Sunday, November 30, 2008
Animals..pets/slaves/toys?
Ha, I went to deliver fish today.My dad and I passed by a pet training centre and saw a dog being trained.
My daddy commentted: "This is just like 'gou nu cai'- (tanslation: dog servant/slave) -"
Yeapps, I come from a family who do not have any pets.
Since young, my interaction with pets is limited 'cause all my relatives do not have pets too!
So..I didn't forge any kind of bonding with animals and am very afraid of them.
Until primary, when I became rather close with a girl who has a black dog.
That was the earliest memory of myself being in direct contact with animals unless you take into account the visits to the zoo and bird park.
Yeapps, till now, most direct contact is some horny and stupid dog - BIBI of niguNANA.
Sigh.
This dog..is a failure.
HAHAHA.
OKAY, quite cute.
Anyway, sometimes I think it's kinda moronic to treat animals better than humans.
(Great, I think the above statements just earned me some rotten eggs)
Let me explain.
I simply mean we shouldn't abuse animals.
But there is no need to treat it so nice that you treat it nicer than a human?
This is rather sensitive 'cause my nana love her bibi alot.
LOL.
NO LA.
I'm just saying.
As I went by the training school.
I thought- "Why do owners train their dogs?"
As in, we children are sent for schooling to learn a lot of things.
Communicate, socialise, to find a job more effectively ane etc.
However, what about a dog?
IT IS JUST TRAINED TO LISTEN TO COMMANDS.
At the very least, even in this suffocating society, we still had some kind of gap to think freely.
Yet, what about the dogs?
"Sit"
It sits.
"Up."
It gets up.
"Paw paw"
It raises its paw.
Moreover the training process involves using treats.
So..now the trainers/owners are using food to get the dogs to do whatever they want..
This act can be seen as a form of bribery actually.
They're just using the dogs' gillible and naive nature to manipulate them to do whatever they want.
No?
Moreover, when these dogs are trained, these owners will show them off to their friends.
It's kinda sick.
Kind of like using your dog to entertain your guests in the house.
How will you feel if your parents ask you to stand by the door and recite some Shakespearen quotes and poems to guests.
Thereafter, they'll give you some sweets to shut you up.
HUR?
Kind of ludicrous hur?
And, some owners say they love their dogs or just pets 'cause they're cute and whatsoever.
Please hur, does this means your parents only love you 'cause you look decent?
Again, this is ridiculous.
Some say dogs are a man's best friend as it is ultra loyal.
..I think these people are just looking for someone/something that'll respond to their becks and calls.
"Come"
"Down"
"Sit"
Grah.
I'm sorry
I don't see this as "loving" your pet.
So, pray tell me, what is the point of training dogs please.
About the loving pets more than humans.
For this, I can still understand it to some extent.
Humans kind of suck.
As in, self-centred and stuff.
So to find one who'll always accompany you I agree.
BUT!
Please think.
You treat your pet as a companion who can listen to you "bitch" about your life.
However, when you want to go out and stuff, you'll just leave them at home.
They can be as lonely as hell but you'll never know.
D:
& when you're sad you'll find them again..
But, when they're sad? (Assuming you treat them as humans who have emotions yea?)
If I'm a pet, I'll be very sad.
T.T
People goes to the pet shop and choose me based on whether I LOOK cute , healthy and active.
Sigh.
The life of a pet is indeed very sad I think..
Do you, treat your pet at home, as something you love dearly?
I hope you do.
I would like to think, if one has chosen to take on the responsibility as a pet owner, one should not only think of caring for it in terms of food, shelter and safety.
Most pets owners I see claims that they love their pets.
But, some social norms towards pets are really quite ridiculous if you think about it.
:/
Unless, in their hearts, pets are not better than humans.
Then I'll rest my case.
♥ much loves, 9:00 PM
Some game.
Ta~Tagged by TingYan specifically.
& I promised her yesterday I'll do it today.
So here goes:
The rules & regulations:
1) Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2) People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little know facts as well as state this rule clearly
3) At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged & list their names
4) No tagging back.
1. I am a Capricorn...not.
Basically, I'm born on 22 December so I am actually a Capricorn.
However, the day is somewhat near the changing from Sagittarius to Capricorn, so I'm actually a Sagittarius.
This is of course, not yet proven, but I'm confident of this.
LOL.
I'm really like a Sagittarius and not so a Capricorn.
2. I need a cup of coffee everyday unless I do not need to wake up early or study that day.
This little addiction got quite severe during the Os till the point I would get a headache if I don't have my daily dosage of caffeine.
In fact, I chose coffee over Brands' chicken essence.
3. I'm a people-person.
Interacting with people gets me real high!
& I'll be very tired at the end of the day.
Even if I'm in a bad mood or have things weighing on my mind, I can't just stay in the emo mode when people are around me..
..Unless..that person is the one who irritated me!
Ha!
4. I'm a crybaby.
I don't cry because I see blood or when I injure myself.
I cry 'cause I'm a ultra emotional person.
I cry easily due to relationships (kinship & friendships) problem as to me, it's the best way to relieve stress.
:/
I cry when I'm infuriated.
I cry when I'm indignant.
LOL.
Crying is just effective to me.
But I don't know why many gets nervous when I cry even my good friends though I cry quite often?
Heh~
5. I'm a "chou-lian" person.
Meaning that when I'm walking alone or when I'm tired, my face is super fierce.
Can't help that I'm born with a solemn face albeit chubby cheeks.
Hahahah.
6. I won the NKF lucky draw.
I bet everyone still remembers the NKF donation card we get each year in primary school.
Well, every year my family don't donate much.
So, at primary 6, I just though 10 dollars would be a sudden generosity.
Well, I didn't know it's the least amount to enter the lucky draw.
&, I won the third prize of $5000.
How funny is that.
7. I once hated my round face, and blame it on my daddy's bad genes.
Now, I'm okay with it.
Well, I guess it brings joy to other people also.
But..my face is really big.
8. I didn't dare to tell my mother when I was diagnosed to be myopic.
Ha, there's a period I wanted to be myopic so I can wear spectacles.
(Please don't ask me why, it sounds darn idiotic)
But I didn't get my wish.
Well well, when I didn't want to be myopic anymore, it struck me in primary 4.
But, I didn't dare to tell mama 'cause she was very fierce and kept on telling me not to become myopic..
In the end, I dragged on for 1 year, hence it became severe that I have to wear spectacles.
SHUCKS.
9. Habit: I don't comb my hair after I shower.
I'll just used my fingers to arrange for a moment, or even not.
Then I'll just walk around the house and do my usual stuff..till it dries and I have to go out.
That'll be the time I comb my hair.
10. I have never said "I love you" to my parents before.
Ha.
My family is not those mushy-mushy type.
& my mother told me my dad said this recently, " Even though we don't say 'I love you' to the kids, we show our love through gestures.."
My mother added, "Don't you think very mushy? I love you..."
Hahhaahaha~
Bu, I say them easily to my friends.
So ironic + moronic.
HAHAH!
TADA.
OTY, you happy?
(:(:
The "suay-kuans" who are tagged:
(It appears that many tio tag le. Sigh)
ChunHou, HeeYi, ZhengWei ..Yea, they're tagged by TingYan, but they haven't done yet.
:p
LULUMUMU. (You'll patronise me hur :D)
NANAPAPA. (I put for fun only, you just dutifully post I'll be very happy le (: )
ChongYew.
WeiLi
Z. (LMAO)
Eh, I have no more friends le leh.
D:
.
As I expect.
Ha~
This friendship is taking a downturn.
I'll be happy if you wish to lift it up.
But again, I'm okay with anything.
I was never placed top, this I know.
:D
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My daddy rock.
♥ much loves, 12:52 PM
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Aches.
Gym-ed was tiring?Then walked home all the way from cck stadium~
:x
Met TingYan and headed to Bugis~
Home early as she went for training.
.
I'm having terrible muscle aches now!
T.t
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Anyway, imagine this scenario.
Girl is together with Boy for 3 years.
There's still together but the love isn't really there?
Girl also treats others boys more nicely then Boy, albeit never failing to affirm him of her love when things go awry.
Now, the question is, whether Girl stays with Boy because of love of because it has been 3 years and it's hard to let go?
This leaves me pondering as this can be applied to friendships too.
Humans are a obstinate lot.
We hold on to things.
Things that may no longer mean anything to us.
Things that were important to us.
Yet, we tighten and even refuse to loosen our grip.
Why?
Just because we can't let it go.
Just because we're always fighting a battle.
- A constant battle with time to see if we will or time wins.
Just to see if we can out beat time.
Who are we trying to prove to?
Outsiders?
People?
Sometimes, when something expires, it expires.
Nothing good will come out of it by ingesting it.
You'll only get a stomachache.
& this is geninuity versus a pretense caused by the need to hold on.
Sometimes, by letting go, will all parties involved be set free.
No?
.
& I love my nanapapa and lulumumu.
:D:D
Nothing can be as real as this.
