Sunday, August 31, 2008
I've got nothing better to do.
HOKAY. I'm back.Yea, I know it's like...SO FAST?
Ha, change of plans.
Playing volleyball with WeiLi at CCK stadium later while WeeKiat goes to gym.
L O L.
Then should be studying alone later 'cause onehas to go home to eat while another is eating with npcc people.
D:
Hahaha.
I HAVE NOTHING TO DO AT THE MOMENT.
I'm like meeting them at 345 meaning have to leave at 330.
Then now is 130.
Between this 2 hours break, I don't know what to do.
:/
Currently waiting for myself to be hungry so I can have my lunch.
L O L.
I AM SO DARN BORED.
HOKAY.
BYEBYE.
(And this is called an abrupt ending.
CHUNHOU, I HAVE NO INSPIRATION TO POST A LONG POST.
D:
♥ much loves, 1:27 PM
Mr. Peck
Hey-o!It's someone else's birthday today!
*Drumrolls...*
...
..
.
MR AMOS PECK.
L O L.
HOKAY.
Happy 17th bithday!
Like, so old already, please be more mature!
:p
Jiayou for O levels laaaaa.
HOHO.
YOU HAPPY?
My heart almost jumped when I realised I haven't wished him happy birthday at 1 am yesterday.
:x
And, coincidentally, his birthday falls on the day which Malaysia celebrates her birthday too!
(A fact I learnt today.)
HOKAY.
Holidays are boring.
I jolly well know that I hould spend my time wisely, so I will.
I will not force myself to study without playing.
So, let's play hur!
L O L.
WeeKiat and WeiLi want to play volleyball but there's not much place to plsy hur.
:c
HAHAHA.
I AM STILL VERY TIRED BUT I'M NOT SLEEPY.
GRAH.
♥ much loves, 12:32 PM
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Happy birthday, Esther !
Heyhey, it's Esther's birthday.HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
Though she's no longer in Singapore, she'll always be in our heart.
:D
Sweet sixteen to you!
:D
♥ much loves, 8:48 PM
After everything.
And after all this things, I'm tired.Tired of missing sleep.
Tired of feeling unhappy.
Tired of being peeved.
Tired of defending others/myself.
Tired of being affected.
If only, if only I can be immune to all these nonsensical trivialities in life.
Yet, if that is so, I'll be a wall against joy, happiness, bliss and much, much more.
And again, I've just presented life to you.
A mix of good and bad, it's just what you can take in stride.
That's all.
For now, I'll take a break 'cause I need one.
I shan't care until I have the energy to do so.
:D
♥ much loves, 11:03 AM
Friday, August 29, 2008
Appreciation.
Ignorance to the efforts others have put in fills me with disgust.It's so sick.
Sometimes, one should step back and look.
Are we troubling others due to our needs?
Selfishness.
I deem it necessary.
We need it to protect things we love.
I don't lend out certain objects that I hold closely to my heart lest I lose them.
I wouldn't like to see the guy I like with other girls 'cause I don't want other girls to be near him.
L O L.
ETC, yea?
Yet, there's a limit to it too.
Don't abuse your power as a friend, a vice-president, or just a human.
At the end of the day, you're just degrading yourself and forming an ugly impression on others.
Don't do thing out of convenience.
Sometimes, certain acts just display that you're not worth your position.
:/
Anyway, results are fully out.
Considering the lil' effort I put in I should say it's qute good already.
:D
Don't be demoralised everyone, go on and pursue your dream.
Teachers' Day celebration was so-so.
Food delight was junk delight(It was only chips and sweets! HAHA) for the class.
L O L.
:/
Thank you to people who entertained me: TingYan, ZhengWei, Joyce, Jamie, BITCH, Zhiying and class.
HAHAHA.
After the flag-raising ceremony
[Crystal was standing in front of me]
Me: Eh, Crystal, I very hot leh.
Crystal: (Not turning back) I also.
Crystal: (Turned back and looked at me) WAH, really very hot leh.
She promptly gave me her packet of tissue.
L O L.
My face was like totally wet with sweat.
Wth, sometimes I wonder why I have so much water to lose when I rarely drink water.
:/
HOKAY.
So I went up and down, up and down the hall the whole session.
L O L.
Ended at 1030am and I helped to keep the tables.
A REPLAY OF LOGISTICS MOMENTS.
But, a lil' no kick 'cause it wasn't exactly heavy.
D:
I wonder if I can still carry 8 chairs at 1 go.
L O L.
I hope so.
:D
Hmm, ended and OTY went to bowl with her classmates.
Class boys went to eat.
Persuded the bitchy Crystal to join me till her friend came.
Went to Mac with Crystal and Zhiying.
Lunched.
Then I went to buy a volleyball!
I like it a lot!
'cause it's red with a tinge of orange!
ORANGE.
ORANGE
ORANGE.
RED.
RED.
RED.
I AM SO HAPPY.
Hahaha, I really like warm colours, make me so bright and gay!
Okay, so off I went to meet the boys and YinLan at 2 at the CCK stadium to play badmnton.
Ended up playing volleyball 'cause I'm such a hopeless amatuer in badminton.
:/
Played till 4 and off we go to Lot 1.
WeiLi and WeeKiat ate at KFC and then we went home.
LALA.
I'm tired.
My eyebags are slowly getting the ability to store my things next time.
D:
I'm very sad.
My dark circles are so black that I'm worried.
L O L.
SLEEP.
I LOVE SLEEPING.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE SLEEPING.
Picture of the day.
:D
Somehow, I really do like you so.
It's kind of inexplainable 'cause we're not even close.
We rarely greet each other.
It's quite ridiculous, come to think of it.
But, you do enchant my world.
LALA.
I want the best for you.
But, I'm not of any help.
D:
OHOH, in response to Chunhou's post, I think that it's no big deal to post very long.
Hahah, I like to.
But, kudos to all of you who always finish reading them.
:D
It amazes me at times.
'cause personally, I find them very long too.
L O L.
♥ much loves, 6:51 PM
Thursday, August 28, 2008
♥,
I'm worried.Yet, I don't think you'll allow me to help you.
Please.
Please.
Please.
I just hope for the best.
♥ much loves, 8:49 PM
Why can't we just be frank?
"No one asks for attention, they do things for attention. They become prostitutes, bulimics, drug addicts. Every problem stems from wanting attention. In a perfect world, we would probably just ask for attention. But it doesn't work that way.
"
--Bad Girl
True enough.
There are some of us who love attention but doesn't ask for it.
Well, in fact, who does?
As in, have you met anyone who exclaims, "Hey, look at me!"?
No, we all don't.
Hypocrites are we, people just do thing to achieve attention.
They attempt to have people focusing on them by grabbing the limelight.
(Eg. Singing under their breath, scantily clad and much, much more.)
Of course, little will ask for attention straight away.
Why?
Simply because this is not a common practice.
One would certainly be deemed as mad, or arrogant.
However, it is certainly an undeniable fact that people get neglected in different situations.
In schools, only the clever and smart students who do well are being showered with attention.
In competitions, only the winner gets the media coverage.
This is life.
Only the strongest survives.
Yet, more than often, we do not realise that we are neglecting and hurting the feelings of others.
The feelings of losing, of being brushed aside is terrible beyond words.
To prevent this, many seek attention.
Little quirky acts, smoking, stealing, doing drugs, all kinds of antics just to get people to pay a little more attention to them.
