish paste stuffed inside.
3. Fish.
4. Cracker Prawn.
5. Fried Chicken. (EEEEEWWWWWW)
6. Tofu with a lot of things!
Ha, told WeiLi I will go and commit suicide.
I was saying that I will make it to THE STRAITS TIMES headline with "16 year-old causes a earthquake measuring 9 after a jump".
He beg to differ, saying that mine will be in the gossip section with this:
" 16 year old jump. Mass reduction of land pollution. Share your views"
H A H.
He say if it was him jumping it would be:
"16 year old science whizz jump down- A grievance to the world's society and the field of advancing science".
Heh, and I argued, saying the lines will read "Governement calls for a public holiday tomorrow in response to Singapore being rid of a useless geek.".
L O L.
We are so childish!
Heh, eons since we last talked for so long.
I'm feeling very cheered up after talking to him.
THANKS EH WEILI!
(I don't mind that you're a geek, balances me out.)
HAHAHAHA.
♥ much loves, 7:34 PM
Neither here nor there.
I'm kind of lost.I'm some steps from reaching there, yet, I'm not here too.
Darn shucks.
Do I really have to make a drastic decision?
Help.
Oh yea, I cleaned up my room.
Happyhappy!
Going to eat with family later without my big sister.
Hohoho.
Coooool.
(:
At least the plan is settled and won't changed tomorrow.
Someone, at the very least, will be studying with me.
Thank you, ZhengWei, you don't know ow much it means to me.
Hah.
♥ much loves, 4:21 PM
Quick update
-XinFang was late for almost half an hour. LOL-Pilates lesson zoomed by, enjoyed this week more than last.
-Breafasted at CC.
-Restocked fruits.
-Tuition was a mess.
-Reveived pay.
-HongKiat was scolded by his mother, cried terribly.
-Nothing.
-TV-ed.
-Poured out everything.
-As sucky as ever.
Tomorrow will be a better day.
♥ much loves, 12:16 AM
Friday, July 11, 2008
HAHAHAHA.
Okay, sudden desire to laugh loudly.Entertained.
Ha, he even believed it when I told him my number is 99564872.
L O L.
Didn't realise until I told him.
Hmmmmmm.
OKOK.
Me Ng is cute.
Ha, 'cause apparently 4 people were absent yesterday.
L O L ~
So, being so smart, he figured out that yesterday was the auspicious day to skip school.
Out of 4, only 1 of whom is truly sick.
The other three, mainly Mel, ChuBin and Yours Truly are faking it.
Lol!
He saw us and didn't even ask for MC.
Just smile and ask, "Where's your letter?"
Ha, he even self-serviced and tore it out from my foolscap pad.
Cool.
Ha, well, let's see.
The lessons were as follow: Social Studies, English, HMT(Teacher was absent), RECESS, Reading, Geog and YMP.
See, you tell me should skipp or not?
Ha, finally there's one day in my whole timetable without any science.
Not even one.
Ha, should enjoy!
OKAY.
Today skip timed practice.
Yea, like just walk away.
L O L.
Didn't feel like doing and we didn't want those who didn't have to wait for us.
Went to watch Hancock with WeiLun, Jamie, Keith, YianLu, Jiaming and Brian!
It's so-so, not too good and not too bad.
Almost fell asleep at the first part and realise LULU felt like sleeping too!
Oh yea yea, tried Prima Deli's Custard puffs.
Shared them with lulululu.
It's not very nice.
Don't try them.
L O L.
Maybe 'cause they're not cold.
Chocolate waffle is still love, yea XInFang?
Ha.
Yea, today shall sleep early, there's Pilates lesson bright and early tomorrow morning.
My mommy is very very very very very random.
She made some rice dumplings.
L O L.
So I bringing tomorrow to share!
Ha.
(:
Hmmhmmhmmmmmmmmmmm.
I forgot what I wanted to post.
Harrrrrrump.
Heh, using my supernatural power, I remembered!
(Actually I was adding the Prima Deli Custart Puff part when I remembered 'cause this is the reason why they were not cold.)
Well, I went to check at the Apple Telecom shop in Lot1, and promptly realise that my contract is not yet 21 months.
23 of July will mark it.
2 more weeks will fly by.
Well, I hope the price will drop from 298 to like, lower?