5 years and still going strong.
1 year but it seemed so long.
♥ much loves, 9:10 PM
Friday, November 28, 2008
No time to lose.
Hokay, early in teh morning jiale went for a swim by herself.OKAY SUMMARY, I'M TIRED.
9am.
- Swim at woodlands
- Bathed and back to bp to meet dearest patrina
1pm.
- Central at Chinatown
- Shopped
3pm.
- Walked to...CHINATOWN's Tian Jing Lou for dimsum buffet.
(Patrina is an idiot who orders and cant's finish)
6pm.
- Down to This Fashion?
Cheapo people~
- Tried to find OG to show her bags, to no avail!
(TohJiaLe is a direction idiot)
7pm.
- Bus to Orchard
- Walk till I wanna fall asleep
10pm.
- Home
Time Check: It's Tiger Time.
(Oh sheesh, how long ago was this tagline!)
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Oh yea~
Something interesting happened on the way to Central.
As usual, we took 190...
This time...there's this noobshit driver!
HE WENT THE WRONG ROAD.
Exited wrongly at Adams road, took a long detour and was finally back on track~
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HOKAY.
Advertisments about the Central has been going on and on and on.
So we decided to pay it a visit.
It's still quite empty but we didn't leave empty handed!
(:
We're elated over free umbrellasssss~
(Actually not really free, we each spent 50 bucks in exchange for a purple umbrella~
Sigh)
.
I'm sick of dimsum now.
As stated some yellow ghostly girl ordered too much and kept telling me she feel like puking.
So, I have to eat more than my share.
Really, very sick ~
Our lunch-cum-dinner dimsum buffet.
OH GAWD.
.
I'm going gym with pat and lu tomorrow.
Yes, PATRINA.
I don't know what came over her.
She's so excited over exercising recently.
Craze~
I wanna swim~
But swimming suit would still be at wash.
Grah~
.
La.
Actually intended to go out with ong ah yan and cai ah fang after gym.
But tingtingyanyan don't feel like going out.
So.
C A N C E L L E D.
LA~
.
I wanna nua at home.
But my sister just gave my promotion coupons.
Great.
:/
.
I'm spending alot~
& I'm not stopping yet.
Great.
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MONEY MONEY COME TO ME.
(:
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I'm tired.
Bye bye.
.
May all of you take that noobshit driver's bus and be dumped at some ulu ulu place.
I was saved by a cool male passenger...albeit not too handsome.
But, *sigh and dream look* what can one ask for?
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WHO WANNA GO WATCH BOLT?
Like, in the middle of the night, we ask the metreo station which area in Singapore is lighting prone.
& we lie there and look up into the sky.
FIRST A BOLT.
THEN A BOOM.
LIGHTNING.
THUNDER.
LIGHTNING.
THUNDER.
BOLT.
BOOM.
BOLT.
BOOM.
Who wants?
Maybe YianLu may even be strike!
Cool!
WHO WANTS?!?!?!
BUT, so many people are not free.
T.T
NguanHan is in ShangHai~ singing " Ye shang hai, ye shang hai~~" and looking at pretty China girls.
Sigh, I guess he miss SiJi and XieNing...
Wait, they don't come from ShangHai..
Guess where NguanHan will be going next holiday?
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XIA LU.
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Okay. Not funny.
WEEKIAT WILL ALSO BE AT CAMP.
DOUBLE SIGH.
Arbish.
I go watch drama and sleep le.
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May you dream of me.
(psst, meaning no sweet dreams but nightmare.
Nyahahahaha!)
♥ much loves, 10:15 PM
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Say...MOMMY.
Heyhey!Went to visit my aunt at the General Hospital.
She had some operation on the spine.
D:
Sounds terrible.
:/
Hmm, she even needs morphine to ease the pain.
Grah~
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Went to Chinatown with mamamamam.
Ate dim sum.
Shopped.
Met second sister.
Accompanied her to eat dinner.
Met elder sister.
Say bye to both sister as they going shopping.
Home with mama!
A fufilling day, I'll say.
(:
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TIRED.
.
Don't feel like blogging.
'cause most who went out with me know what's in my life?
No point narrating all over again.
& if you don't, it's mfor you to find out.
HAHAHAHAH.
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Well, actually I'm rather sick of going out?!
I'm like going out 6 days out of 7.
So relieve that I didn't do something stupid like finding a job.
:p
Imagine holidays in future~
STUDY.
MUG.
STUDY.
CIP.
Fun?
BAH.
So, right choice!
So actually I was darn lazy and didn't want to go out today.
BUT, I see my mommy want to go out.
So I thought, "If I so willingly accompany my friends why not my mom?"
HENCE, my plan of slacking at home is blasted again.
\:
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SO, it's been a busy busy holiday for me so far.
How about you?
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JIALE LOVES YOU YOU AND YOU.
BYE.
Lastly, she loves herself.
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ANYWAY, THE PREVIOUS POST WAS MEANT FOR WEDNESDAY.
Can you imagine?
I posted exactly at 12.00 am.
SO COOL.
I'm a genius.
:D
(What does this got to do with me :x)
♥ much loves, 8:50 PM
Glass given..always with cracks.
'cause I realised, nobody is ever perfect.Those which appear ultra nice (for a period) are just pretending, maybe even hiding a part of themselves.
Sooner or later, cracks will show.
The perfect image will vanish.
(:
& I can only blame myself for being fooled.
As everyone once told me, Nobody is perfect.
When did I stop beliving in it?
Recent years?
And when did I start to believe in it again?
A minute ago.
Thanks to the same person which make me stop and start to believe in it.
(:
Because I realised, for a long time, I haven't been thinking independently.
Heard of the show - Mentalist?
A guy which do certain acts, or talk certain speech to make others to belive or think of something.
Mayhap I was in the same situation too.
Ha~
I don't like this feeling.
Moreover, don't you think that everyone says things that protect themselves?
When do we ever exposed ourselves and put ourselves in a negative light?
We always try to appear good.
But, this act depends on skills.
When one is equipped with the skills, he can fool anyone by just saying things that appear logical.
:/
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Watch HSM3 with Patrina, WeiLun, YianLu and ZhengWei at Cineleisure today!
It's kinda cool despite everyone saying it's a waste of money~
(:
TA.
Miss WeiLun~
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♥ much loves, 12:00 AM
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Howdy BRO~
Ha.ME BRO is coming back from Australia..He went for Outward Bound.
Sigh, I wonder why he only goes to Australia when he goes abroad~
Hmm, yesterday went to Party World with Pat, YianLu and TingYan with TingYan leaving halfway~
AND I HAVE A PIECE OF GOOD NEWS TO SHARE.
I FINALLY HAVE 12 HOURS OF SLEEP.
*satisified*
HOKAY, I sound like a pig.
(Snort, snort, MEOW)
Went to watch...a NC-16 movie today - Body of Lies - with Amos, JiaMing, NguanHan and WeeKiat.
:/
I wonder why the noob NguanHan and I are let in as they checked EVERYONE'S ez-link.
Doesn't matter.
What's important is that the entire show is kinda boring and I didn't really enjoy.
):
WHY ISN'T THERE ANY GOOD SHOWS AROUND!
WHY!
WHY!
WHY!
Simply because I'm not the director la~
:D:D
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There's so many new bloggers around.
Cheers~
(Like what business is it of mine, really)
So..new links! - Alison, ChuBin & Edrei~
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Okay, as you can see, I don't really have anything to blog.
Sigh..
.
Anyway, I really think people should really learn to cherish others and not just make empty promises
INCLUDING MYSELF.
Don't only think about who can be there for you, but rather who you can be there for.
Don't you think that people who wanna go into a relationship simply because they want company is kinda labelling themselves with friends that do not want them?
(For this, I mean people who get together with company as reason la. If you true love GO ON. LOL.)
Like, if you have family (kinship) and friends (friendships), why do you need bf/gf (relationships)?
Weird.
.
ANYWAY, life is full of ironies.
My parents, well my mummy to be precise, don't mind me being in a relationship.
Quoted: "Like that good what, got people look after you, I no need to worry so much".
BUT, nobody wants her daughter.
On the other hand, there are parents objecting vigourously as their daughter got into a relationship.
This is so nonsensical.
If my parents and her parents will trade mentality, everything will be okay.
(:(:
Somtimes, I'm grateful for the freedom I have.
I started taking the LRT home since Primary 2..OKAY, this doesn't sound like freedom, this sound pathetic.
LIKE SO NOT LOVED.
T.T
I'M AN ABUSED CHILD.
K la, it was because my mommy had an operation so can't fetch me home.
Could go to plaza with friends in Primary 3.
Went to chalet at Primary 5 with class under teachers' supervision.
Was the only girl in 101 who could go for the class chalet?!
OKAY.
END.
I'm lazy to elaborate.
ALL IN ALL, sometimes, I'm amazed at how free my mommy can be.