Pathetic it may sound to you, but sometimes, I think that I am too ignorant.
All around me are blessed soul, most who come from a complete family and have enough money to make ends meet.
Meanwhile, somewhere out there, there are souls who do not have a shelter above their head.
There are individuals who are struggling with life.
There are teenagers who are being viewed as parasites of the society even though it might be due to them having an unequal standing in the society.
Drugs, we all know it's bad.
Same goes for smoking.
Yet, why do people still do it?
Certainly, there are reasons such as peer pressure and curiosity.
Yet, an evidently factor is to seek attention.
Neglected, this group of people tries to do something that is different from norm and an act that is deem to be incorrect, all because they want more love and concern.
It isn't very mean, come to think of it.
A little more love is all they want.
Just a fraction more.
Yet, the consequences are far more drastic.
It's really kind of sad and disappointing to realise that Earth is not as beautiful as it seems to be.
D:
Haha, this quote just hit me hard.
I don't know why.
Perhaps 'cause it's taken from a true story.
Yea, but please keep in mind that we are all fortunate.
Don't ever underestimate the power of a little act, be it mean or kind.
It may impact others for their rest of their life.
Don't do thing that you'll live to regret and don't leave things undone that similarly, causes you to regret.
Anyway, my dear friend:
Similar to seeking attention, don't try to seek for acceptance by trying to portray yourself in the light which you think it's right.
When it all boils down, you're just not you anymore.
Don't grow up losing yourself 'cause the true you is who we love.
Certain times in life, we don't always get approval from all parties.
However as we grow up, I believe that friends don't always approve but they accept.
I will accept you for who you are.
I will accept: you being obstinate; your selfish acts, your lies; your laughter; your past; your present and your future.
You know why?
'cause despite everything, you do have your plus points.
No one is perfect, so there's no need to strive for a perfect image.
Afterall, it's just a false impression.
Once, we were all childish and immature.
We get fed up and quarrelsome when things don't go our way, even when it isn't our life but our friends'.
Now, I can promise that I'll try my utmost best to accept but I won't ever agree that I won't comment.
I told you before, somehow, we all became friends with people who are unlike us.
It's all because we can all pick up new insights and habits from others who are different and not similar.
Hence, it's always inevitable that our opinions and principles in life will clash.
Terribly.
Yet, we won't give up 'cause we are all important to one another and indispensable.
We all learn from each other.
Willingly.
We don't force our beliefs on others.
Upon reaching the age of sixteen, I believe all of us can judge on our own.
Yet, there'll be times that we all make mistakes.
Be it major or minor.
Yet, I believe, we do learn and change.
I trust and have faith in you.
Don't let me down.
Though I do have certain expectations of you and I don't deny I was appalled and stricken with disappointment.
However I do know humans err.
Please don't be afraid to admit that you're wrong 'cause that's the first step to be right.
It takes courage but I know you have the guts.
We will walk this journey together.
It may be excruciating when you realised at certain points that your life is jumbled.
But, it's okay.
Untie all the knots.
But by doing so, you'll have to face the music and brave the rain of rectification.
It may involve your pride, your sincerity and much more.
But, believe and trust.
It's doable.
Let's trust.
Let's be frank and honest.
Starting from this second.
Lies don't give you happiness.
It just instill fear in your being 'cause it cause your world to be fragile.
Step out from that vicious cycle.
Be true to yourself.
I love you.
However, I will not hesitate to tell you what I feel.
'cause that's what I want our friendship to be built on.
Honesty and trust.
Come, let's say bye to lies and doubts together.
There you go.
You've just started a new chapter of your life.
Clearly, you can't relive what has happen.
But, from this point on, promise yourself.
No more.
:D
Jiayou.
♥ much loves, 7:43 PM
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
The sun is up, again !
Ha, and I'm super tired now.Almost goig to be consumed by fatigue.
:/
HOKAY.
I realised I'm really getting more and more optimistic to the point that it's getting ridiculous.
Hahaha, getting results that are lower than my expectation doesn't even affect me much 'cause it shows that there's still room for improvement!
Sounds a little illogical hur.
I thought so too.
L O L.
Yet, really, I like being optimistic 'cause only by being so will I be able to cheer people up and motivate them on.
For people who have done well, I'm happy for ya!
(Well, unless you're one I dislike.)
For people who have not done well, the first step you should do is to cheer up and believe in yourself!
Nobody is going to trust and believe in you when you aren't.
Take the first step out and you'll find that everything is possible.
Why tell yourself that you can't do it.
Though everything may seem bleak at this point in time, but are you going to allow Prelims result to affect and hinder your progress?
Don't give up.
So Bitch and babes, smile!
Hahahaha.
:D
Grahhhhhh.
I don't like the count down system.
L O L.
Next, I want to shout out that...
YOURS TRULY DON'T LIKE PEOPLE TO LOOK DOWN ON ME.
L O L.
You, ninny!
How can you say something like, "HUR? You mean you can get ** in *******?" and give me a look of disbelief.
Made me so annoyed.
HAHAHA, but I think it's okay now 'cause it shows how you don't understand me.
Hey, don't underestimate me.
Doesn't mean that you can't get it means I can't, ya know.
I believe I can do it, and I will do it.
L O L.
:D
You don't demoralised me but make me more determined to do well.
:D
And, mummy's darn surprised with my English result.
Hahaha.
Hey, mummy, I will do you proud.
L O L.
AND.
I'm a lil' lazy to blog.
L O L.
IN GENERAL.
I THINK.
EVERYONE SHOULD CHEER UP AND EMBARK ON THIS 55-DAY JOURNEY.
(Credits to the "Countdown @ BPGHS")
L O L.
OH YA.
I KNOW WHY MY FACE IS SO BIG AND HUMUNGUOUS NOW.
KUDOS TO Z.
z says:
alamak
z says:
my friend says
z says:
if u eat bread
z says:
e carbo goes to ur face
z says:
which inturns become chubby.
jiale (: says:
HUR
jiale (: says:
REALLY MA
jiale (: says:
NO WONDER MY FACE SO BIG
jiale (: says:
I SINCE YOUNG LOVE TO EAT BREAD DE LEH
jiale (: says:
MIAN BAO LIAN CAN
jiale (: says:
t.t
jiale (: says:
WHY MY MAMAMAMAMAMA NEVER TELL ME DE
z says:
HAHA
z says:
I dunno.
z says:
my friend told me one
z says:
maybe tts how
z says:
mian bao chao ren is formed
z says:
eat mianbao till tmd e chubby
jiale (: says:
D:
z says:
wad la
z says:
smile smile smile
jiale (: says:
MIAN BAO
jiale (: says:
t.t
z says:
relax man
(And you see, this z is vulgar. Spot the 'tmd'.)
:D
♥ much loves, 10:27 PM
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Shan't patronise.
HOHO.Anyone missed me?
L O L
Okay, shall be a nice bitch by not allowing bitch Crystal to wait so long for me to update.
Ya see, I wasn't home yesterday.
What could have happened?
I wasn't too sure and narrowed down to this four:
1. I was kidnapped.
2. I was kicked out of home.
3. I ran away from home.
or
4. I was on drugs and landed myself in the police station.
Ha.
Instincts tell me otherwise.
Hahahaha.
Does yours too?
I see.
K, shall stop fooling around.
Regarding the previous post, I'll say I have the confidence that we'll survive.
Still going on, going on and on and on and on and on and on.
HOKAY HOKAY.
