♥
I'm just a girl
who turned
sixteen.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Songs in life.
最近常常认为自己开始迷失了方向。
似乎已提不起劲作任何与人相处的事了。
Sorry for the second post in one day, and sorry for using chinese.
But, cheena-ness strikes.
:D
Anyway, I really lack passion for life recently.
It's been long since I've been enthusiastic and alert about things around me.
It's just kind of pointless aye?
I feel like I'm swimming against the current..Hardly surviving.
I don't feel like doing anything at all..except chatting with one I'm familiar with through the night.
But who will it be?
Everyone is so busy..
I guess everyone (including me) is like that.
We only try to squeeze time out when we realise the consequences is dire.
.
Sometimes, I really miss the classroom I had last time.
Even if it means sleeping in class with WeiLun beside me, whiling time away.
Or just tying two ponytails in class to make people laugh, with no one judging my actions.
Or just simple embarass myself in front of the class.
Screaming and running about in an environment I know so well.
Passing a big can of HELLOPANDA around the griup of us to it when it doesn't belong to us but Kenneth..
Turning back to find WeeKiat and Keith sleeping.
Starting the trend to not hand in work.
Starting the trend to not go to school.
Carrying my crazy mickey mouse bag in school.
Playing volleyball with the guys.
Coming to school early every morning to meet LU and PAT.
Being teased as the CG of the class room by NguanHan.
Miss meeting Eugene and whosoever in the walkway.
Miss Cai Lao Shi and the times I sneaked up behind her and scare the shit out of her.
Miss her trying to get howework from me.
Miss Mr Chin and his animated expression.
Miss Mrs Joseph with her hairy thing which she throws around in class.
Miss signing in (and out) at the thumbprint system.
Miss so much, so much..
I feel like I'm living in the past.
Feeding like the only one stuck.
SHIT.
I miss walking home.
How 'bout that, 30 minutes and I'm sure to reach home..
Sigh..
I do like HC.
It's just that it's different.
You don't understand hur?
I don't also..
♥ much loves, 7:16 PM
Sincerity
Sometimes, I wonder how sincere people are.
You can feed me all the promises, but you leave them hanging there.
Do you seriously expect me to be contented with empty words?
Sighh..
I hate to feel that way lei..
Like all suspecting and wary of actions done and words spoken.
But I come to think that your treatment towards me change..No longer than nice and sensitive and caring.
Is paranoia bothering me or is that really true?
.
I really don't like it when people patronise me..
Like telling me you're free one minute while the next telling me you have appointments.
SHUCKS.
.
Anyway, Huang Chen is over.
& I'm glad I'm quite free now!
:D
Meeting NguanHan, WeeKiat, Brain and co. this THURSDAY!
SUPERLY OVERJOYED.
Wanted to go swimming with them lei!
BUT.
Evidently, Friday's timetable shifted to Thursday...WHICH MEANT I'M ONLY RELEASED AT FOUR.
SIGH x 1000 ~
I am looking forward to Thursday.
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ONGYIJIA. JIAYOU FOR SYF.
Thanks and much love!
The past 3 months have been lovely with you around..
I think one of the best thing that happened to me since I entered HC is to find myself a good friend!
Life is ironic in its turns and corner.
Never would I have expected that I would ever be this close and crazy with you since knowing you in Sec 1.
BUT I'M NOT HAVING ANY REGRETS :D
(:
.
JK!
Jiayou jiayou jiayou.
Take care of yourself.
(:
.
Sometimes, I wonder if I was used.
Sometimes, I wonder if it was because I make myself so readily available that you think nothing to push me aside.
Sometimes, I regret doing all I've done.
Sometimes, sometimes...
♥ much loves, 7:02 PM
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Commitments.
HOKAY! I'm back once again after quite a few days.
School is seriously sapping my energy.
Hmm, I only attended 3 out of 5 days .
Hee, cause it's canoe NATIONALS.
An really proud of my seniors.
Hopefully HCANOE '10 (US! US!) will do well next year!
Yesterday had post competition dinner with teachers, coach and seniors, and GRAND seniors.
Quite cool, shokudo at Raffles City.
I really think that my team has a lot of nice people!
It's good 'cause it's inevitable that I'll see them 7 days a week when nearing competition next year.
MUST STAY COMMITTED!