She will go, "He is your boyfriend is it? Don't shy la. If is it's okay leh, I don't mind..."
o.o
CRAZY.
POINT IS, whoever that he is, he's so not my boyfriend and she'll keep on insisting..:/
SO HIP AND EASY FOR WHAT?!
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ANYWAY, I was thinking of adopting children when I grow up!
Don't ya think that it's good?
I want children but it actually doesn't matter whether they're mine genetically or not.
What matters is, if I don't adopt those kids, they won't have parents hur!
But, I want at least a child of my own too.
Hahaha.
ADOPT.
Think so much for what?
I still have my future husband to consider?
Nevermind, I'll psycho him.
HAHAHAHAHA.
& I doubt I will love someone who is so cold hearted.
LOL.
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5 years of friendship, thanks yellow ghost. (aka PatrinaGohQianYing)
4..actually only 1 year (s) of friendship, thanks LimLuLu. (TRIPLE L SO COOL)
Ha.
Just feel like saying thanks.
You guys always make me feel so blessed.
LIKE SO DARN APPRECIATED DE.
UNO.
UNO.
UNO.
STACK-O.
TOPPLES.
OH OH.
OH NO.
.
BYE.
.
CHOU YEN YEN.
JIO ME OUT LEH.
♥ much loves, 9:29 PM
Sunday, November 23, 2008
& I'm delighted.
Am glad that when I was feeling down, I only felt lost for a moment or two.Then, I realised that there are so many loving friends around me who'll just listen.
You know who you are.
(:
Thanks.
The best I can ever have.
♥ much loves, 11:47 PM
Joke of the day.
HEH, yesterday while me and ZhengWei was waiting for WeiLun, I thought up a joke.It's kinda lame, you can just skip it if you want to.
DO YOU KNOW WHY SANTA CLAUS ONLY GIVE PRESENTS TO CHILDREN WITH GOOD BEHAVIOUR?
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'CAUSE HE ALWAYS GO "HOHOHOHO! MAERRY CHRISTMAS!"
Note: HO is good in Hokkien.
:D
ARE YOU PROUD OF ME.
I AM.
I AM LAME KIA NUMBER UNO.
UNO.
U N O !
♥ much loves, 12:17 PM
Burst.
因为我的忍耐是有限度的。一个星期、两个星期。。。我不需为了不珍惜我的人那么的执着，委屈。
够了。
Yes, I once promised I will be nice.
But, no, I won't do it till the extent that I feel so terrible.
I want to ask...
DO I EXIST?
Freaking hell.
No point am I gonna make myself feel so terrible and unwanted because of some people.
Friends or good friends.
No rights.
I often joke that my heart is Made in Indonesia/China..But I hope you realise I do have emotions.
I am not your pet.
Don't ask me to come and go anytime you want.
I am not a calefare.
I don't know when, I became the sidekick when I'm actually in a clique?
Or has the clique expanded without my knowing?
For you, I hope you will think in others shoes.
You yourself is sensitive, think about how you will feel if I did the same thing.
I understand it's not your fault.
You are the one invited, obviously, you should accept the invitation generously.
The one who invited is not wrong.
The one who accepted is not wrong.
SO AM I WRONG?
NO.
AND.
I though some V-place was supposed to go by 3 girls only.
Since before O levels.
BUT.
I guess something changed or altered without me knowing?
Don't worry.
I'm not going.
As I said.
I'm not going now.
Not going later.
Not going anytime with you guys.
YES, maybe sometime I will go.
Go with people who respect me.
(:
You are not the only one with emotions.
I have a terrible attitude.
SO?
I do become angry.
For your information, I think people who do not become angry are either:
1. HYPOCRITES.
or.
2.NO CHARACTER.
So, I'm neither.
OKAY?
I did not want to blurt out anything.
I tolerated for weekSS.
But.
Guess what, it's too much.
I didn't want anything to changed.
I did not want to cause any inconvenience.
But, I guess it's alright.
You can do whatever you want.
While, you can still be insensitive towards me.
I'll just keep my distance.
(:
This is the best way out.
BYE BYE.
I'm feeling much better.
AND if you don't like this post, good bye?
I hope you'll just cherish a truthful person who don't purposely inject happiness into her post when she's really feeling rotten.
THINGS WILL GET BETTER.
With or without your participation.
(:
Cheers.
♥ much loves, 11:12 AM
Holidays...vacations?
LA~I realised that a few of my friends went/are going abroad!
Well..actually, I was supposed to go to Indonesia for the next week.
But, (yes, always a but), there's no straight flight there so...CANCELLED.
It's okay~
Wasn't really looking forward to it in the first place.
Well, back to topic.
WELCOME BACK KEITH~
Ha.
& LeeNguanHan is going to ShangHai soon~
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Ha, went out with Keith, NguanHan and Brian just now, or rather, yesterday.
Mahjong-ed at Brian's house.
Keith and I taught Brian and NguanHan how to play it...well, make that Brian.
Doubt NguanHan learnt anything.
LOL.
Hmm, then off to meet ZW~
LALA.
Met YuHui...DINNER.
Rented DVDs - Prom Night, Constantine and Ocean Thirteen.
Met WeiLun and off we went to ZW's house.
Long time since we've went out together!
(:
Hmm..feel asleep for awhile after Constantine...and watched Prom Night.
Not too scary but gave me creeps when I walked home alone~
AND NOW.
HOME.
Going to help my daddy to deliver fish soon...
YEA, trying to get into good books.
LOL.
Well, it's been a ultra long time since I've helped.
Always giving excuses like fatigue during band competition season and the need to study during Os.
:/
&..I like this busy lifestyle though it's adding colours to my dark circles.
D:
Gosh, it's really been long since I've met up seriously with everyone~
I WANNA TALK.
WANNA SCREAM.
WANNA LAUGH.
and that's why they called me crazy.
:/
TINGYAN.
I MISSED YOU.
I'm seeing you later.
I LOVE YOU.
:D:D
(:
.
CHEERS.
TODAY IS A BRAND NEW DAY.
.
SAY HI TO ME.
"HELLO!"
♥ much loves, 6:03 AM
Friday, November 21, 2008
):
Promises and plans are nothing unless put into words.Do you know that?
No point in saying so much, so much.
♥ much loves, 6:59 PM
These aren't normal pictures.
YESTERDAY.On Bus 190~
Sigh.
Brian..ChzeKian's Head is blocked and half of NguanHan's...
(As I said, I'm a bad photographer)
Brian and ChzeKian...NguanHan is shy~
UGH. Who is this?
WeeKiat~
JiaMiang's Specs~
This is not about me. Is about WeeKiat's insistant snappings of pictures...
There you go again~
And again~
Him and JM's specs
The tradings of spectacles.. :x
WK and the shy NguanHan..
A rare clear pic of Mr Lee.
WK...with nh's spec.
Did I tell you I have the same problem as WK?
His weird problems again...
Ice hockey`~
AFTER VOLLEYBALL.
Very reluctant to post this up. Sigh~
APPLE PIE~
Zw has the same promblem as me and wk. ;D
ZHAO CAI MAO?
Look alike?
Zw being spastic.
(He's always spastic but he's not keen on taking pic while being spastic..)
Trying to suck the upper lip with the nose!
Why do I look uglier doing it? Well, admiteedly I do have difficulty doing this action. Try it! It's hard! Hahahaah~
& I end with...
WITH MR. BEST SMILE!
Heh, 'cause I said that he wasn't smiling when taking picture with me at Prom Night.
Haha~
(:
LA!
This is after his bball...at about 11pm?
So responsible as his role of Mr smile (:
.
And I am having doubts.
Cracks are forming.
):
♥ much loves, 2:19 PM
SOLD.
Hello!MY ZEN IS ALMOST SOLD.
(:
Depends la hur.
Got lobang already.
THANKS LOTS!
:D
.
I AM SUFFERING FROM INDIGESTION.
D:
Since Prom Night, I'm having diarrhea.
& after I ate a little from Sakura I seriously felt like vomitting.
BUT, none of the guys (NguanHan, JiaMing, ChzeKian, WeeKiat and Brian) were sympathetic.
T.T
WHAT HAD I DONE TO DESERVE SUCH TREATMENTS!
( Yes, I'm feeling a lil' dramaTIC today~)
Then, we planned to watch a movie.
But there were none we liked at all!
Hmm...so...ARCADE.
Pictures up tomorrow!
Had a relatively crazy time with them, or rather I'm just being high all by myself.
):
Decided to play volleyball, so I rushed home to change and get volleyball and back to lot 1.
Sigh.
Off we (ZhengWei, Eugene, NguanHan, WeeKiat and JiaMing) went to CCK Stadium.~
.
I'm kinda being suan-ed till cannot suan-ed today by people.
:x
WHYWHYWHY!
They say I'm ugly.
They say so many things.
I VERY SAD...NOT.
(:
Ha.
THEY ARE YEO ZHENG WEI, EUGENE KOH AND LEE NGUAN HAN.
Who cares~
But, one has to admit the way they niao me is creative.