Let me allow you to take a peek into my life.
Currently I'm quite lazy to post up loads of pictures so bear with me kkkk.
Let me touched you with words.
L O L.
Okay.
Friday; 22/08/2008
Lovely Brian's bithday and last of Prelims.
Say bye to prelims, yo!
Ha.
Papers will be given back on the morrow.
Hmm, all said and done.
Can only wait.
NE quiz done, and yours truly is only a senior builder.
Tsk, can even lose to OTY.
D:
Such disgrace.
Well, glad that I aren't a junior.
Ooooops.
Volleyball-ed with the same ol' people.
Well, no old in fact.
Same sixteens and fifteens.
YEA.
Imma that young!
Unlike certain bitch who age so fast.
16 on like...22 March.
I deem her COW.(Cranky old woman)
BITCHY COW YEN YEN.
Then waited and almost died of boredom.
All for Brian!
Well, they had their Chinese exam.
Off to home I go.
Collected fried rice and beehoon.
Thanks Mummy, I proclaim them YUMMYLICIOUS AND TUMMYFILLING!
Daddy drove me to Dairy Farm Estate.
Heh, I sound like a pampered kid.
L O L.
LUXURY.
:D
AND, no I didn't went there to have milk, I went there to BARBERQUE.
HO.
Ages since I've BBQ.
:D
It rained.
Yet, it didn't dampen our mood.
Set up a fire in a rain.
(It's the first time I start a fire, applause please!!)
Yea, and WeiLi, WeeKiat, YinLan, Edrei and me got ourselves drenched.
Where's the birthday boy?
Under the big big umbrella sitting down.
NICE !!
Ha, YinLan and I are queens of MANLINESS.
All others hide under unbrellas.
L O L.
Fun-o-fun!
YEA, it was great pleasure and fun.
Hahahaha.
Thank you every one present.
WEEKIAT
WEILI
YINLAN
EDREI
NGUANHAN
KEITH
VITO
VANKA
WEILUN
MEL
CHZEKIAN
JIAMING
&
BRIAN TEH JOO TONG.
OH YA.
Look at the photos I want to beat myself up!
The settings somehow screwed up and all the photos are so small.
Very saddening.
:/
OKAY.
NVM.
IT'S PAST.
Shall take more pictures in future.
AND THEN HOME AFTER BBQ, VOLLEYBALL AND BADMINTON.
Sorry WeiLi, you know what I meant.
Really, I hope to sway your stand.
L O L.
Saturday;23/08/2008
PILATES EARLY IN THE MORNING.
I really do so wanted to sleep.
It was raining CATS AND DOGS (MEOW and GRRR).
So it was real real real real nice to sleep.
So comfy.
Yet, I shouldn't let CHUAXINFANG down so WAKE UPPPPPPP.
L O L.
First time in history she waited for me at the LRT station.
HAHAHHAA.
KKK.
Went home.
Tuition cancelled on me.
~!@#$%^&*()
Called out Patrina to spend her wondrous day with me.
Nice, my slippers broke before she even reached.
Tell me how cool is that.
NOT one bit.
And what was I doing, gymnastics or something.
I tell ya, nothing.
I was just sitting down and suddenly my slippers felts loose, glancing down, I realised the strap came off.
Like, "OMG.HOW DID THIS HAPPENED?!"
Yes, you should have seen me in Lot 1.
It was so arduous to walk around to find shoes.
In the end I bought a pair of flipflops that appears to be a Havaianas imaitation.
L O L.
The print on the shoes already wore off after only wearing it for like 3 hours.
NICE !
That's what you get for 15 bucks.
D:
K, taught PATRINA to mahjong man.
Say PONG.
Okay, chi or gong if you like.
But I personally like PONG.
PONG
PONG
PONG
PING
PONG
PIANG
Okay, self-entertainment again.
PONG
Back to topic.
Quite clever for a beginner.
L O L.
Slept over.
Woke up and heard that I almost kissed Patrina.
Greeeeaaaaatttttt.
L O L.
Darn uncomfy to sleep with her.
'cause normally I sleep on the left and she on my right.
So nothing happened.
Yesterday, I fall asleep as I was real tired after many many many days of not having my 8 hours of sleep.
So I fell asleep on the most right of the bed.
She hence slept on my left.
My tendency is to turn left and hers right.
So, at one point we faced each other and almost kissed.
:/
YIKES.
With Patrina...(Face turn green!)
L O L.
HOKAY.
Then, breakfast at Limbang Mac.
HOMEHOMEHOME.
Tuition with him.
Then SLEEP.
'cause it's raining.
I'm SICK.
RUNNYNOSE.
It's so runny that i think it's running away to rot.
GRAH.
And the rain and the cold weather is not helping at all.
:/
OKAY.
And this is how I wasted my time.
I think the pace of life is too fast.
I said, " How nice to just sit and wile away time."
It may be deemed as an act to waste time.
Yet, when days fly by, when time passed without you knowing, it's such a luxury to just sit and watch the sun rise and set.
Sometime, I wonder.
Can the society be put on hold, like pressing the pause button on a DVD player.
Life's too short to rush by.
And this end my post.
ARE YOU TOUCHED BITCH?
L O L.
K LA.
A LOVABLE BITCH.
(This is the maximum I'll allow, TAYYENYEN, take it or leave it, B I T C H.)
KAKAKAKA.
I really do so love calling you a bitch.
But, what if one day, I get angry with you.
What other insults can I throw at you when BITCH apparently is no longer an insult but a casual nickname.
BASTARD?
Perhaps, perhaps.
L O L.
♥ much loves, 8:33 PM
Thursday, August 21, 2008
It's what you get.
No, I'm not being too extreme.
You know what.
You're such a sucker.
Get out of my life.
I will too, out of yours.
W i l l i n g l y.
Fuck off.
You broke the record.
The first who I sweared.
I mean it.
Fuck off.
Or maybe you would rather.
Fuck him.
No, these are not words of anger.
I don't like people who have no dignity and life.
I don't like people who tramples on me.
'cause, I have dignity.
Something you lack.
"Yeah...I will be with him...Since my friends can understand"
Don't talk about understanding.
You have absolutely no rights.
Don't just trample on others feelings.
I'm glad to be done with you.
I don't deny.
At this moment, you still mean a lot to me.
Yet, you won't.
You're not a friend 'cause you don't return the favour.
Byebye.
& I still
LOVE
you;
As much as ever.
♥
♥ much loves, 9:05 PM
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Hah. Don't make me gag.
When there is not answer, I feel suffocated.I don't like things to drag on and on.
So tell me.
What is this now.
I tried.
I really did.
I don't feel ashamed saying this.
'cause I did.
Even if it still ends up this way, I guess it doesn't matter.
'cause I tried.
It may not seem like a big deal.
Yet, it is.
It is.
At this instant, I've decided to put my words into actions.
I shall be less of a hypocrite to all my friends.
♥ much loves, 10:49 PM
Not a happy post. Shoo.
Ha, the 200th post, but, sorry am not really in the mood.Ugh.
K, oral was normal.
Not as good as I would have expected.
Topic was hygiene, shocking all.
Ha, it's over.
Look on the bright side!
When it's difficult, everybody finds it difficult.
Hmm.
I wonder, and wonder.
Care and concern can be felt.
When you no longer feel it, apparently, it's not present anymore.
Ha, when you came to ask me something, that should not be the top most priority, I know.