:D
Anyway, I'm currently at HCI high school hall (aka Kah Kee Hall) for Huang Chen.
I'm a lil' guilty to say I'm praying for it to end fast.
'cause it's really taking up a lot of time..
I'm missing canoe trainings for it too..
I don't really mind.
But! I feel that I'm wasting a lot of time waiting and doing unproductive stuff so I really hate it.
I know waiting is part and parcel of theatrics but it just seriously sucks when you need to allocate things for all sorts of things.
AND when you had no time to meet people you miss.
Sigh!~
However, I do have to say that the feelow students who do make up as me for the particulat skit are a fun lot.
Heh~
BUT STILL, I hope MAY quickly come!
Then I'll have more time for myself and friends!
:D
*ANTICIPATION*
For now, it's just commitment and responsibility carrying me on..
& school work is slipping!
Grr..
AND. WORSE!
MY BLOG IS SLIPPING.
HOLY SHIT!
I really feel like blogging.
But sometimes, it's kind of daunting to me.
For everything that happen to me, for everyone that I meet everyday in my life, I wonder whether you the reader know.
It was much easier last time 'cause I know whoever and whatever I'm writing about, you understand.
But for now..it's kind of hard.
It's like the intersection point of the venn diagream is getting smaller and smaller.
The common areas of of life is shrinking..
But, again, what can we do about it?
I don't really regret coming into HwaChong.
But I really, really, really think that the situation would be much better if lu and pat got into the same school as me..
Sigh.
Let's stop being whiny and depressed.
Ha!
ANYWAY.
I really, really think that I'm a pervert attractor.
WTF.
I almost/was peeped when I was bathing in school.
To what extent I do not know.
But when I told someone, she keep telling me the horrros of it that it is dawning on me...
Guys with raging hormone but no access to girls in daily lives are a scary lot.
STAY AWAY FROM THEM!
I mean..it's ridiculous to go into a girls toilet, stepped onto a toilet bowl and peer over the wall, into a bathing facilities ya?'
All I can hope is that if he really peeped, he did not have the mind to use a camera/phone..
My life is too exciting..
ANYWAY, I think I'm losing the knack to blog already.
ZZZ.
RUSTING AWAY~~
OHYA, just a random fact, I've been having diarrhea for 3.5 days since tuesday night le..
It's seriously holy shit hur..
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By being away, I clearly know who I want and need in my life.
Some people are especially missed in comparison to other.
& some, though met more often, still need to be seen mnore frequently.
LOL.
& this tells you the importance of them..
Some matters of heart is just not so easily explained hur..
*F..I typed a lot..BUT IT'S ALL GONE.
ALL GONE*
wails..
Dear friends, I love you.
BYE.
I AM FED UP.
LOL!!
♥ much loves, 4:39 PM
Monday, April 13, 2009
The different ways..
For all kinds of things, under different nature, we use different approaches..
AGREE?
LOL.
All I can say is for friendships, normally we hope they last as long as ever and will never ever fade.
But you know?
For some other kinds of friendship, is best to step out of it, and remember it at its best.
Don't drag and finally see its worst before you chopped it off 'cause by then all pleasantries would be marred.
Sometimes you pray that people around you will change.
But again, acceptance is cool ya?
Some things just cannot be change, so rather than be flustered and irritated by it, might as well leave it as that.
Though the line and distinction become unclear, and I no longer know where you stand in my life, I no longer try to find the answer anymore.
All I know is, memories serve best in the case.
There are times I wonder why one can make all around him/her to be so taken with him/her.
But, it's time to grow up.
The world is unfair and not all can see from your view.
& there's just simply no point in claiming that you're right 'cause you'll seem like the fool.
(:
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Sometimes, physical distance is just not the point.
I can be so close to someone yet feel so far emotionally.
While other are just so close to my heart though I haven't met them in ages.
.
I miss .. YOU!
(:
♥ much loves, 8:45 PM
Friday, April 3, 2009
It's getting too packed.
I can't even celebrate my darling's birthday on the day itself.
I say shit.
& I lost a friend, I guess...without her even knowing.
:/
I'm busy, busy, busy!
Monday-saturday all choked with CCAs..
And this sunday might not even have abreak for me.
WTf.
♥ much loves, 3:55 AM