(:
Sometimes make me laugh...of course, everyone else is laughing too.
LEENGUANHAN IS KING OF SUANING ME.
Today, while I AM DOING A FAVOUR FOR HIM, he said something like, no infra-red sensor it's okay. They have WEIGHT DETECTOR?
Hello?
How much more creative can he get.
T.T
"I LIVE TO BRING JOY TO OTHERS."
Face life, jiale.
HAHAHAHAHA.
& it's really funny .
So..ends this random post~
La.
.
I'm happy.
Are you?
(:
♥ much loves, 1:56 AM
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Decisions~
*LA*Hokay~
I'm gonna go out soon~
Meeting the boys for Sakura Buffet.
.
ANYWAY, I told my one of my elder sister about the prize won from prom.
When I told her I kind of suck at technology stuff, she encourage me to sell it.
SO.
I AM GONNA HEED HER ADVICE.
Thank you.
I'm gonna sell the Creative Zen X-Fi 32Gb with Wireless LAN.
(:
♥ much loves, 9:36 AM
Pre-Prom and Post-Prom.
17 October 2008:- Went to Pat's house to drop my stuff.
- Home.
- Quarrelled with my mother. (A super big one. D:D:D:D:)
18 October 2008:
- Not on talking terms with mama.
- Made my own breakfast (she's on strike too)
- Meet Z for camera
- Went Pat's house to prepare
11 am:
- Reached Pat's house
12 pm:
- Painted Patrina's nails (with her help and mine.)
130pm:
- I bathed
- She bathed
230pm:
- Maggie mee for lunch
315pm:
- Changed
330pm:
- Make up
(you don't know how stress we are 'cause we're afraid that we'll screw up as we're doing our own make up & with the fact that we don't usually make up. :/)
430pm:
- OMG WE'RE LATE MEETING YIANLU.
440pm:
- OMG WE'RE LATE MEETING LEON.
5pm:
- Hair~
530pm:
- Cab
6 dunno when pm:
- Reached
& Prom starts.
(:
.
.
.
PHOTOS.
(As shown in previous post)
.
.
.
And..I WON THE TOP PRIZE.
Sheesh, it was unexpected.
Check it out:
Creative Zen X-Fi 32Gb with wireless LAN
I was still telling Joyce I normally don't win lucky draw what more with me as the first putting the ticket in.
:/
Ha...
123 PLUS ONE.
Cool~
But, main point is...I'm a gadget noob.
:/
Hmm...Hahahah.
1130pm:
- Went to Patrina's house.
Upon alighting form the bus, I took off my heels.
:/
Grah.
My soles of my feet are so painful!
So we 2 look like drunkards walking home with heels in our hands.
LOL!~
1am:
- Frantic attemot to wash off hairsprays and wax and mud and whatever hair products.
:/
130am:
- I couldn't hold on. Sleep awaited me.
:D
1045am:
- Woke up.
230pm:
- Headed to Lot 1 to accompany Pat to make her ex-link card
430pm:
- Done with ez-link and finished walking around the entire Lot 1.
- Ministry of Food.
LOL.
500pm:
- Decided to walk from Lot 1 all the way to my house~
(A surprise is PATRINA IS WALKING TOO.)
& I reached home.
Upon stepping out of the life I saw my mom.
:/
And I said, "Mommy, I'm home"
&...She's not angry anymore.
She...asked if I've eaten.
Sigh.
My mommy is really very wonderful but I always forget it and retort back and become very rude.
D:
Glad that all's fine.
(:
I LOVE MY MUMMY.
LOL.
& I showed her my Prom pictures just now.
Forgeting that there are pictures of me hugging Eugene, pointing middle fingers and sprawling on the toilet walls.
:/
OMG!
Haha, I only manage to skip past the middle fingers shots and as I said, my mom didn't know it's me on the wall.
Regarding Eugene's pic, she was like.." AIYO, don't anyhow hug boys ley!"
& I went, "Haha, all friends la. Nevermind de~"
LOL.
ENOUGH OF PROM.
.
Wait, did I tell you, my mom's great.
.
Anyway, on the walk home.
Pat and I talked about the past.
Sigh.
The ups and downs.
The quarrels and the patch.
Hahaha~
I will elaborate more on the next post I guess.
I'm really tired out.
.
I must learn to show appreciation for my parents.
Through actions, not thoughts.
♥ much loves, 1:24 AM
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Pictures of Prom !
IN CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER:
The first picture-blurred one in the toilet.
Me, Siying and Patrina.
:D
Another blurry one. ):
Patrina, Siying, Me and YianLu.
Toilet again!
:D
Me and Mr. Chai WeeKiat, before the start of Prom.
YianLu, Patrina and SiYing. (:
The 2 and me. (:
Brian and WeeKiat.
Again, with the blurry effect. :D
Again...(This is getting boring.)
Me and the two boring people. ;D
Boringness x5!
(Don't tell anyone I'm half-kneeling :D)
Actual height ~ with CHUNHOU!
Guess who are we?
Jamie, me and Joyce !
Lun!
LunLun!
LunLunLun!
MR LIW. (I'm tall)
Hmm...Unglamourous~
Heh! Mr Tay and I. Undeniably one of my favourite teachers!
ZHENGWEI...aka...waiter. :x
LIW.ZW.LUN
LZL COMBO.
JianKai and Mr Liw~
Me and JianKai
Again...clearer!
They(Liw and Tay) said I'm the most blessed woman as I can stand in the middle to take this photo with them...Am I?
3/8 AHA...blurred. (I'm not a good photographer..)
Hey! That's better! :D
HeeYi and me. (:
Mel and I
The person who always says I'm cute. *winks* (Inside joke.)
BRIGHTER. There you go.:D
Vanka, TOHJIALE, chzekian.
Viv~
Vito! Handsome?
ZongSheng!
DERRICK!..and my BIG face...with the hole in the teeth. (As emphasised by the photographer-ZongSheng.)
TABLE NUMBER TWENTY! (Why not 22 D:)
The boys-Mel, Vito, Vanka, CHICKEN, WeeKiat, Brian.
Me and Crystal. (Sorry, my face is too big :/)
YENYEN, me and ALEX.
with SIYUN~ She's looks so like a bride!
SeeWoon and I...I'm in my heels...she's not. ):
Benjamin and I. :D
Me. A short boy. & Mr smile.
DOUBLE CHECK. IS HE THE MR. SMILE?!
My EX and I. Reason for break-up...I'm taller.
Demas and I. (:
ME and MY EX...Remember the days...LOL!
KAIJUN.
Vivien and KJ.
PRESIDENT!
Food!~
Vito and ZS.
MR TAN!!
YY and MR TAN!
Me and KWE.
WEIEN.!
MR AND MR OSGODBY!
t1 say yo! MRS HOE!
ME and CHONGYEW! :D:D
JOYCE WITH HER 50 bucks voucher aka 6th prize. (:
A.I.H.U.A.
AH and VGWT.
MRE JOSEPH! Say bye to chapter 17!
OMG?! Who is this?
LayTeng and Joyce~
LT and me.
Samuel Chia~
Joyce and Jasmine.
Jasmine.
WOONYEOW (Cousin's cousin)
SAY HI TO KQQ!
Me and the other 3 babes of 01. I'm sorry...BUT I'M MISSING MY 2 BABES OF 01 D:
TADA~ SMALL HEAD AND BIG HEAD. (YuHui and JiaLe)
Me and yuanCHEE.
Eh...the photographer is slow...:/ ..making me angry! LOL
Heh~ I love joyce~
T1~
again~
My date for the night (:
ShuLi~
Me and Kerk..and Mr Liw's itchy hand. (:
KS and me.
Pat. TIGER. Lu.
JAMIE!
Me and MingHan. (Was really very surprised when he asked me for a picture!)
Toilet..yet again. (:
Darlings~
Erm..it wasn't me.
My mom said..."Who did this type of thing? So crazy?!"...She didn't realise it was me...
Stage.
YEOZHENGWEI.!
Dancing!~
His 11th prize and my 1st prize. (:
Me and the PromKing. He looked super untidy~
Rainer~
ZW and ZL
chubin~ and YUHUI AS BACKGROUND!
Patrinanananan!~
Me and Blackie~
Junhao and AHPAT.
Junhao~
Me and Bochao.
Cordelia.
Xinyi
Pat. Me. Michelle. (SAME WATCH IN OBS)
t1 yo!
Alison and I. BEST SMILE BEST SMILE.
YeeTing and Viv.
MISS BEST SMILE AND PAT.
Me and MR SAXOPHONE!
Herianti~
ATIQAH
LUN FOR DON'T KNOW HOW MANY TIMES!
SHUI JING!
MingZe!
YanShuang~
TYS-ten years series (:
ChunYueh
KJ and I
Sean Koh~
Some of the cornets/trumpeters (:
Well..He said he wanted my prize. So, he got the top prize and I'm the PromKing. (:
Eugene and I.