It was exasperation, but now, it's just disappointment.
No longer, no longer.
What a saddening phrase that just brings along nolstagia.
"You no longer..."
"I am no longer the..."
However disappointing, it's a fact.
Somehow, we all live to learn.
Yet, the surest way to learn is by accepting fact.
Cold, hard truth that may break your heart, but is undeniable.
Ha.
Today is just disappointing on the whole.
Little actions which I should just take it in my stride are bothering me, seriously.
Wrong choices in life?
Mayhap.
Shall spill all these elsewhere.
It's is bothering me.
Big time.
It is visible.
Very visible.
The only thing that brightened my day:
" X is not a good person..yada, yada."
" I think X's a nice girl."
How nice it is to have friends who defend and speak up for you.
Thanks YenYen.
♥ much loves, 8:01 PM
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Plain and boring.
Hah, I've not been blogging regularly.L O L.
Can't blame me.
I don't like to post about exams.
No point hur.
I can't stand people always never fail to make a big fuss out of a paper.
Nevermind, small thing.
Anyway, tomorrow's my oral.
Wish my luck hur.
L O L.
Hope that it'll be a breeze.
:D
Hmm, looking forward to bbq on Friday.
Hope all will be able to relieve their stress.
Ha.
I am quite happy today.
'cause I had a nap and woke up feeling rejuvenated.
So good !
L O L.
Grah.
Wait for me k.
I'll post more next time.
(:
SMILE WITH ALL YOUR MIGHT.
Even if it's not the best of days, show it to everyone that you're unbeatable.
With just a grin.
Confidence is the way.
Woots.
♥ much loves, 8:55 PM
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Smiles.
I'm happy today.And, that makes me more happy.
L O L.
I don't have a reason to be happy.
I went into the bathroom.
Looked at the mirror.
And grinned.
Foolishly at myself.
Hah.
Sometimes I wonder why I appear to be a crazy-ass at times.
L O L.
Nah, you're not the closest.
It's time to face the truth.
No more running.
No more escaping.
When troubles get too much for me, and I mean really to the extent of making me cringe with frustration.
I push them aside.
As in that's what I learn to do so.
'cause it appears that everyone is doing so.
Yet, no more.
When it's a fact, it's carved in stone.
Situation can be salvage.
Facts can change.
For now, I feel nothing.
Despite all said.
You remained shut and closed up.
Your life.
Your choice.
Sometimes I'm just role-playing what you expect of me.
I shook off the shackles and chains.
Everything happens for a reason.
I'm uncertain of what is in store for me, but I'm optimistic that I have the courage to face anything.
Look what a night's rest and a book can do to me.
Back to the cheery mood.
HO HO.
Laugh baby, laugh.
:D
♥ much loves, 6:26 PM
Smack in the face !
Sdsptdiy.Ifatiaaspi.
Ywnk.
Ywnk.
Ywnk.
Nkhsymmf.
D.
Dkwtcon.
Ntty.
Yes?
Listened to WeiLi's blog's song.
Can't help being affected.
Damn it.
Don't like emotional songs.
Yes, who doesn't long for someone to hold?
Ha, knows how to love you without being told; soulmate for everyone.
Pardon me being sceptical.
If, there are soulmates for everyone, there wouldn't be suicide cases.
No point for reason being they haven't found theirs, 'cause the chance was robbed immediately since the second they died.
Soulmate.
Is.
Just.
Plain.
Luxury.
Prove me wrong.
♥ much loves, 2:18 AM
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Life's getting dimmer.
Life's not too bright recently.Ugh.
Though I'm not depressed and exasperated I just kind of lost the lightness in my heart.
Nah, not stress from the prelims
I can't identiy the problem, that's the trouble.
How can I even attempt to solve something when I am unaware of the cause for it?
GRAH.
ROARS AND SCREAMS.
Let's just categorise it as PMS.
L O L.
Hope so.
I can't stand days which appears to be tainted.
I enjoy happiness.
'cause only when I have it, can I spread it to others.
Now, without it.
I will have to try creating it.
L O L.
I love to see smiles on others' face.
I like to capture moments of happiness.
I love to experience happiness.
I love my name.
'cause it tells me how my life should be.
I guess I'm really born to be optimistic.
Even my name tells you so.
Happiness is beyond reach.
It really is.
Don't be too judgemental.
Don't be too narrow minded.
Everything will appear fine.
I once disliked people.
I once detests people.
I once hated people.
Now, I don't feel the need to do so.
Meanwhile, I only don't feel the need to interact and talk to people.
People who I don't love.
Life's simpler this way.
May the sun of love shine continuosly for me.
♥ much loves, 11:12 PM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Reflections.
I'm too troubled and suffocated to study.Here I am to rant and rant and rant...
CAUTION. LONG POST AHEAD.
IF YOU ARE IN A RUSH PLEASE, LOOK UP TO THE TOP RIGHT HAND CORNER.
LOOK.
AIM.
AND PRESS.
NOPE.
NOT THE MINIMISE.
TO THE RIGHT.
NOPE.
NOT THE MAXIMISE.
TO THE RIGHT.
YEA!
THERE YOU GO!
THE...
red cross.
Great, and now you succeeded in closing the window...
Ha, that was sheer entertainment.
:/
Hypocrites
I fear that as we all mature and are instilled within insecurities of life, we all turn into hypocrites.
Yes, I dislike, detests and depises hypocrites.
However, the truth is dawning on me.
Everyone is, at some point of their life.
So now, what bothers me is their motives behind being a hypocrite.
Some wants to become a socialite hence, become one to win favour of all.
Some fear of being badmouth.
Some fear of being backstabs.
What deems this act as acceptable, then?
Somehow, the word hypocrite always receive negative feedbacks.
Comments like "E E W !", "F-A-K-E" and "yikes!".
Yet, let's think of it in a brighter light.
Doesn't it ensure people of company?
Doesn't it hides facts that shouldn't be shone on?
Doesn't it contrast and beautifies truth?
Doesn't it portrays one's tactfulness and consideration to not hurt another's feelings?
So what is it anyway?
A two-bladed sword?
Perhaps.
Helpful to people who use it wisely, I guess.
I'm still rather against this notion of being a hypocrite but I realise that in times of urgency need, I do become one too.
Even if it is just a small act of smiling reluctantly, I'm still being a hypocrite.
However, despite all the anti-hypocrite campaigns going on, you still see so many being hypocrites.
I can only assume that none has the guts to show what he/ she truly deems right.
Humans are being who need companionship is all I can conclude.
And here I go to the next subject.
Companionship
Heh, friends.
Yeapps.
Sometimes, it's such a bother to me at times.
I have major problems and insecurities coming into this aspect of my life.
Quality versus quantity.
Some people chooses and selects their friends meticulously.
Yet, is there a proper way to do so?
Let's all hold auditions.
That seems so fair and impartial.
Ha.
Bullshit hur?
Fate brought us all together.
What make us seperate and up and go, I wonder.
Fate?
Not again.
'Friends forever'.
True?
Well, as I grow older, I was woken up.
Forever has its limit to.
Don't strain it.
All the two word does is to reassure people.
Yet, all talk and no actions, results in a blank, a hole, and just nothingness.
Who is the best for a friend?
That varies from person to person.
Sometimes, I don't understand the theory of limiting your circle of friends just so to cater to needs of people.
No, I don't mean delibrately pulling strings to have M O R E friends.
I just wishes to place emphasis on the fact that making friends is a natural process.