I'm not trading in, (following everyone's advice), so I think 300 is a lil' too high for my parents too pay.
D:
Worse come to worse, I'll pay 100 myself, but I have no money already!
Borrow from them and return next time?
Maybe.
Hah, depends on their generousity.
So, DROPDROPDROP!
Or, maybe a sudden promotion of the phone?!
Ha, actually I could jolly well wait till September or October to buy.
Yet, I'm really very excited now.
Moreover, what if they don't allow me to buy after Prelims, after seeing the results.
Or, what if I'll be busy studying?!
Ha.
Further more, I really don't think the price is going to drop.
But, pray do.
I also want to change my phone quick so I can upload pictures.
My blog is so dry.
Grah.
So troublesome to keep getting pictures from others and not be able to take pictures you like.
Shucks.
I WANT TO CHANGE MY DUMBASS PHONE.
K, don't scold it, later it might go on strike.
After I buy a new one, I'll scold.
Ha.
I have to be more careful with phones!
Stop dropping them, butter fingers!
And.
I can't find a nice handphone pouch that is comfortable for the phone to rest in.
Irritated.
Sad.
Aiya, see, I started my post so happy now a little sadder.
Ha.
Heeheeeeee.
(Attempting to be happier.)
Ha.
OkayDokay, let's share some randome facts.
Taggers do share some random facts too.
1. I am having fruit feast recently, 2 Kiwis and 1 orange/pear/apple daily.
(Today only had a pear and another yucky pear, 'cause apparently I finished all the fruits in the refrigerators. RESTOCK!)
2. I developed a new allergic to kiwis.
Its mild, and only at times.
Ha, I keep developing allergies to my favourite food ( Eg. Prawns.)
3. My sister pass her driving test with her sprained knee.
Goodness know why she can't do it without the sprained knee, but *shrugs*, it doesn't really matter.
4. I hate food that glows/ have a sheen.
( Eg, Char Kway Teow)
This always shows that the food is super oily.
5. I cannot stand chicken, it makes me feel like puking.
(A recent thing too.)
6. I need a cup of coffee everyday for school or I feel darn drowsy.
7. I am trying to be a better person.
8. I am a grumpy person with a not-too-superb, aye make that bad, temper.
9. Hmm, I think that I have grown a lot in secondary school. (Personal reflection.)
10. I do not have any distinct ambition in mind, just a few career choices.
Ha.
Good nighttttttttttt.
♥ much loves, 10:18 PM
Thursday, July 10, 2008
(:
Ha.Absent from school again.
:/
K, aside from that, just want to say, feeling lazy and don't feel like blogging.
Feel like blogging at the other blog, but, feel too suffocated to write down everything.
Shucks.
Anyway, I can change my phone already.
After the long 21 months wait.
Ha, so long my dirty, full of scratches, spoiling and ugly w700i.
Hahahahaha.
Darn happy.
Shan't tell you all what I'm changing to.
Check back to find out.
Hoho.
Pictures:
( Not in order. Some taken in Subway, some taken in bus, some taken at bus stop, some at school.
Go figure.)
♥ much loves, 9:10 PM
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Lethargic.
Great, first day of school and I already feel half-dead.Sheesh.
D:
Tomorrow's there PE.
Weetwoo, but my knee haven't even heal properly.
On the way, on the way.
Wanted to go running today, but as I say I'm currently half-dead and as I currently still feel like living, I didn't.
Oh yea.
The Havaianas are here-io!
Super glad.
Pretty pretty.
Moreover, it's like 2 pair of flipflops and 2 pair of sandals for 62 bucks.
Since when there's such deal?
Ha.
One of the flip flop actually is buy for WeiLun, but he a lil' dumb, get a size too small.
So, Crystal, there you go!
Hope you like it.
(:
And Lulululubaby, hope you like your sandals too.
Yes, I like my sandals and flipflops.
Hoho.
I know you're jealous.
*Flicks my hair and act snobbish.*
Hah.
I so so so so so so so feel like sleeping.
Endure, baby.
Gogogogogo.
I still have piles of undone homework.
Shitty shitty shucks shucks.
Oh yea, by and by.
I have officially withdrawn from night study.
Ha.
Formed own study group.
(:
Okay.
Optimism still rule k.