Me and JunYuan.
Pat and Me. SO ROMANTIC!
ZW.
ZW.
Erm..look for the contrast below. :D
Heh~
Me and YanHan.
THE CAMERA ZONKED OUT.
:D:D:D:D
ELABORATED MORE IN ENXT POST.
CHEERS.
♥ much loves, 9:02 PM
Sunday, November 16, 2008
One of my dreams..
Heh, if you're my close friend or anything, you should know that I don't and can't remeber my dreams.Surprisingly, I remembered my dream today.
:/
(When I prefer not to..)
GUESS WHAT I DREAMT OF?
O LEVEL.
Grah. I really don't know what's wrong with me.
The scenario was not in the hall just somne random classroom?
I was there to get my result.
& after I got it, (I don't know from who 'cause it somehow miraculously appeared in my hands), I didn't look at it, folded and put into my bag.
(This part is ludicrous..HOW CAN I NOT LOOK AT IT?)
Well, then I went to talk to WeiLun, for what reason I'm unsure.
In one split second, I'm transported to some weird place and I saw...
MRS CAI HONG.
CAI LAO SHI ~~~~
& she gave me a disappointed look.
I was like " Hello? Why do you look so sad?"
& she said my result was not up to expectation..
Frantically, I open my bag and look at my result of HMT, which was the last on the slip.
A2..
Grah~
Then I started to look at all of my results.
(LIGHTNING BOLTS AND THUNDERSTORMS PLEASE.)
I got an assortment of results.
I got 2 or 3 A1s.
1 A2.
AND.
2 E8, Physics and one more subject.
1 B4 for Biology.
WHATTHEHELL.
And yes, I know I should have 9/10 grades but apparently there's no English.
:/
WELL, then I became very, very sad.
And in one split second I'm back to outside the classroom with WeiLun and some girls in it.
Then I began to cry..while squatting outside the classroom.
WeiLun came out to find me.
HAHA.
Anyway, I totally broke down when I saw him.
I told him, "My L1R5 is 22.." while crying.
And, I keep thinking that I can;t even enter a Junior College or even get a good course in a polytechnic.
Then, WeiLun was at a loss of words and keep giving my sympathetic glances.
D:
SIGH.
AND I WOKE UP FEELING VERY VERY VERY SAD.
AND THUS END MY DREAM.
Well done for remembering such sad dreams.
D:
.
I'M GOING TO ORCHARD...again.
HAHAHA.
♥ much loves, 10:20 AM
Saturday, November 15, 2008
The "important" thing in life.
L.O.V.E.Yes, it's been eons ago since I've rant about such issues.
Ya know, it's kind of sad to admit, but I've become more cynical towards love between two.
As in, who don't wish to be idealistic towards love?
Who doesn't wish for eternity and a soulmate?
However, I am no longer holding on to this belief.
Relationships.
A blessing or a chore?
Sometimes, with just a slight mistake, it could easily turn awry.
Just like a beautiful piece of glass artwork, once shattered, something's changed.
To think negatively, it'll have many cracks and hence become fragile.
One has to tread carefully lest it breaks again and all the flaws would at once become too obvious for everyone's liking.
However, if one is an optimist, one can easily treat those cracks as something unique and special that no other people on the world can have.
Lessons which you have come to learnt.
Secrets which you have learn to keep.
Quarrels which have been resolved.
Cracks which symbolises how much both of yuou have went through.
Sure, it's fragile.
However, if held close to the heart and carefully carried in the hands, it shouldn't be too hard hur.
Sometimes, I think, all of us anticipate the taste of love since we become aware of the presence and existance of it.
Even when we're too immature, we carry on.
Even if the time ain't right, we jump straight in.
Moreover, while carrying misconceptions that love is a fairytale, we always expect our other halves to be the perfect person in our life.
They should only do the things we like.
& with it, we have settled our life and rested our case as we've found a person who loves us.
Yet, think about it.
A relationship does require a lot of things.
Not only must one love the strengths of the other, he must also come to accept all the flaws of the others.
Likes and dislikes.
Opinions and attitudes.
Tone and words.
Gestures and actions.
&, communication.
So much, so much.
Sometimes, "I love you" doesn't solve anything.
We always start off, thinking that since he/she is our love, we must spend as much time with him/her.
However, is love the only thing in our life?
Not really..
Think about it, before you "love" appeared in your life, have you been living well?
Have you laugh?
Have you smile?
Do you treat your friends nice?
Yet, once the "love" steps in, someone's life changes overnight.
Why?
It's so illogical how one can just revolve round and round the same person.
Ask yourself, where are your friends?
Or have they just been dummies in your life, accompanying you ONLY when your "love" is not around?
Just because you want yourself to be happy, and your partner to be, your friends can and should be sacrifices?
Not so, not so..
Love's a part of life and not the whole of a life.
& hence, I'm sorry to say, couples who spend day and night together will most probably not work.
Sigh.
Once I realised that relationships CAN be such a dread and chore, the beautiful and twinkling image of it is..crushed.
Ha.
It's hard as it requires both sides working hand in hand.
One minute, one party may be slogging his/her guts out while the next he/she just threw his/her hands up in the end, surrendering.
D:
Such things happen...more often than not.
Give and take.
Who doesn't know?
But..who really does it?
Sometimes, giving can be a habit, likewise for taking.
Unbalance.
:/
So many troubles, so little time.
):
That's why, I don't get it when people are so desperate for love.
Your don't go in search for love.
When it arrives, it does.
Moreover, a life without a distinct love means that you can have more time with your friends?
However, it's agreeable that it's sweet to have someone to call your own.
Someone who treats you like you're everything in his world.
Someone who is willing to do so much for you.
But...again.
Such treatments do not neccesarily last long too.
:/
Habits, taken for granted, laziness.
Novelty of a relationship and a new boyfriend/girlfriend does wear off.
& it'll be the time to learn to live without that much sparks in the relationship hur.
Sigh.
Girls will then start being paranoid for the lack of love, becoming overly suspicious and become jeslous easily.
What a dread~
In the beginning, love is just like two gears which barely fits turning together.
With time, both might experience wear and tear and turn more smoothly.
Or.
One may just drop off due to the unbearable tension experiences.
:/
And I guess it's this period which is the fightings and quarrels.
So...well, it's kind of evident.
I don't trust all those "love forever and ever" and "happily ever after" crap.
The future is not in anyone's control.
& no one can be fully trusted in the world as all has their own weaknesses.
Yes, one weakness may be his other half.
But, maybe, for her own good, he may also leave.
Nobody know really.
Love..unpredictable.
Love..unexpected.
Love..is it really needed?
♥ much loves, 11:32 PM
Spices...and everything nice.
Ho~Back from Orchard.
:/
Didn't shop, more of accompany the boys to shop.
Then headed back to Lot 1 for Ajisan.
Lol.
Chatted.
Walked.
Home alas!
.
Sigh.
WeiLi commented that my post is getting dry.
I want to shout, "I AGREE!"
Hahahahah!~
.
Sigh.
Anyway, about the volunteery work, I'm kind of disappointed and dejected 'cause there's a age limit everywhere!
D:
SIXTEEN.
TWENTY ONE.
SIXTEEN.
TWENTY ONE.
SIXTEEN.
TWENTY ONE.
BOOM.
I'm F I F T E E N .
Very depressing actually..
'cause I want to become a befriender.
In simple form, it's just chatting and visiting the people.
Sigh, but I guess this kind of things do require a certain maturity level.
I actually contemplated going to the Institute of Mental Health to help.
But, well, expected, it has a age limit.
D:
Moreover, it's undeniable that I'm a lil' scared too.
I'm afraid that I'll accidental;ly trigger off some memories of theirs too.
:/
&, even if I am sixteen, I doubt that I can become a befriender.
Most probably I'll be assigned to be a tutor or to do adminstration work.
It's not that I am against doing all these.
Yet, these kind of things are not what I have in mind.
I might as well go to any public library and aid them in arranging book, aye?
D:
I really want to spend this holiday meaningfully.
Anybody has any ideas in mind?
.
Oh yea, I shall promise myself to help in doing housework and stop displaying sucky attitude to my mother.
TOLERATION TESTED.
:/
Sometimes, it's really very irritating that it makes me cringe.
D:
But, she doesn't deserve my snappings and irritated tone.
TRY MY BEST.
.
CHEERS.
♥ much loves, 10:46 PM
Contracdictions.
Ho.Going with WeiLi, WeeKiat and ChzeKian to Orchard.
:/
All of us are all bored to death.
Ha, I shall be more pro-active!
It's been so long since I've went out with them!~
Hahaha~
:D
But, seriously, I'm getting impatient with the slowpoke-ChaiWeeKiat.
*Taps and drums fingers*
.
Crystal WAS about 2 miles from me.
Now she's 782402509710 miles from me.
T.t
LOL.
I AWAIT YOUR ARRIVAL ON TUESDAY!
;D
.
Sigh.