One doesn't choose delibrately neither does one escapes from this process.
Hence, it's impossible to push certain parties away to meet the needs of others.
This is mainly the humble opinion of yours truly.
I love being with people.
Meanwhile, I tire easily when being with people.
It's hard trying to make all be satisfied with you, and vice versa.
How to control and keep your temper in.
How to serve all and make all joyous.
It's difficult with a big, big D.
Sometimes, it does get so tiring that I wishes to be a loner.
Yet, that's not possible as I say I crave companionship.
I'm scared of loneliness.
I'm scared of spaces which instils a sense of loss and emptiness in me.
Yet's it does takes such a toll on me that I wishes to surrender at times.
The problems I face can't even enter this blog because there are barriers set.
Look what I've said in previous posts and the controversy they stirred up.
Grah.
The fatigue, that no matter how much I sleep, I can't shake off.
Friendship brings along with it his little but irritating friends, buckles and chains.
Buckles and chains that hold you in.
Buckles and chains that make you appear to be free but not.
The yearning to have commitment but detesting the feeling of being chained down.
It's all coming back to me, flooding and overwhelming.
What am I to do.
♥ much loves, 5:38 PM
Black and White.
Love and possesive.Trust and lying.
What is right and what is wrong?
None of the above, I guess.
Everyone is an individual with their own independent thoughts.
You can't own or control another.
Yet, you can't harm or hurt others too.
We all lead lives that are neither right nor wrong, and neither black nor white.
In between, yet again.
Judgemental would not do 'cause on what foolish basis are you deeming it right and on what principles are they wrong?
Yes, we all have our own principles and way of life.
Yet, all of our principles do not tally.
Similar, yes.
Different, definitely.
And this spells life.
The wonders, the obstacles, the uncertainity.
The unclear line.
Where shall it lie?
♥ much loves, 3:33 PM
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
The jolt of realisation.
How would you feel if someone prioritises their love over friends?Oh ya, by and by, you're the 'good friend'.
I wonder.
When you say you are happy with life and seem to not care about how we can not be like last time, does it mean I am nothing to you?
Don't contradict yourself by saying you don't understand why yet says that it doesn't matter.
Apparently, you don't really want to understand anyway.
Don't bullshit around.
Ha, guess that's the implied meaning.
With this, I know where I stand.
Clearly.
Don't utter nonsense about remaining as it was and reversing time when you got all your priorities rescheduled.
Delete or not, the harm's done.
It's just whether you chooses to escape or face it.
Don't attempt to take back your words when you mean them.
It seems so hypocritical.
Let's just see how things turn out.
Lazy to make a difference since I am nothing to you.
Should I treasure one who doesn't cherishes me?
The answer is evident.
Not desperate enough to attempt to suck up to you.
Stuck in the middle, caught between, and still sandwiched.
What the hell is wrong.
A place where you belong.
Is is that hard?
♥ much loves, 9:12 PM
Monday, August 11, 2008
Feeling the weight.
I shoulder the burden of your expectation.It's getting heavier and heavier.
Let loose 'cause this is always what I fear at the end of the day.
Don't bind me to you.
I might suffocate.
♥ much loves, 5:21 PM
Sunday, August 10, 2008
A Day Out .
Hah, slacked for the whole day.Then out with Patrina and Zhiying for dinner in celebration of the latter's birthday.
First stop: PizzaHut !!
Ha, just went there on Thursday and there I am again.
L O L.
It's her 19th birthday!
Lalalala.
Ha, we bought a meal for F O U R.
Darn full and I almost wanted to puke.
Ugh.
And the two cheated my feelings 'cause they didn't finish the food!
Argh, like, HUR !
I tried so hard to stuff myself and they just leave the unfinished food there.
Gah.
Ha, but it was pleasant enough nonetheless.
That birthday girl kept on teasing the waiter and waitress.
So childish!
Hahahaha.
Enjoyed myself thoroughly !
Thanks !!
:D
Next stop, MacDonalds.
Ha, Zhiying went to have McFlurry.
L O L.
Then, after a lil' while and camwhoring, we went to Zhiying's house as Patrina felt that it was too noisy.
Heh, it's so nice to have a chauffeur to drive one to and fro.
Thank you, chauffeur Zhiying.
(:
Hmm, actually we wanted to but a cake for her but she kept on rejecting our offer.
Ha.
In the end, her daddy bought one.
L O L.
That is basically my day.
Though it may appear boring, but I'm very happy and elated.
Ha,it's her beautiful birthday.
Hereby wishing her all the best!
L O L.
Ha, hearsay she's touch by my post.
(:
(She's currently behind me playing her guitar but, don't tell her, she's not good at it.)
Heh.
Photos up tomorrow.
I don't have my USB cable with me
D:
L O L.
Guess I'm tired from all that studying.
Books, I'll be back.
:D
(I'm in love with her preetttaaayy spectacles.)
As you have noticed, I have nothing to post except for my life.
I don't have any deep insights recently to share with you guys.
I guess my brain cells are all hard at work.
Ha, guess after Os I'll have plenty of time for reflection.
:D
♥ much loves, 10:09 PM
Aching.
GRAH.My abs is seriously super painful now.
All because of that trip to gym.
Two day already.
Ugh.
Slack again.
Distracted by Olympics.
Wth.
Focus darling brain.
:D
Lots of love, love, love and a ton of determination.
Just like a key, opening up the door of my future.
With the doors open, I glanced into my future.
No, I won't fail.
Here I come.
♥ much loves, 12:13 PM
It's someone's birthday !!
LALA.It's her birthday!
(Points below and smirks !!)
HEH, OKAY OKAY.
You're a good friend yea?
Sorry that all of use are soooooo busy now.
As I promised, after Prelims we'll go out to celebrate your birthday together.
And, after O Levels, HAHAHA.
You'll be sick of me 'cause I'll be perstering ya, I hope.
L O L
:D
Many happy returns !!
♥ much loves, 9:42 AM
Saturday, August 9, 2008
A girl named Ulnaiy.
Thank goodness there'a always you.
Without fail, you're always there.
Ha, the editing ability of my phone is simply irresitible.
♥ much loves, 9:42 PM
Irresponsible!
He pisses the hell out of me.What is the meaning of not doing his work.
What is the meaning of coming up with the excuse that so weakly states that "I forgot to do my work?"
This is so darn not helpful.
He's the one taking his PSLE.
I feel as though I'm wasting my time on a useless being.
No sense of urgency, and so not considerate.
Selfish and so, so irritating.
Grah, make my blood boil.
And, I called his mom.
Wha does she ask me to do?
Cane his son.
:/
Sorry, not born to do this.
Ha.
So, I just reprimanded him.
And, he cried.
Ugh.
If he dare to no do his work, then don't cry !!
My patience is running low.
Gah.
Take responsibility for your own learning.
I feel like puking.
I'm slack and lazy.
What the heck.
Repeat:
TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY OWN LEARNING AND NOT BE LIKE HIM.
By, I'm going to study.
Too slack today.
Can't take it.
Bye bye bye.
Too much subjects, too little things.
Too much information, too small a brain.
Help.
♥ much loves, 6:49 PM
Against the odds.
The difficult thing is trying and learning to be beautiful despite ugly facts being thrown in your face.How to be strong and steady when the ground is wobbling.
How to be secure when the walls are crumbling down.
How to be selfless and share things when all others are locking their doors on you.
Yet, I believe.