Sunshime girl is back with a greater impact!
Hoho.
See that? She's waving at you.
Okay, getting pictures.
Transfer rate is....s---l---o---w.
Next time photos up!
:D
Love happiness.
Hold on to it.
Thank you so much.
Thank you so very very very much.
♥ much loves, 8:09 PM
Monday, July 7, 2008
Wondering.
Let me pose a question.WHY YOU ALL LIKE TO BE SILENT READERS?!!?!
HUR?
HUR?
HUR?
Haha.
Come, Miss Ong Sie Yuan and
Why?!
Hahahaaha.
No la, kidding.
Just wondering.
Maybe you two can give me an answer 'cause I kind of like spamming people's tagboard.
Haa.
Next, I promised ShuQin I will post about her.
Don't know whether she'll chanced upon this.
Yet, let me tell you all this, don't ever judge a book by its cover.
ShuQin, on the surface, just look so like a typical mugger.
Yet, NO.
Yes, a big and fat NO.
She's actually crazy, yes, almost like me.
Yeapps, but you all know I'm unbeatable when it comes to craziness.
Nevermind, back to the almost unbeatable ShuQin.
As she was passing on the relay message to me (Yes, she's that lucky.), she went crazy...Yet again.
Ha.
Since the sports carnival, I have never doubt that she's a little screwed up there in her mind.
Heh.
Ha, anyway the conversation is a little embarrassing so shall stop here.
Main point being, ONG SHU QIN, is very unstable.
She actually insulted me.
Thank you.
Hahahahaha.
Okay, let me think of other things to post.
(I always like to post when I'm feeling not very bright.)
Ha, for your information, sunshine girl has gone on a holiday, thinking that she deserves a break on Youth Day.
Yet, somehow, she kind of lost her way.
I will find her back.
I don't like gloomy and dull days without sunshine girl.
Though craziness always comes as a package with sunshine girl, I can balance and handle it better than darkness.
So sunshine girl, if you hear this, come back quick k?
Your owner misses you.
(Apparently, craziness can also be present without sunshine girl.)
*Damn, I can't upload pictures*
我真希望是你。
看到那第一个字；实在是妄想。
♥ much loves, 10:21 PM
Grrrrrrr.
Shitty shitty shucks shucks.I can't get into the mugging mood.
I spend so much effort to swing into the mood.
And there you go, within a few minutes, I'm out of that mood.
I won't say it's because of you.
Yet, you are one factor.
No, this you is not a he, is a she.
Darn idiotic.
"I study for ownself."
*Brain washing in progress*
`I am scared of failure, so, I won;t allow myself to fail.
♥ much loves, 7:21 PM
D:
Darn sad.I've finished reading PlainTruth.
Hai, nowadays, I'm weird.
I love reading, but I so so so hate it when I finish a book.
The feeling of emptiness.
):
Okay, PlainTruth is goooooood.
:D
JodiPicoult is greeeeeeat.
Okay, shall not keep dragging my letters le
My sister sprained her knee during her volleyball training yesterday.
Looks to be super bad.
Like today she woke up, she can't bend her knee then I have to run here and there to help her get her stuffs.
):
Her boyfriend then came to accompany her to visit a doctor.
Doubt she'll be ok soon.
D:
Haiyer, I feel super bored.
I don't feel like studying.
I am feeling alright but not okay.
Ha.
Crazy.
K, I shall be random.
Let's talk about pets.
Hmm, when I'm growing up, I don't have any pets.
Well, except for one little fighting fish my siblings and I got from my Dad's fish farm.
Hah, guess his name?
Xiao Bai.
Lol, guess we fancy ourselves to be Cranyon Shin Chan.
Ironically, the fish is blue in colour.
It died some weeks later.
Lol.
So, because of the lack of contact with pets, I'm quite scared of dogs, cats and hamsters.
Whatever furry animal you can get close to me.
Hah, but after going to Pat's house so many times, and after running round and round and round and round ( you get the picture) with her super irritating and pervertic dog, I'm quite okay with dogs now.
Anyway, just to share, her dog (Bibi) is super prevertic.
He has his favourite dinosuar which he loves to...Hmm, don't know how to describe.
Ha, use your imagination.
Okay, anyway, stop digressing.