I am ASTOUNDED.
I hate hidden meanings.
I hate hints.
Just come straight to the point.
& don't accuse me when you lead me on.
But well, I guess, it's my fault for allowing my stand to be swayed.
:/
'cause I don't like being angry.
& it's been so long since I felt serious anger.
But I realised, I don't like being angry.
:/
.
I AM SO GONNA LET GO.
UNHAPPINESS LEVEL REFRESHED.
Everyday is a brand new day.
Well..At least I'll try to think so.
(:
SO.
BURY.
DUMP.
POOF.
Disappear.
.
(:
.
♥ much loves, 2:06 PM
Friday, November 14, 2008
A million thanks.
Yesterday was the barberque.Ooolala~
Kinda not very successful but I'm glad.
:D
Thank you z.
.
Yesterday, or rather, today at midnight, I realised a lot of things.
1.
A few days ago, I think that I've become more and more pessimistic.
Somehow, I felt, when you're too passive, you'll be the one who'll be suffering and forgotten at the end of the day.
But I realised, there'll still be people caring for me, albeith not all.
(:
2.
There's some friends who always make you feel worthless but there'll be some who always make you feel priceless.
.
The question now is, am i supposed to treat all equally?
Or should I just shun those friends who make me feel utterly worthless.
Sigh, I think I'm thinking too much again.
.
LOL.
A millions of thanks.
I'm touched.
I'm scared.
I'm uneasy.
But, I'm glad.
.
It's been so long since I've bet on such serious issue.
I'm not a spirit damper, but I don't want to be disappointed.
I don't want to hinder anyone's chance of being happy 'cause I'll feel disappointed.
I'll be a silent audience.
But, please, don't make me feel like a fool.
'cause, the day will come when even a fool will feel immuned.
And I dread that day.
I said, "No, they'll not."
But look, I'm not that sure myself.
Till 31 December 2008 will I have an answer.
Awaiting.
Or maybe it won't be too long before I proclaim myself to losing a bet.
♥ much loves, 6:50 PM
Thursday, November 13, 2008
A quick update.
Os finally over.Didn't study at all.
Not even a word.
Went Kbox yesterday with 3 darlings.
Meet up with another.
ON the way home, changed direction to mett back my 3 darlings.
Sent 1 home.
LRT-ed with the other 2.
Finally home at 11 pm.
Sorry, too tired, and successfully zonked out.
LOL.
Woke up groggy.
D:
SO, lala~
My Os over but I don't really feel anything since I've been relaxing since the weekend.
:/
Going to buy food for the barberque later on~
:D
.
Cheer up 'cause I'll love you.
.
I'm super tired.
:/
Didn't want to wake up at all.
But...well, there's O..
So, sigh.
I woke up.
D:
.
I'm super tired.
Do whatever you want.
I am so not going to care since well, you don't bother either.
Yes, I'm frustrated.
But no, you'll never know.
Life's all about respecting and accepting.
I mourn over the fact that you only find me when you need me.
But, should I stoop so low to be happy that at least I'll be the one you find when you're in need?
I don't know.
Give me some time.
♥ much loves, 10:16 AM
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Murmurs, after murmurs.
I tell myself...I CANNOT MIND.
:D
♥ much loves, 10:03 PM
Monday, November 10, 2008
Realisation~
做人要放得开、放得下。(:
♥ much loves, 11:18 AM
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Ho~ Buffet again~
I went to another buffet at Orchid Country Club again~A one month old baby got the limelight again.
This time, however, it not my relatives organising it.
It's the family who introduced my daddy to my mummy!
LOL!
Well, I think I look old.
D:
BOTOX please~
Heh~
.
Anyway, since Os ending, I am gonna slow down the pace of my life~
Gonna accompany anyone who needs company.
Spend time with my darling mummy!
& allocate time for myself to just think?
Ha.
IT'S TIME TO SAY THANK YOU.
(:
IT'S TIME TO GROW UP.
IT'S TIME TO STOP BEING THE OBSTINATE GIRL.
THE TIME TO BE GIVING.
TO SHARE.
Oh, it reminds me~
I feel like doing voluntary work!
LOL!
But I don't know what to do~
D:
Any ideas~
I feel like going to the SPCA, an orphanage or an old folks' home.
:/
BUT.
I AM VERY SCARED OF CATS, AND A LIL' OF DOGS.
I DON'T REALLY LIKE KIDS.
AND I CAN'T SPEAK DIALECT.
OHMYMAMA.
WHAT AM I TO DO?
This is so ridiculous~
I'm more inclined towards the orphanage and old folks' home though!
Lol~
'cause I want to stop being a self-centered person~
AND.
I want to put words into actions.
For what I've written in my Os essay, I meant every word I say.
The society is getting too cold for my liking.
However, I can't condemn teenager, or even friends, who don't feel any need to help those in need.
'cause not every see the world in the view I see.
Time.
It's yours.
It's his.
It's hers.
It's mine.
We all spend it in ways we think it's worth.
(:
Many a times, due to the unwanted competition, we all strive to do our best and adhere to the system of meritocracy.
However, I do not need to leave footprints in ONLY my own life.
:D
As I said, humans are selfish.
However, there are different ways in which people are selfish.
Some are stingy in terms of money.
Some falter under the stress of competition.
Some stand strong when it comes to love.
Some find no need in having a looser grip on their time.
We all have our self-obsession time.
(:
BUT, FOR ME, IT'S TIME TO WAKE UP.
My daddy and mummy is getting older.
They're getting tired and weaker.
But I'm no way near my graduation day from a university.
I'm not any step closer to securing a stable income to contributing to my house.
& do remember, I am born with parents and siblings.
Not everyone is.
It's time to clear any ignorance.
(:
To not suffer under the fate of poverty.
To not go hungry.
To have a shelter over my head.
To spend so much money~
It's a blessing~
Sometimes, we can't help how we are born.
And what we are born into.
Circumstances which ain't in our control~
.
TO BRING JOY~
.
(:
♥ much loves, 6:30 PM
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Ha. I'm back! (:
Okay.Was practically beyond nonsensical yesterday.
Example:
Ha.
Went home STRAIGHT after Literature.
Slacked, and tried to hear cows moo, but to no avail.
Went to Bukit Panjang Plaza.
Caught up with Eugene which is an unexpected surprise?
Didn't even know he'll be there.
Haha~
Hmm...Planned to pool with Zhiying and TingYan.
Evidently, it's just a failed plan.
So Mahjong mahjong~
Lol!
Hokay.
I just feel kind of nostalgic today, bear with me k?
Ha.
I wanna say thank you to anyone who has been a part of my life.
I don't know why.
& I'm really trying hard to be nice~
Hahahaha.
So, even if I don't like certain things, I'll accede.
(:
Heh~
Simply because, even if I feel terrible right now, I'm certain that I'll bounce back the day after.
:D
I'm just afraid that I'll be beyond fatigue before I accomplish my "mission".
'Cause I'm bound to feel lonely.
Feel lost.
Feel paranoid.
Feel neglected.
.
Sometimes, actions do speak louder than words.
When people didn't expect you to be there, you gave a promise.
But, the problem is, will you be there?
Yes, when a crisis struck, you'll be.
What about the parts and parcels of life?
You are absent.
So, don't give any promises that you ain't able to do.
It's kind of ironic at times, that some promises looks to be bonuses in life 'cause we don't expect them to be there.
However, when it all boils down, the promise is still not there.
Well, perhaps to give empty hopes and reassurance, that I'll give you.
So, my promise will only be : "I will TRY to be nicer. Not I WILL be nicer."
LOL
Moreover, I'm entitled to mood swings too~
Heh.
.
It's sometimes hard not to think what would happened if not for...
If not for...
So, it just concludes that I'll treat any promises like nothing.
It's to ensure I won't have any hopes for anyone.
-To be lenient with others and be strict with oneself!
(Comes from a Chinese proverb which I forgot :/)
.
Try to be there for everyone and not expect everyone to be there for me.
(:
.
OHOH!
I WAS VERY INSPIRED BY A NEWSPAPER
& SUDDENLY, I DON'T MIND BEING A TEACHER FOR A SPECIAL SCHOOL!
Haha, me and my ideas~
LA~
PSYCHOLOGIST.
TEACHER.
SOCIAL WORKER.
WHAT'S MORE?
:D
.
I feel like doing something adventurous.
LIKE.
BUNGEE JUMP!
LOL.
I CRAVE ADRENALINE RUSH.
Just felt that it's been very long since I've drop all troubles and really laugh like a crazy woman!
.
Friendship
Let's start from Secondary education years.
Don't you think many of us practically forgot that friends are the one who will always be there for us eventually in some point of the past 4 years?
In out fervent pursuit for love, or just some kind of status with the opposite gender, we neglected the people who are so close to us.
Despite the lies, the denials, and only through subtle hints or just some minute details, they are the ones who know what we think and feel.
We tried our best to know and understand others, but never giving a second thoughts to people who know and understand us.