Believe that the good will win.
Believe that humans feel.
Believe that the heart can be warmed and melted.
Believe that humans are just like mirror, reflecting actions bestowed upon them.
No matter how dim one seem to be presently, perserver.
One day, they will shine and reflect the kind acts.
:D
Love and share.
Though we will never know what awaits us in the end.
A demon or an angel.
A happy ending or tears.
Yet, sadness are just chapters of our lives.
Happiness, truly, awaits us.
It just depends on whether you give up your chance to pursue it.
Hold on, darlings.
:D
♥ much loves, 2:41 PM
Friday, August 8, 2008
Celebratory ! !
Yea, today is the National Day Celebration.I'm glad I went 'cause I took a lot of photos!
:D
More than 50, about 60 plus.
Ha, and the battery didn't die on me.
How great is that!
Woke.
Showered.
K, early in the morning we went to had Roti Prata.
The initiator-ChaiWeeKiat- was late.
How crap.
Ha.
Pratas are expensive!
Hahahaha.
Zzz.
School.
Can't hear band.
D:
Eh, pictures photos!
Pictures, and more!
More and more!
MORE MORE MORE.
H A P P Y.
Nexus campus.
Wet skirt, wet butt, uncomfy!
Cheering competition was disappointing.
D:
High-ed with Joyce, WeiEn and Crystal !
:D
Ha.
Darn f-u-n!
Hmm, went to find ZhiYing.
Back.
Went crazy.
Rain.
Find t1 boys.
Played, screamed, photos !
Went back to hockey pitch, circled, piggy-back Joyce.
Twirled here round and round.
Ended.
Piggy-backed Crystal.
Ha.
Scared the shit out of her yea!
Hmm, photos.
Class, scream, photos.
Piggy-backed WeiEn.
Surprisingly she enjoyed it when I twirled her.
Hmm.
Volleyball with Joyce, WeiEn, YuanZhi, ZhengWei, TingYan, Mr Liw.
Went gym with ZhengWei and XinFang at CCk Stadium
Darn disappointed that TingYan didn't go.
:/
Stayed for almost 2 hours.
Bathed.
Called up WeeKiat, WeiLi and LULULU.
Studied at Lot 1 Food Junction.
From 3 till 7.
Went to play badminton with WeeKiat and WeiLi at South View.
Grah.
Teased WeeKiat lots.
Took LRT with WeiLi.
He dropped.
Finally, home at 930.
T I R E D.
K, prepare for the bombardment of photos.
I'm lazy to sort through them.
My pictures file is terrible now.
Ha.
Memories after memories.
Lovin' it so.
Ha, edited with my cute phone.
:D
Joyce Jamie and Crystal in the morning!
You'll fnd that Jamie is missing later 'cause she's on stage singing!
My class girls!
(:
YuanZhi!
WeiEn and YuanZhi as background.
;D
WeiEn and Joyce
WeiLun darling!
:D
WeiEn and Jamie
Crystal and Jasmine
The BOYS.
So uncooperative.
D:
ChzeKian and NguanHan !!
Keith and WeeKiat!
Elaine and TingYan.
Candid-ness ~
The two and Regina !!
Addition of YanShuang and HeeYi.
LULULU, LinXin and TingYan.
BaoQin, JunYu and ShuQin.
YINLAN !!
BaoQin, JunYu, ShuQin, Mel and Edrei.
Heh.
SiJi, XieNing and YINLAN (Again, AIIIII)
OFF TO NEXUS CAMPUS.
Joyce and KWE.
BOYS.
Did I mention they're un-cooperative?
Ha, what a contrast-the GIRLS.
AFTER IT RAIN.
JianZhong.
Brian.
SiJi and XieNing.
:D
Mr Amos Peck !!
Mel and WeeKiat.
Them again.
ChzeKian.
ChzeKian and Edrei.
Mr Liw !!
LuLu BABY.
Pat.
Vito.
XinFang.
After bathing!
ZhengWei and his bad camera skills.
D:
Us and TZY.
:D
LuLu and ME.
Haha.
Hair is dried ~
Fat-ass acting that he's hardworking.
L O L.
TABLE.
Randomness.
Green M O N S T E R.
Help.
Finally.
Uploading done.
Tired.
Sleep.
B Y E.
Dream of you.
♥ much loves, 9:52 PM
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Ha.
Today Lulululu never come.T.T
Went to Pizzahut with NguanHan, Keith, WeeKiat, Mel and Brian.
Grah, only girl.
So weirdo.
:/
With WeiLun and co. still alright.
Ha.
Anyway, eons since I ate it.
Ha.
Quite cool.
:D
At first NguanHan and Keith not going.
Ha, succeeded in asking them to lunch together.
:D
Tralalal.
Then, Mel went off to catch a movie.
Keith and NguanHan headed home.
We went to Food Junction to study.
Pat came, pat gone.
L O L.
She got project.
:/
Saw Amos with co.
Ha.
WeiLi came, and WeiLi gone.
No, he stayed.
Ha.
Walked WeeKiat home.
Waited for 975.
Wait.
Wait.
and
Wait.
Came.
Up we go.
Crowded like wet market.
Off we go!
Nothing to hold on firmly to.
D:
Bus BRAKED.
I fell.
WeiLi swing, almost losing balance.
Another girl fell.
MALU-ness.
Ha.
I got a big shock.
Then my heart started to race after I got up.
Then, WeiLi and I burst out laughing.
L O L.
Brian didn't manage to ctach me falling.
:D
Heh.
K, after that the whole bus got freaked out and were all very nervous.
Ha.
K, home.
Mommy is sad.
D:
Shall cheer her up by writing her something later.
Lalala.
Having breakfast with WeeKiat, WeiLi and Brian tomorrow.
Ha.
Cause fat-ass WeeKiat suddenly got a craving for roti prata.
Craziness.
Yp UOSM:I
Vjrrt i[.
Dpttu gpt ,slomh upi grr; omdrvitr.
O :PBR UPI.
♥ much loves, 8:55 PM
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Controversy; contradiction.
Grah.Not feeling very high today.
Yikes.
Tired and bored of life.
Ha.
Anywayyyy.
Controversy.
It's always not good to talk about a topic when all has different view points and ways of settling it.
It sounds and seems so ridiculous.
Contradiction:
What I want to do VS what I need to do.
Sucks big time.
I don't regret but I don't enjoy either.
I want to scold but I have to accept.
I want to resist but life is not.
Sucks.
Sucks.
Sucks.
Yes, my phone battery sucks.
~!@#$%^&*()
Darn shucks.
KK.
PHOTOS of yesterday and today.
HERE YA GO.
WARREN COUNTRYCLUB STUDY ROOM.
TOILET WITH OTY.
SUBWAY with WeeKiat and ChzeKian.
WeiLi, YinLan and Mel are opposite!
Ha.
That's it.
BYE.
♥ much loves, 8:10 PM
Full of Smiles.
Hah, wanted to post yesterday but that stupid bro wants to use.Never mind, XIN QING HAO, BU JIE YI.
Hah.
English is so-so.
No serious mistake but not real confident too.
Hah.
Hmm, up so early to memorise SS.
Zzz, my brain is saturated.
Hah.
Stuff it in man!
:D
I'm glad there're people who appreciate the effort that I used 1 whole hour to write those notes.
Though there're some, or rather one, who really crumpled it.
Ha.
Nah, XN QING HAO, BU JIE YI.