Let me show you guys the dog I want to have next time.
Ha.
Yes.
I love pugs!
Maybe it's because they look the most like pigs, so maybe we can win a owner-pet lookalike contest.
You'll never know.
Hah.
Anyway, I just find they super super cute.
Maybe 'cause I don't like skinny dogs.
Hah.
I like cuddly ones.
:D
Like, why do they look so sad.
Then every morning I can wake up and sing "I'll stand by you" to him.
Hah.
"Oh, why you look so sad!~~~"
Haha, so hilarious!
Haiyer, but I think they very sad.
Scientist have researched on them to find out their good points.
Like certain dogs can be guard dogs and stuff.
Yet, pathetically, they have none.
1. They snore.
2. They're the smelliest dog.
3. They only eat and sleep.
Anyway, I just find they cute.
If ever I am going to get a dog, I will only get a pug.
Yet, I doubt I will get them.
I'm scared I won't take good care of them.
So there, this ends my random post.
Hah.
Aren't pugs cute?
♥ much loves, 11:32 AM
Sunday, July 6, 2008
I'm just tired.
Hah.Got the notion to close down this blog is because I feel so tired and scrutinised.
Slacked a lot.
Went to Chinatown with Mama to eat dimsum and shop today.
Has been ages since I went out with her.
I've not been a good daughter.
(Time travels back to Friday.)
Early in the morning, while my Ma was cooking breakfast.
I 'danced' into the kitchen and announced in a sing-song voice, "OOO, hen xiang, hen xiang! Zao an, zao an mommmyyy!~"
Yea, and guess what she told me.
"Wah, you very long never greet me good morning already hur."
True, sadly.
Sometimes, I don't understand what I'm doing.
I greet people around me good morning, but somehow I never do it to my Pa and Ma.
When I'm small, once my father somes home, us children will chorus " Papa, Papi, Lao pa, die, daddy....Ni hui lai le!"
Hah, I rarely does it nowadays.
D:
Okay, yours truly shall be nicer to my family.
(:
Oh yay, yesterday went for the first Pilates lesson with Fang.
Darn cool.
Hah, but we were trembling while doing certain actions.
Sheeesh, weak.
After Os we'll be doing kick-boxing.
L O L.
We're crazy.
Night went to Pizza Hut at Greenridge shopping centre with Ma and Kor.
Hah, we laughed while eating.
Nice homey feel.
:D
Anyway, the reason why I feel like closing is just simply because I feel frustrated about some matters which I apparently can't post here.
I'm just selfish.
I feel tired.
I can't stand that my timetable changes because of you when in the first place, I changed it to suit you.
I want to help you.
Yet your disregard, your lack of appreciation make me SO
T I R E D.
Do you even understand?
Look at your priorities.
Why does he even seem so important.
What the fuck are you trying to do.
Yes, I am THAT tired and irritated.
Do you even feel anything.
Please don't take everything for granted or I will leave.
I mean it.
I'm not that noble.
For this, I feel guilty.
Yet.
Yet.
Whatever.
Endure.
I mustn't lose my temper at you.
Anger management.
I am almost finishing Plain Truth.
I feel peaceful while reading it.
♥ much loves, 10:26 PM
Friday, July 4, 2008
School Bazaar.
I woke up bright and early (actually 10 minutes later than my usual time which is 6 am).Got the random urge to bathe, so off I go.
Dilly-dallied and so I told my daddy to go off without me ( though actually I wanted him to wait 'cause I'm lazy to take the LRT).
He!
He!
He!
Replied okay. and off he went.
):
Haiyer, his daughter fall down, has a rotting kneecap he still went off.
Broke my heart!
D:
LOL!
Okay, so actually didn't plan to reach school thaaaat late, but finally arrived at 730.
Woah!
L O L.
:/
Well, on the way there, remembered that we have to wear PE shorts so SOS WeiLun.
Hah,I called him and ask him about it, realising he haven't went out I asked him to help me bring.
Tralalalal!
(:
If I had known TayYenYen also wearing fbt underneath skirt I won't bother at all.
Heh.
Hmm, you know something?
MY FRIEND IS THE BPIAN IDOL.
Hah, how cool is that.
Didn't manage to get the photo I took with her.
Nevermind, shall get it from Jamie next time.