Indeed, it is a irony, but again, I doubt it's something any of us can control.
In the years we tried to find ourselves and our real identities, who haven't tried to tried himself/herself just to fit, albeit an almost impossible fit.
Who haven't tried to change or hide his/her opinions so as to avoid and prevent clashes and conflict?
Who haven't tried to appear like someone else, someone that we, ourselves think that others would most probably accept?
Expanding out social circles, finding true friends, finding real love....
All these are those unreasonable reasons we all hoped that the ones beside us will understand so as to allow us to roam free and easy in the world.
Sigh.
When we need a listening ear, who is there?
When we need company, who is there?
La~
I get annoyed easily.
I get frustrated easily.
Again, it'll always be my closet friend who receives the brunt of my temper and mood swings.
However, they'll still be the ones who keep asking me am I alright.
Sweet, hur!~
Yeapps, so treasure the people around you.
& I really want to say thank you to people who have really been nice to me.
:D
Like, real concerned when I'm feeling terrible.
(:
.
Goody bye~
.
♥ much loves, 12:42 PM
Friday, November 7, 2008
Irritation~
I don't like my neighbours moving house.New neighbours will move in.
RENOVATION.
OH MY MAMA!
So noisy~
♥ much loves, 11:33 AM
Choose your friends wisely. (:
Yes, after yesterday's incident, I realised that...we should all choose our friend wisely.Ha.
Okay~ It's not because of yesterday's incident (Some girl called XinFang asked me run to Geylang~ HAHA!), but rather, some other (serious, not joking) incidents which I prefer not to talk about.
After that incident(s), I realise that some people really treat others like dumb idiots.
No?
Sometimes, it's not that one gets paranoid.
Or rather, I, who gets paranoid.
Yet, it's evident who treats you the best and who takes you for granted.
Nopes, not saying that you don't treasure or cherish me.
And yea, as said before, I don't treat friendship as a treaty whereby we trade.
However, it sounds perfectly logical for me to treat those who treasure me better nicer right?
Why, treat someone better who...
1. Only think of you when all others are busy?
2. Only approach you when they need company, regardless if you need company or need to be alone
And, yea, that's that.
LOL.
'cause I don't comprehend a lot of things.
If it was last time, I would have tried to understand.
However, now, with so much years gone, I don't feel like questioning.
Such things have happened before.
Even if I question, you would give me the answer you once gave me.
The answer that doesn't reflect in your actions at all.
So why?
Why ask and demand for an answer that will never come true?
Yea.
So, simply saying, kind of disappointed with one person.
But, it's okay.
I will still try to make it whenever he/she need me even if I feel I'm a substitute or what.
It's okay~
I mind, but he/she's my friend.
.
CHEERS.
LITERATURE'S DOWN.
:D
♥ much loves, 10:55 AM
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Some conversation with some african stranger.\
(Disclaimer: No intention of being a racist.)
jiale. says:
HAHA
jiale. says:
GONG
jiale. says:
WHAT YOU WANT FOR SUPPER
Xinfang says:
GONG ?
Xinfang says:
HAHAHA!!!!!
Xinfang says:
ok..
Xinfang says:
I want frog leg porridge from geylang!
jiale. says:
gong=say
Xinfang says:
and hmm. BAO FROM TIONGBARU??
jiale. says:
*evil smile* i will add substances in tho. Shower you wth EXTRA love and care?
Xinfang says:
SOME FRIED MARS BARS AND FRIED KUAYTIAO FROM CCK BUS INTERCHANGE! THANKS AR!
Xinfang says:
LMAO!!
jiale. says:
HAHA.
jiale. says:
Can
jiale. says:
confirm?
Xinfang says:
yeah ~ wo deng ni o!
jiale. says:
Hao. From this moment, I pronounced you a stranger
jiale. says:
(:
Xinfang says:
OMG!!!!!!!!
Xinfang says:
*heart break*
Xinfang says:
I go cut my wrist now!
Xinfang says:
HUH!!!
jiale. says:
---tohjiale do not talk to strangers---
Xinfang says:
omg!!!!!!!
Xinfang says:
WORST. I GO JUMP ALRD!!!
jiale. says:
---tohjiale do not care that a stranger cut his/her/its wrist or whether he/she/it jumps or not---
Xinfang says:
TOTALLY HEARTLESS!!!!!!
jiale. says:
You ah?
jiale. says:
I agree
jiale. says:
(:
Xinfang says:
haiz.
Xinfang says:
I go nurse my splitting wound..
Xinfang says:
as long as great wall of china
Xinfang says:
spilling blood like yellow river
Xinfang says:
OMG I feel like a genius
Xinfang says:
LOL!
jiale. says:
Okay, I can see that you've been revising for your lit
jiale. says:
BAGUS.
Xinfang says:
lmao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Xinfang says:
OK fine. I go watch 10brothers + revise lit. LOL!
Xinfang says:
RMB MY SUPPER OH BAO BEI! *angelic smile*
Xinfang says:
wo deng zhe ni hui lai!
Xinfang says:
HAHA. zaijian le zuo jia le!
Xinfang says:
DONT MISS ME.
Xinfang says:
TOO MUCH.
Xinfang says:
=)
Xinfang says:
=)
Xinfang says:
=)
Xinfang says:
=)
Xinfang says:
=)
Xinfang says:
MING TIAN JIAN.
Xinfang says:
ok la..
Xinfang says:
I really going le.
Xinfang says:
YOU IGNORING ME AR !!!!
Xinfang says:
LOL!!!!!!!
Xinfang says:
ok ~ bye ~
Xinfang says:
=x
jiale. says:
NO LA
jiale. says:
you still here?
& this ends the conversation.
(:
Ha.
What a scheming girl.
~!@#$%^&*()
LOL!
Yea.
Somemore she live so far and want something from Geylang.
But it's okay.
I'll do it.
MISS STRANGER, DO AWAIT ME IN YOUR DREAMS.
:D
.
Hmm, Human Geography was not very good.
But, doable.
LOL.
MALEHMALEYHOM.
A1.
I appears that I'm rather slack during Os.
I MSN almost everyday.
I watch Mr.Telly almost everyday.
I go out rather frequently.
:x
Sigh.
& I still am confident.
I think I underestimated O level.
Sheesh.
For now, I only think the Physics is a goner.
Like, I've already bade farewell and hugged it goodbye.
:/
But again, I think I have never said "Hello!" and welcome Physics ever.
):
Anyway, I really do hope I get the results I want and am confident of getting.
I still put in a lot of efforts okay!~
LOL.
Just not as much.
:/
Zzz.
I hope Timbaland won't sing when I get my results.
I wonder, will this be the lesson to teach me not to be too arrogant and complacent?
Sheesh.
WORRIED.
Let's hope for the best.
MR.CAMBRIDGE, I'LL MARRY YOU.
Or if you prefer, I'LL NOT MARRY YOU.
(:
Haha!
~~
Byebye.
♥ much loves, 7:12 PM
Cute friends that I have.
Heh.There's some cute and funny people all around me.
Think I spread some disease to them.
:x
My personal message on MSN was, or rather, IS : 本小姐心情很阳光光光光光 (: SAY HOHO.
So...
F.O.U.R people came to talk and literally say HOHO.
By chronological order:
- TingYan
- YianLu
- Leon
- Zhiying
Such LAMESHIT people.
Haha.
Made me smile to myself.
(:
THANKS ~
&...There's this very funny person.
All others say HOHO.
He came and questioned me...
"WHY YOU SO HAPPY?"
Duper lameshit kia...LEENGUANHAN.
Ho, he won't see this anyway.
But, let me tell you a secret.
'cause TingYan kept on accusing me that I'm vulgar.
BUT I'M NOT.
IT'S LEENGUANHAN!
So...TingYan, go and scold him.
(:
.
ANYWAYWAYWAYWAYWAY.
I was bathing and I thought of something.
From now on, I want to be really nice to everybody.
Yeapps, so for now, you all must try and take advantage of me 'cause I don't know how long I'll last.
;D
Hopefully till I die.
But I bet the day I become mean is sooner rather than later.
And, I'll only be nice to my family and friends.
Hence, if you're a passer-by, go away.
I am not those people who are exceptionally nice to strangers.
On the contrary, I find no reason to be nice to people I don't know.
So unless you're a friend's friend, I have no reason to be nice to you.
This treatment will only be made available to my family, friends, classmates, and schoolmates.
Why is that in italics?
'cause I have reservations regarding that group.
Well...some are sort of strangers.
But, well, I guess everyone will know where they stand.
:D
Sooo...G R A B the chance.
L O L!
.
Haven't you ever wonder?
Why do certain people treat strangers better?
Who are strangers to them?
Strangers are just unknowns who you chanced upon albeit having the potential to become a good friend.
Yet, sometimes, the contrast in treatment of a stranger and a friend of certain people makes my blood boil.
(See!~ I'm being mean again, but I don't have friends like this, so it's okay! (: )
Like, at the end of the day, why bother about the potential that he/she/it can be your friend?