Ha.
Just felt a lil' foolish.
To think I do all that yet he/ she just doesn't really appreciates.
Grah.
Anyway, to darling you:
I don't want to have a conflict or a crack in our friendship.
No, I don't mean I'll keep my opinions to myself.
Ha, but I know you N E E D to embark on this journey.
So yes, go explore.
I'll still be here.
And I'm going to accept what you'll do despit much reluctance.
And yes, this is the only thing I can do as a friend.
As much as I feel that it is wrong, it's your life.
So, good luck.
:D
Things aside, I'm happy yesterday.
Ha.
Seems like I'm happy on most days.
H E H ! ~
I mean very happy.
Ha.
K, finish blogging.
Feel like sleeping.
PERSERVER.
L O L.
I like studying with WeiLi.
Though we'll talk while studying, it's nice.
Ha, you cheery cheery U P!
:D
Ha, went to Warren to study with Keith, WeiLi, Patrina, YianLu, Amos and Edrei.
Gah, don't like big groups, such low efficiency.
Bahhhh.
yjsml upi.
upi';; mrbrt lmpe upi'br ,sfr ,u fsu.
'F
o trs;;u fp ;olr upi dp.
,sunr oy'd ;pbr, ,sunr oy odm'y.
o fpm'y lmpe.
kosupi.
♥ much loves, 3:56 AM
Monday, August 4, 2008
You know what?
I worry about you more than myself.
Please, good luck to you.
Do well.
<3
♥ much loves, 5:59 PM
A fine day in school.
Ha.Cool!
I'm happy and joyous from school.
Hah.
(:
Heh, moodswing is a distance from me.
Phew.
Guess, I'm a people-person.
:/
Anyway.
I just wanted to state a random observation.
TOH JIA LE DON'T LIKE KIDS RANGING FROM PRIMARY 1 - SECONDARY 2.
Yes, that's 'bout it.
Ha.
I find them irritating.
Super.
L O L.
Hence my lack of patience with them.
Shucks.
I think I will abuse my kids in future.
:/
Hah.
Darling WeiLun!
Ha.
You can spy Lee Nguan Han in a corner.
;D
Ha, the class in general from where I'm sitting.
Jamie is lonely as stupid Joyce Tay is absent.
ChzeKian and Mel!!!
Ha.
And, the Lee Hsien Long on WeiLun's SS textbook.
L O L.
WeeKiat and JiaMing, using a weird mode in my camera.
CAN'T STAND WEEKIAT'S THINK AND FAT MOUTH.
L O L ~
NguanHan (aka nanapok) and Brian!
Ha.
L O L.
Keith (wink!) and JiaMiang unaware of being caught on camera.
Ha.
I think Keith will give me his favourite look again.
>.<
Ha, was playing with my camera.
Heh.
Know what,
I'll miss everyone for sure.
Hmm, it's your life, do what you want.
Perhaps I'm mean to say all that stuffs, but it's an undeniable fact that that's how I feel.
I don't wish to hide what I feel.
Ask me again, and I'll tell you truthfully 'cause that's what friends do.
I love the both of you.
But, my stand doesn't change.
At all.
;D
Sometimes, is it better to close an eye or is it better to voice it out?
Nobody knows for sure.
Different people, different views.
If I ain't against your method of doin things, why should you be towards mine?
(:
I miss the TAYS in school.
D:
♥ much loves, 4:54 PM
Sunday, August 3, 2008
As I promised.
Yes, the photographs I promised.It almost killed me to get it into my computer.
1. The computer cannot sense the phone.
2. The phone cannot sense the computer.
(Tha above two things doesn't happen together, but seperately, adding to my frustration.)
3. The Lg PC suite doesn't at all help.
4. I wan to cry.
Anyway, my SS essay disappeared too.
WtF, I tell you.
I was really super angry.
D:
Okay, nevermind, I am overjoyed in getting the photos into my com.
:D
Here you go.
TingYan playing with the camera.
Yes I look ugly.
Ha.
Heck.
OH OH. I'm wearing the band's ladybird shirt.
HOHO
TingYan and Zhiying.
TingYan won!
Zhiying act pro!
E E Y E R .
Yours truly.
Shake hands!
I win! (Finally after I was thrashed terribly)
And, shake LEGS!
Yea!
Husband and WeeKiat.
:D
Two darlings who always make me smile.
(I always get angry with WeeKiat but he always manages to make me smile after just 3 minutes.)
Buying LJS.
WeeKiat and me!
I look tireddddd.
My family portrait!
Ha, playing with camera! ~
Finally, my lovely class on school bazaar with the BP Idol being the odd one out.
HAHAHA.
HA.
I am very happy!
Heh heh!
;D
Thanks Zhiying.
(:
♥ much loves, 9:07 PM
One last comment about the flaunting incident.
Yes, one last paragraph and I will ceasefire.YianLu ask me to heck care 'cause it's two people's thing.
Point is.
In the very first place, if they have chosen it to be a 2 people's thing, no comments would have been uttered from WeiLi's and my mouth.
Nothing at all.
Since we are unwilling audience, we have the right to voice our opinions.
That's all.
Nothing else.
From no on, I shall adopt the "See no evil" campaign in my life.
Hence I shall see nothing evil, nothing disgusting.
Nothing else and more.
In my eyes, there only Lim Lu Lu.
L O L.
This is a controversial topic.
Discuss it among yourself, not with me unless I initiate it or I am a willing participant.
Other than that, go away.
Don't come and talk to me.
I am mean and unfriendly.
So, go away.
If I expect this from you, rest assure, you can expect this from me too.
I will never do something this disgusting in front of you.
G o o d b y e.
( L O L. As you can see I am still not in my best mood. So yes, you better go away)
♥ much loves, 11:28 AM
Damn it.
I'm having severe moodswings today.Wtf.
PMS AH.
:/
tmd.
Really not cheerful today,
Everything and everybody is not helping me.
Sour and bitter mood.
It'll get better cos it can't get any worst.
:D
♥ much loves, 11:09 AM
Don't be troubled. :D
One by one, I see some almost succumbing to the fragility of love.It's okay, don't fret.
Friends are still, and I am still here to support and break your fall.
Love is a journey that might or might not be included in our present life now.
If it is, then hold on and cherish it if you want it.
If it is not, don't be obstinate.
Loose your hand.
It's okay that nothing come out of it, 'cause you've tried and I'm proud of you.
Sometimes I wonder, if that bitter-ache is what we get in exchange for a few days of joy.
Ha.
But anyway, I want to tell you, be happier, 'cause we are all still here by ;youre side.
Don't be distressed.
:D
Studied with WeiLi and WeeKiat yesterday.
Libraray.
Secrets.
Burger King.
Mac.
Long John.
(No they didn't eat that much, they just can't decide where to eat.)
Chat.
Photos with WeeKiat.
Hilarious.
Laugh till stomachache.
Gobbled up the ice in cups so WeiLi doesn't have any.
Laugh.
Secrets.
Laugh.
Chat.
Laugh.
Laugh.
Laugh and laugh.
Laugh and laugh and laugh.
MRT.
Laugh.
CCK.
Send WeeKiat home.
Laugh.
Waited for 975.
Home with WeiLi.
He alighted.
Bus-ed by myself.
Walked.
Home.
Ha.
Darn funny yesterday.
Thanks for entertaining and being entertained by me.
Ha, I think my entertainment value just went up.
L O L.