Yeapps, babe, I'm sooooo proud of you.
Great job!
Hah, though I didn't went to celebrate with you but, you met me at MOS too.
(:
Hmm, can see that you're troubled lately but we've not been talking recently.
Just want to say you can talk to me any time yea?
Don't feel so troubled and sad.
Rejoice that you have such a cute friend(Miss Toh).
Yea, but, somehow, it's understandable, 'cause you have a friend like...Let's say, Miss TayJieXin?
Haha, anyway, very very very exhilerated you won.
300 bucks as the prize!
You're rich!
*Envious*
Lol!
Hmm, morning got mass exercise.
Was with class with Crystal, and I looked left, looked right, looked up and finally down and realised everyone is so not high.
):
Off I went to fing TingYan at 4p2, hah, I can blend in well.
Hmm, attempted to be high and I still appeared to be a mad woman.
):
Too bad XinFang skipped.
Sheesh, else would be higherrrrr.
Hah.
Okay, anyway, ZhiYing came at 10.
Hah, erm, the bazaar is really
TingYan wanted to drink and eat ice cream but seriously, am disgusted.
Hah, really, the icecreams look like soups (:
Tried ZhengWei's Strawberry Green Tea and it was...terrible.
Tried WeiLi's Milo Dinosaur and it was...quite terrible.
Kenneth's Strawberry Milk Tea is the best.
Haha, okay, shan't be mean.
It's their effort yea?
Hahahahaahah.
Oh yea oh yea, met Cindy and she gave me and LuLu a mini Trumpet made of wire.
Really very sweet.
Saw Alywin and Jason, and they smiled at me.
Hah, though I'm not close to them, but somehow, I just felt very touched when they smiled at me.
Trust me, I'm not a good senior.
L O L.
Shall get Trumpet section some stuffs when I feel richer.
(Time travels to 10 year later.)
Hah, TingYan and I played dart game.
L O L.
It wasn't challenging, perhaps 'cause we were basing it on luck.
Heh!
Hmm, slacked after we spent finish all our coupons, and XinFang's.
L O L.
Yet, it's kind of cool to look at the school from 4th level, aka bird's eye view.
The atmosphere is so high and everything is so colourful.
Haha, anyway, lent everyone my Biology textbook.
Heh, and they all realised as fun as it may be, there's so many scientific terms.
D:
Take for example the topic everyone so enjoy, Human Reproduction.
Haiyer, so many scientific terms.
No fun.
):
LOL.
Yes, but through a small action, from biology class, I'm so grateful I'm not colour blind.
It's like, really black and white and that's it.
How can you use colours to express your mood?
Moreover, I cannot tell everyone my favourite colour is Orange and Yellow.
Haha, I like red too.
Green is a lil' higher than average due to influence from WeiLi and LuLu.
Hah, can't imagine my favourite colour last time was purple.
LOL.
Anyway, after bazaar went to lunch with Patrina, YianLu and ZhiYing.
MOS was the place.
Hah, very very cramped.
):
They ate and we chatted.
Then at 3, it was Patrina and me who were hungry so teleported to Subway.
Hah, I'm sick of Subway.
Sheesh.
I have been eating the same ol' thing.
):
6inch Hearty Italian; Tuna.
Toasted with cheese.
Lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers, onions and pickles.
Honey Mustard.
White Chip Macademia nut and Chocolate Chip.
SICK.
L O L.
Hmm, chatted some more.
Quality time.
(:
It's been so darn long since we all got together.
Like so much more than a year?
Though has been spending time with ZhiYing, my misfortune.
):
Hah, but it's great.
After TingYan and I studied there's someone to drive us home.
L O L.
Thank you, haven't been thanking you properly.
It's really been a great convenience.
Though I seriously don't like your friend who always want to share seat with us.
Next time ask him/her to sit on the floor yea?
Hah.
Today I'm feeling very random as I screwed my timetable.
I slept at 5pm 'cause I was very tired.
Darn shucks.
So, I shall share 10 random facts about me.
1. Recently, I like to iron clothes, as it gives me a feeling of smoothing away troubles.
2. Recently, I L-O-V-E to brush my teeth with a lot of toothpaste 'cause I like the stinging sensation.
3. Recently, I got dry lips, for some idiotic reason which I can't figure out why.
(Maybe it's the excess toothpaste.)