You already have a friend don't you?
Why?
Trying to be a social queen?
Trying to enlarge your pool of friends?
Quality versus Quantity.
I strongly believe that this type of people, sadly, will end up with neither quality nor quantity.
As in, they are hurting the feelings of their friends !
If I'm their friend, I'll think, "Why am I treated worse than a plain stranger?"
SO yea, I'm not nice to any strangers...not that I'm very nice to my friends, which I'm guilty of being not.
:/
And, yes.
I guess this is also partly due to poor first impressions people form of me.
So, yes!
MUTUAL UN-NICE TREATMENT.
Haha!
I just find no single reason to be nice to strangers.
Find me 10 and I'll change my perspective.
Well, you may go, "Hey, they might become your friends!"
I'll go, "Hell yea! Then wait for that day to come and I'll be nice to them."
I might also be letting the chance to make a great friend slip by.
Again, it's okay.
Since...I have a lot of wonderful friends around me!
(:
Heh!
I want to know a lot of people.
But, I only need a few SUPERB-QUALITY friends.
(:
Lala~
So, sometimes, I'm too mean for my own good 'cause I see no reason to be nice to people I dislike or don't know.
:D
Therefore, I guess my shrugs of evil comments from others about me is probably derived from here.
Sometimes, I do get affected.
However, I don't really get very affected 'cause it's really no business of mine how you perceive of me.
:/
I don't live to impress any strangers.
So, I won't change when I heard negative feedbacks.
However, if you're my family or friends, I'll try and accommodate.
HAHA.
I really think this sounds logical!
Why change for some idiot who gossips about you?
Why care about some dense comments from people who don't even know you.
In the very first place, they have no rights to judge me!
Such stupid people who don't see what I do 24 hours.
So it's really ludicrous why they have the right to just throw out a negative comment based on a random action I make.
That's just so unacceptable.
& the reason why I don't give so much thoughts to what passer-by(s) say.
I admit, I was more affected when I was in Secondary 1 and 2.
But, as I grew up, I see no point in being affected.
(Perhaps due to the fact that I'm starting to get immune due to too many stares and comments. L O L.)
But, for now.
Talk for all you want.
I will go my way.
La~
Ok.
No more slacking.
I've posted so loooooong.
Felt relieved of a load.
L.O.L.
Blogging fever is back.
BOOM!
BANG!
PLOP!
♥ much loves, 10:04 AM
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Filled with little things.
America decides...
...that...
They'll have the first African American President - Barack Obama.
(:I feel kind of touched that due to racial issues Obama is still able to oversome the obstacle and be the next to be in charge of the Whitehouse.
LOL.
Of course, I'm not implying that Americans are so dense to base their choice on the race of a person.
However, well-knowing that racial issues is kind of severe in that country, it's still a feat.
(:
However, it doesn't concern me directly.
Just wanted to share a piece of world news.
;D
.
I am only left with 5 papers.
Ha.
13 papers down already.
I can't say it's fast but it sure has gone past with perhaps...5 blinks of my eyes.
It's Higher Mother Tongue Paper 1 and 2 today.
Wasn't very prepared and I really do hope I'll get an A1 for it.
:p
Well, I bet my mummy will be kind of disappointed if I don't get it.
Heh.
.
So, anyway, I'm really kind of happy at this moment.
Perhaps it dawned on me that I have completed so many subjects or perhaps the rain just now washed away my moodiness.
Irregardless of the reason, I want to scream to the whole world that Miss Toh Jia Le is very happy now.
Not that many will care.
But at least YOU (yes, you, the one reading my post)care.
(:
Heh heh heh heh~
.
& my sister sent me an email of some fengshui thing.
It's kinda accurate.
TAKE A LOOK AT THE RESULTS OF...
...TingYan's:
Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back. You try to enjoy your life to the maximum and your lovelife is soon to blosoom. You will have a strong love relationship that will not last long but the memories will last forever. You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.
Yes, she sure is easy-going!
About her lovelife...well...it's not mine.
Go and ask her.
CALL HER AT 9*******/6*******!
(:
(You're a genius if you can decipher the numbers.)
...Mine:
You are alert and your life is full of love. You have a lot of love and friendships in your life. Your love life will not be too great, but eventually you will find your soul mate. Your life will take on a different direction, it will seem hard at time but will be the best thing for you, you will be glad for the change.
Haha, mine's kinda accurate unless you find me dense, with a life full of hatred and no friendships in life.
(:
It's okay that my love life will not be too great.
'cause I'm abstaining from love/the notion of love (in the sense of a boy-girl relationship) now.
LOL.
But, a soulmate sounds good to me.
:D
AH LU AH, I think they're referring to you.
You want to be a mate to my soul?
Lol!
I bet you don't want.
It's okay.
I shall look into the reflection that stares straight into me.
(:
.
OH YEA.
OESHD STRIKES AGAIN.
In case you're not sure what it means, look back into the one of the March entries I posted.
(:
Ha, don't trouble you.
I tell you.
:D
"Over-Enthusiastic and Self-High Disease"
LOL.
Heh.
.
I wanted to do some serious blogging.
But, too many people came to talk and all the ideas and thoughts ran away.
D:
.
OKAY.
I show you guys why you all should view my blog in Internet Explorer!
SEE?!
SEE?!
I told you.
There's the background! (FLOWERS and plain-whitish-white)
There's the heading! (Hearts and words...and some cut-off nonsense.)
There's the title of the post!
The size of the box!
>:(
.
Anyway, I have to go study for like...Human Geography?
.
& I really feel like blogging.
About alot of things.
But my thoughts ran away.
D:
.
THANKS for reading.
(:
♥ much loves, 2:35 PM
Sunday, November 2, 2008
I got an answer.
Thanks ah-lululululuuuu.Really.
I think I owe you a lot.
L O L!
Like...
A LOT.
Heh.
.
'cause sometimes, the heart takes over the mind in emotional matters.
I conceal how I feel 'cause I don't want my heart to take control lest I appear like an emotional and hysterical freak.
I kept silent 'cause I don't wish for any slight changes; I don't want any unnaturally nice treatment.
Perhaps, after a prolonged period, immunisation will take place -
- The heart no longer feels.
- The eyes no longer see.
- The ears no loner hear.
- There's simply nothing else to mind
.
That's what I hope, at the very least.
.
Tones.
Gestures.
Insensitivity.
Knifes.
.
有时候，不论你对一个人的好，什么也换不回。
的确，友谊不是一场交易。
但，我要的也不是一箩筐的"谢谢"与无时无刻的珍惜；我只是单单地不愿被遗忘。
.
A lot of things had gone on without me.
& when I realised, a sense of despair washed over me.
.
It was as though I was trapped in a humongous stone-cold castle.
And, there are unstoppable and uncontrollable echos around me...
"Too late...too late...too late..."
Yet, I'm afraid to touch any wall to attempt to stop the chants.
I'm scared that with just a slight touch, the stones will crumble.
& then, everything's gone.
.
& sometimes I think.
If you hadn't bothered to ask me anything about any plans made, why bother now?
I wasn't involved in anything.
What make you think I will accede to everything planned?
'cause a large part of me resist.
That is the plans you guys want to have fun.
Not mine.
.
& I hope everything will pass.
.
I love ulniaymil.
(:
.
♥ much loves, 8:22 PM
Emotionally-unstable.
♥ much loves, 9:31 AM
Saturday, November 1, 2008
I. - who?
ReflectionLook at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be
Free to fly
That burns with a need to know
The reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
.
Out of 70+ songs, I heard this as the first.
A sign?
A representation?
I'm losing the rebellious streak in me.
I'm losing the urge to voice myself.
I'm kind of losing myself, I guess.
I can't let go and be genuinely fine, or at least appear to be.
But, I don't have the courage to spill how I feel.
I don't dare to post anything 'cause I don't want to tread on any toes.
I don't dare to even hint 'cause I'm afraid that something will change.
But.
I can't pretend that all is fine.
Conceal.
Pretend.
Facade.
Not what I want.
Yet, it's what I am now.
For what I speak, I want to take responsibility.
With this, I took away my rights to speak 'cause I don't want to hurt any feelings.
So unlike me.
Darn.
Be myself.
Ha.
Ha.
Ha.
Insecure or what?
Too many things to think through.
But my gear in the brain somehow jammed.
I don't know what I should think and what I should do.
I'm sorry.
Sorry for letting myself down for not letting my feelings out.
Sorry for letting you(anyone)down for paying heed to small things.
Sorry for anything that I should be.
I don't like myself like this.
Just yesterday, I told myself.
I will be there for anyone who need me, no matter will they be there for me or not.
Today, I'm not having any second thoughts.
Just realise that it's harder than it seems to be.
I'm not born nice.
Not as nice as those sweet little ladies you meet.
Trying to be nice.
Trying to be more considerate.
Trying to be better.
It's hard.
♥ much loves, 9:33 PM