Ha, I was very happy yesterday and it was all because of you two,
Thanks.
So you, cheer up.
Love you.
:D
♥ much loves, 8:13 AM
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Can't seem to find things to blog.
Okay, sorry that I can't seem to blog kindly yet keep having the feel to blog.Ha, husband came and agreed with what I said.
Quote from him:
Just saw my wife's blog, & I realized I shared quite a close sentiment with her, hehe!
I hate couples flaunting their relationship to others.
It's disgusting, horrible, & makes me wanna puke out my dinner I ate for the past few days.
I prefer couples that truly love one another.
For who they are. And not the very fact to show-off to others, thinking that everyone will be so JEALOUS of your situation.
Glad to know I'm not the only one who feels this way.
This is enough evidence to prove that I'm not being mean or judgemental.
As in, one principle in my life is that:
Yes, you're my friend, but I shan't bother about your love life.
Why say this?
Years ago, when I was still very idealistic about love, I kind of condemn strangers and friends alike for what they did in their love life.
Yet, however, I realise something as I grew older.
A good friend might not necessarily be kind and faithful to his/her love.
Yes, different people treats different aspect of life with various methods.
So why, when I'm only a friend, make such a big fuss?
Yeapps, and that's how I derive anpther way of classifying friends and their love.
Okay, but if anyone is willing to share I'll be more than willing to listen.
And if anyone is willing to listen to what I have to say I'll be willing to share.
Yet, no.
Some people always insist on doing some weird things so I'll pretend I see nothing.
:D
But, actually, it's okay to let me be disgusted.
Just be happy with your life and I'll have nothing more to say.
(:
I may seem to be bitching, but at times, you really feel so suffocated by something that you can't seem to share with the one that's doing it because this matter is MORPHED into his character.
Ha.
Let's imagine this scenario.
You have a friend A who is really a very good person and simply very nice to you.
A is always caught littering and you hate litterbugs very much.
So one day, you cauge A littering like, let's say three times in a row.
1. Will you go forward and tell him directly, under the risk of souring the friendship?
2. Close an eye and pretend that nothing has happened?
3. Drop subtle hints.
Oh, sorry option 3 is out 'cause I've done that already.
Yes, and that's the dilema I'm in currently.
Anyone else too?
Ha.
Yes, I'm suppose to be mugging.
I know.
But.
You knowwwww.....
Ha.
Actually, I have made a decision already.
I hate hypocrites, so I shan't be one.
I'll be truthful to my friends.
Someday, when the chance is right, I'll say.
I promise.
OK.
Going to study with Husband and WeeKiat.
Bye.
Much lovessssss and jiayous everyone.
♥ much loves, 5:22 PM
Still as disgusted as ever.
1. If you know who I am talking about in any of my blog's posts, good for you. If you don't that's just too bad.2. If you're disgusting, you are.
No excuses for being disgusting and you don't need re-affirmation bacause it doesn't change anything.
You're still as disgusting as ever.
3. No, I am not as blunt as I was.
I don't do the "straight-into-face" things anymore.
4. No, I need not tell you everything.
5. You have a guilty conscience?
That's just too bad, 'cause you know what?
I don't care.
6. You want to always always act mysterious?
So be it.
Ha.
7. You are still my friend.
8. Congrats. With insincerity from me.
9. Try and make it. I fear you won't.
10. Don't understand?
Look at #1.
PS:
Hello Panda is disgusting.
I hate Hello Panda.
My mommy just bought a whole jar of it.
:/
♥ much loves, 2:42 PM
Friday, August 1, 2008
Long time no seepost.
HA.K.
A random-randomical post today.
1. I got my cute and chic handphone pn Thursday.
And, I realised, WeiLi also wanted that phone.
No, no couple phones for me.
Was so relieved when he said he wouldn't be getting it.
Ha.
L O L.
2. The class is being nonsensical.
Yesterday I became his wife without an official proposal and without my approval.
Today I go demoted to being the small wife with Joyce being the big one.
Aii, was depressed so I requested a break up/ divorze which he promptly refuse.
Hur.
You tell me, is this acting cute or what.
L O L.
Cool.
Nevermind, shall go along with them.
3. I don't like people who flaunt their relationship like a trophy to others.
I will only be envious of couples who are sweet.
So, not you two, who kind of flaunts their relationship.
It's so gross and sick.
Get a life, even if you two doesn't end up together the world doesn't wait.
It just goes on.
No one is jealous nor envious.
Get a grip.
Maybe THAT boyfriend just feels that a relationship is 2 of you + a million on-lookers?
Perhaps.
5. Treasure what you have.
I'm trying.
I don't mind sacrificing my time to make anyone around me smile.
Ha, so my mummy commented that she hasn't played badminton for eons.
So, playing with her later.
Played with TingYan and Zhiying 'cause OTY is trying to strive for a healthy lifestlye.
L O L.
She's ironic.
After playing, she went to have a bowl of dessert, one bowl of handmade noodle and a cup of soya bean.
Nice try my dear.
Ha.
Important lessons in life.
I fear relationships now.
Ha.
It's like.
C O M P L I C A T E D.
What if youre friends do not approve?
What if your family doesn't approve?
(K, this doesn't really bother me 'cause daddy and mummy are free and easy. Make that q-u-i-t-e); ok, so what is HIS family don't allow?
What if you are blinded by love?
What if you love him more than you love yourself and lose yourself in the process?
What if you don't feel contented?
What if you want him to change but he wouldn't even budge?
What if he wants you to change and makes you feel suffocated?
What if he become the whole of your world and causing you to lose your present life.
This is all I've seen, and know what?
I fear.
Moreover what if you two become so sickening(like to flaunt your relationship) when you're together?
Ha.
Relationship may be important in life, but is it essential?
It's still a question to me.
Ha, yes, that's why I'm not that desperate 'cause I'm not even sure if I ever will want a boyfriend.
Oh, and I hate desperate girls.
Really.
Nah, maybe just despise.
I will always think: "Will they die if they don't have guys or so-and-so?"
It's make me very sick when I see all these girls.
Get a life yea?
You can live by yourself and your friends.
Ha, but in a way, I guess everybody is built differently.
Thank goodness I'm not whiny beings.
Well, on the other hand, if I'm born whiny *shudders*, then maybe I'll hate people like the present me hur?
Makes sense.
L O L.
Okay, just glad that I am one who may be a girl, but still able to do a lot of things on my own all by myself without whining and being weak.
It's okay to be sensitive.
It's okay to be quiet.
Yet, it's damn sickening to be desperate and whiny.
And if you're both, bless you.
You better not appear in front of me.
L O L.
I think at most I will just ignore you la hur.
L O L.
Aii,I was just sharing what irks me a lot.
1. People who flaunts relationship.
2. Desperate girls.
Simple.
L O L
Don't know why, just can't stand these individuals.
But k la, they have the right to live their life their own way.
Yet, seriously, when these type of people goes by in my life, worst still, are my good friends, I can't help but cringe.
I can't even describe how the first type of people irks me so.
It is so disgusting.
Maybe cause I always felt that a relationship is a very personal kind of thing.
It's okay to share your problems.
BUT.
It's not okay to do all sort of little things to prove that you're in a relationship.
That's just plain s-i-c-k.
Ha, am really disgusted.
KKKKK, photos will be up later or latest tomorrow.
(:
YAY.
I really like my new phone.
Gladiiiooosss.
♥ much loves, 4:15 PM