It got to the point where I have to apply lip balm frequently else my skin will tear.
4. Tomorrow I'm starting lesson with CaiXin at ZhengHua CC.
5. I'm still not ready for O, not even Prelims.
6. I was slapped by my mother once when I'm P3/P4 'cause I reorted whatever she was saying back. (Hah, this is really random but we talked about getting our parents angry today.)
7. I'm aiming to go to HCI or AJC.
8. I'm joining a sports CCA in future.
9. I'm trying to improve my complexion.
10. I'm growing out my hair. Haha, it's a lil' past mid back.
Heh heh, happy happy.
Kay, I shall do a quick activity.
Once you read THIS post, you must tag " AYE, you're random!" at my tagboard.
If there's less than 20 people, I'll close down my blog.
Haha.
So help me, 'cause I want to keep my blog.
Sorry, craziness taking over.
L O L.
Hah, I'm about 50% serious, 'cause I'll be getting busier.
So am pondering whether to close down.
I'm tired.
I don't know why.
Maybe I'm thinking too much.
♥ much loves, 10:17 PM
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Scheming.
Shall be a scheming little pig and pretend that I'm late tomorrow so I won't have to take the stupid SS timed practice.Hmm, doubt school bazaar will be fun-o-fun.
Yet, being an obedident student, I will be present.
Wootsie!
Hahahaha.
Hmmmmmm.
I just got to know my rank in band is staff sergent.
Hah, last year, I still told myself I must become a staff sergent.
Yet, one way or another, the novelty of staff sergent has already waned.
I'm no longer estastic about it.
There's nothing more to it.
Just that if I remain a sergent I won't attend the promotion ceremony while if I get promoted, I attend.
Simple hur.
I'm so not interested in it after all.
"Do I want to fight for a higher rank?" WeiLun ask me.
What for, my dear?
I'm tired of all these, I'm just happy that there's no more conflict no more unhappiness.
I'm just so glad that I'm still on good terms with Joyce.
There's nothing else that ever ever matter now.
Why should I try and start another conflict or argument when all is peace.
Yet, to other heads, I'm so sorry.
You guys deserve so much more, yet, that is so not what it is reflected.
All of you may feel saddened by the rank, yet, I doubt anyone of yo will want to argue and fight for it.
I have to say, I'm a staff sergent simply bcause there was sir and Miss Ng who apprciated my efforts and fought for my rights last year.
Hence, the result this year.
We are all Sec 4.
We no longer have the guts and attitude like we once had.
Hah, forced acceptance?
Perhaps.
I've said I'll come back in 2010.
Yet, I'm thinking.
Will I?
There's nothing more for me to cling onto anymore.
Moreover, I don't wish to see you after all this things.
Never will I want our roads to cross again.
You might be a good person.
I know.
You may be a good friend, but the fact stands that we are not good friends.
We started at the wrong road and hence, I do not want this route to continue.
Let's all end it when we graduate.
(:
Heh.
I'm really so so so happy recently.
Hahahaha.
Yet, sometimes, I wonder if I'm just delibrately not voicing out my opinions to just maintain a peaceful environment.
As we grow older, we tend to be more fake.
I confess, now, I don't dare to tell my good friends how I really feel.
I try to give in, yet she doesn't feel it.
As time goes by, she just treat everything as natural.
We've yet to reach that point, yet, when we do, I'm bound to feel tired.
I'm just so selfish.
Yet, I need an environment which suits me best.
For the time being, I'll try to live in your environment 'cause you need me to push you onto the tracks.
What happens next?
♥ much loves, 11:15 PM
SLACKER.
I did nothing.Hah.
I repaid my sleep debt.
I trim my hair.
I trim my eyebrow.
Hah, all by myself.
Save money! ~~~
Hohoho!
That's all.
Okay, will get back into working mood soon.
It's so fatastically great.
I don't have to take SS time practice.
Cool!
Ok.
I want to watch Hancock.
Gogogogo.
Who want to watch?
I hate flirts, so you jolly well get you and your smses out of my world.
Goodbye!
♥ much loves, 2:09 PM
Everything.
HoHoHo.Recently am quite joyous.
I'm glad everything turn out this way.
Hmm, as in, obviously, everything can be much more improved, but it's great overall.
Yea, today's not Saturday yet.
Aye, who cares.
I break my own rules.
L O L.
Well, I'm not going school tomorrow yea?
Tired and irritated so S K I P.
Ugh, just remembered told Amos will listen to his oral experience tomorrow.
Shuck, have yet to find out what happened 'cause both NguanHan and him ignored me.
>.<"
Hah, today dearest OngTingYan skipped school.
Heh, met her after school to study.
:/
Didn't study effectively.
Ohoh!
There was PE lesson today.
Injured kneecaps due to doing several stunts like skidding on the basketball court.
:/
Now's there's a horrible stinging sensation.
Grrrrrr.
Well, the girls were pretty high and mad today,
Probably releasing stress from studying too hard.
T.T
So, I adapted and successfully got injured.
L O L.
I'll really miss them yea?
Though we are so not very close, but really, they're so much a part of my secondary school life.
I don't know how many of them will read this, probably not much, but I will really miss seeing them in school.
Moreover, they are the ones who have seen all my unglam moments, like almost falling down 3 times in one PE lesson, having the ball rebounced and landing promptly onto my face, attempting to catch a ball yet totally missing it.
Hah.
Sounds like a klutz.
D:
So darn cool.
Kind of regretted that I've never taken the initiative to know them better.
L O L.
Hah, anyway, something unhappy happened during form class today.
I don't understand what is the problem with you.
I argued and retorted not because I feel insulted, but rather am displeased at how you categorise and label groups of students.
Goodness gracious, you are an educator.
A student is a student, no matter what stream he/she come from.
Stop harping on the 'Ts', 'Ps', 'Express' and 'Normal'.
It'll do you no good but let us lose our respect for you.
We students, are so segregated is all because of teachers like you.
What's up with all these?
Aren't we all equal, coming to this school to study?
Who says Triple Science students can't make noise when you're talking.
We are simply just students who take more subjects than others.
What's your problem with this?
Never have we felt that we are very brilliant.
Really, stop treating us like Primary 1 kids.
You told us to line up according to height, we did.
You told us to line up according to gender, we did.
You told us to have a systematic sitting arrangement, we did.
You told us to switched row every term, we did.
All these yet again emphasise how much you love to label and categorise people hur?
What's next, my dear teacher?
Holding hands while walking back to class?
Puting a finger to our lips?
And, please stop defending that you're not labelling students and you like certain kind of students better 'cause once again, you'll be categorising people again.
The more you try the more you fail.
"You must learn how to respect yourself before others respect you, behave like 'T' students!" you shouted.
Well, I'll like to tell you, please respect others before expecting others to respect you and please, do , behave like an educator.
I'm really very irritated with you.
I'm sorry, 'cause I know I'm in no position to say anything since you are my teacher.
Yet, really, you aren't perfect, just like what happened in the 'Missing Report Book' incident.
Yet, I just simply can't stand it that you label students all day long 'cause to me, as a teacher, you shouldn't do that.
Streaming them is to allow the education system to be better for them, not to decide and judge who can or cannot do certain actions.
Stop the stereotyping, we are all just kids trying to learn.
Why should they be exposed to the ugly side and let so much people judge them when they're still so young.
Why should they experience unfairness?
Have you ever thought about it?
Soemtimes this wonderous system is all, but just a simple filtering system.
Slowly and slowly, the weakest link get eliminated.
We are actually simply being slowly exposed to the ugliness of the world.
That's all, that's just what we learn eventually.
The strongest survive, yes.
Yet, you, as the stronger ones, have you ever though about the feelings the weaker ones experience?
All you see is you, yourself and still yourself.
It sometimes just irk me, seeing all these.
Shucks.
A second home it is to us.
Who's the inferior and who's the superior?
It's really not up to you to decide, actually.
Aren't we a one big family?
Hah, all talk and nothing else.
Heck, enough of it.
I am just so digusted by this action of yours.
BWG!
Please take care!
I mean it.
I worry.
I will always listen if I can.
Thank you for coming back safe and sound, that's all that it matters.
I mean it, because of you, I will work towards that career.
I will and I can.
Thank you.
You are this important.
Learn to be selfish, you deserve it.
(:
♥ much loves, 12:10 AM
